Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me always feels like a mistake.
It truly does always feel like a mistake to me and it's one that just causes all this harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway, I'll just always find it so dreadful to suffer all for the sake of it burdened with this existence and it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, in this existence so cruel and torturous the only relief for me could lie in never suffering ever again. I just want all to be forgotten for me but of course the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues and it's all so terrible to me, more than anything I just wish I was never forced to suffer, I just never should had been burdened with this existence I always saw as the most terrible cruel mistake and to me existing really is only suffering.

I suffer just from being conscious and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is to not exist, I'll just always find it so deeply undesirable to exist no matter what and in this existence where there's all this suffering the only peace for me could lie in non-existence, existence to me really is the problem and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death. I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and all I wish for is to never suffer suffer ever again, existence really will always feel like a mistake to me and it's one so cruel that just causes and brings all this harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway, only eternal sleep could ever bring me the relief and peace I search for from this existence I never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering in this torturous existence.
I truly am always so tired of suffering in this torturous existence and it's tiredness only eternal non-existence could ever take away for me, I just want to fall asleep permanently and never suffer ever again but of course the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues, it really is all so dreadful and terrible to me.

As long as I exist I'll only wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering where finally nothing can concern me, I'd just never wish for the suffering of this cruel, torturous existence rather all I wish for is to never suffer ever again, I wish for no more suffering rather all I want is to fall asleep permanently and finally forget about this existence I never would had chosen that I always saw as just causing so much suffering and harm and I personally suffer simply from existing. It's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me and I'm just always so tired of suffering in this existence I personally always saw as the most terrible mistake just hoping and wishing to be gone and I'll always see existing as just being waiting for death no matter what and I suffer just from existing. It's suffering only eternal dreamless sleep could ever take away for me and bring me peace from, I just want all to be gone for me, I wish for no more suffering and I'll always find it so torturous to exist, for me non-existence really is all that's positive, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for from the cruelty and suffering of this futile existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty and suffering in existing.
There really is so much cruelty and suffering in existing and it really is just all so dreadful and terrible to me, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I wish for is to not exist, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'm just always so tired of suffering in this existence I always saw as the most cruel mistake.

I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is non-existence, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the cruelty of existing where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death, it's just dreadful unnecessary cruelty and suffering and I'm just always so tired of suffering in this existence I just never would had wished for and I'll just always see existing as being only suffering. I personally suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, I just want all to finally be forgotten about but of course the suffering just continues with me just hoping and wishing to be gone, non-existence really is the only peace and relief for me in this existence where I suffer and I just find it so terrible and dreadful how I was forced to suffer and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I hope for is non-existence. I really will only be at peace in dreamless eternal sleep where all is finally forgotten, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering the only relief for me could lie in never existing ever again.

 

[Pale_Rider]

Humans like to think they are something special, but I see otherwise.

 

[FuneralCry]

It feels like I've suffered for so long.
It really does feel like I've suffered for so long in this existence I just never would had chosen and I'd just never wish for the cruelty and suffering of existing rather all I want is to never exist ever again, I just want all to finally be gone and forgotten for me, I'll just always find it so terrible and dreadful to suffer in this existence and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me any peace from.

All I wish for is an dreamless eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering where this existence is finally no longer my problem and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never exist ever again, I just want this existence of cruelty and suffering to finally be all gone but of course the suffering just continues as after all I'm so cruelly denied the option of a death like never waking ever again and as long as I exist I'll only hope for no more pain and no more suffering. I just want all to be gone for me and I'm always so tired of being burdened with this torturous existence of unnecessary suffering that I just never would had wished for and never would had chosen. I always see it as the most terrible, dreadful tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all, I just wish I was never forced to suffer more than anything and nothing would ever make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather I only hope and wish to not exist, I just wish I never was burdened with this existence and it always feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I just never would had wished for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wish I never suffered.
I always wish I never suffered, I wish I was never burdened with this existence of suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it, existence to me really is an unnecessary harm, I see existence as the most terrible torturous imposition that just causes existing beings to suffer until non-existence takes away all anyway and if I never existed it'd saved me from all this suffering in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway. I'll always see existing as just waiting to die, it's just pain, problems and suffering there was never a need for and I just wish that more than anything I was never burdened with this existence, I never should had been forced to suffer at all and if I never existed it'd save me from so much suffering and to be permanently unable to suffer is all I hope for and is all I see as desirable.

I'm just always so tired of being burdened with this torturous, painful existence and what is so terrible to me is how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again even know I never chose any of this and never would do, existence to me really is the problem and I'll just always see existence as the most terrible tragic mistake that just leads to decay and death anyway. Existence to me really is always an imposition and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, I really never should had been forced to suffer in this cruel, futile existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for, to me existence really is just an unnecessary harm that just causes and brings so much suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much pain and cruelty in existing.
There truly is so much pain and cruelty in existing and I'd just never wish for this torturous, painful existence rather all I hope for is an eternal sleep where this existence of suffering all for the sake of it is finally all forgotten, I'll personally always see it as an terrible abomination to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents destined to decay and die anyway and more than anything I just wish I was never forced to suffer. I just never should had suffered in this existence no matter what and I'll just always see existing as only suffering, I suffer simply from existing and what is so terrible to me is how there is no limit as to how unbearable the pain and cruelty of existing can get.

