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enlightened_suicide

enlightened_suicide

How do you know, this isn't all a dream?
Jan 4, 2020
112

I hope your at peace now <3 and I am glad the site came back up so you were not alone in your final moments...
Goodnight Moon :heart:
 
Sunshine

Sunshine

Student
Jan 11, 2019
132
This is actually kind of crazy and surreal.

Edit: I don't know about you guys but the fact that she posted so many pictures and glimpses of