I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief I search for from this deeply undesirable existence I just never would had chosen and more than anything I just wish I was never burdened with this existence where there's all this pain and cruelty until non-existence takes away all anyway. I'll just always find it so painful to exist, it's pain only permanent non-existence can ever bring me peace and relief from as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where finally all is gone and this existence is finally no longer my problem, I just wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering rather all I hope for is to never exist ever again where I'm finally free from this existence of only suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence is always so dreadful to me.
No matter what I really will always see it as so dreadful and terrible to suffer in this existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be permanently free from it all, I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep where this dreadful existence is all forgotten about and finally nothing can concern me with no more pain and no more suffering.

I'll just always find it so dreadful to be burdened with this existence just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway, for me existence really is the problem and it's one only ceasing to exist can solve and take away for me, only non-existence could ever bring me the peace I search for from the cruelty and suffering of this torturous existence and is all I'll hope and wish for, I just have so much dread for what lies ahead and I'll always find it so dreadful to exist suffering all for the sake of it and to me existing really is only suffering. I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway and I'll always see existence as just waiting for death, existence truly does just cause pain, problems and suffering there was never a need for and it's all just so dreadful to me, more than anything I wish I never suffered and I just never should had been forced to suffer at all, I just want to fall asleep permanently and never suffer ever again but of course the suffering of existing just continues and I'm just always so tired of suffering in this torturous existence I just never would had wished for and never would had chose.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes harm.
It truly does just cause so much harm until all is gone and forgotten in non-existence anyway and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this torturous, harmful existence I just never would had chosen that only ever brought so much pain, I just see it as so harmful to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents destined to decay and die anyway and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing.

It truly is all so terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is non-existence where there is no more pain and I'm finally unable to suffer and I'll always see existing as being only suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I personally suffer simply from existing, for me non-existence really is all that's desirable and is all that can bring me the peace and relief I search for from this existence I just never would had chosen and I'd never wish to suffer at all rather all I hope for is non-existence. For me the only relief could lie in an eternal sleep where all is finally gone and finally I can be at peace from this harmful existence I always saw as a mistake and I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing and no matter what I'd prefer to not exist than suffer, I suffer simply from existing and I'd just never wish for this harmful existence that just torments existing beings until non-existence takes away all anyway, it's always so dreadful and terrible to me how there's all this suffering all for the sake of it in existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just creates problems there were never a need for.
It truly does which is just so terrible and dreadful to me, I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather I only hope for the peace of an eternal nothingness where all is finally gone and for me existence itself really is the true problem, I suffer as a result of existing and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where finally nothing can concern me and in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering permanent non-existence really is all I could hope for.

I'll just always see it as so deeply undesirable to be conscious suffering in this existence and it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me peace from, I'll always find it a burden to exist and it's a burden that only ever brought pain and caused me to suffer and I'll always see existing as being only suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel. I just wish that more than anything I never had to suffer, the fact that this existence was imposed is the most terrible tragedy to me and I personally suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only the peace of non-existence could ever bring me any relief from as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer. Non-existence would solve everything for me in this cruel existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway and it's so terrible and dreadful to me how there's all this suffering and cruelty in existing, this existence really never should had been imposed and I'd just never wish for this existence of suffering all for the sake of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me is always just waiting to die.
No matter what I'll always just see existing as waiting to die, it's just suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for and more than anything I just wish I was never forced to suffer in this existence I always saw as the most cruel mistake, there's just so much cruelty and so much suffering in existing, it's all so dreadful to me and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again even know it all just leads to decay and death anyway.

I'll just always see existing as waiting to die, it's just suffering there was never a need for and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I hope for is non-existence, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this torturous existence I always saw as so deeply undesirable and I'd just never wish for any of this suffering, I'd personally always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and I'll always see existing as just being unnecessary suffering that there was never a need for at all. As long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to sleep permanently, for me non-existence really is all that's desirable, I'll just always find it so deeply undesirable to be burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily and it's suffering only eternal non-existence could ever bring me any relief from, I just want all to finally be forgotten for me with no more pain, no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so deeply undesirable to exist.
No matter what I'll just always find it so deeply undesirable to exist and I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing and I'll always see existing as only being suffering, I personally suffer simply from being conscious in this existence I always saw as such a terrible mistake and more than anything I just wish I was never forced to suffer. I just never should had been burdened with this existence of cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it that I just never would had chosen and would never wish for, for me only non-existence could ever be a desirable state as after all, only in non-existence am I unable to suffer.

There is no suffering in the peace of an eternal sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten about and to sleep for all eternity truly is all I hope for, I just want this deeply undesirable existence to finally be forgotten for me with no more pain and no more suffering and it just feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this existence I just never would had chosen and never would had wished for and more than anything I just wish I never suffered in this torturous, unnecessary existence, I see nothing desirable about existing rather I always see it as a burden to exist and it's a burden so cruel and futile that just causes harm and suffering until the peace of non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer, for me non-existence really is all that's desirable and is all I could ever wish and hope for, I'm just always so tired of it all.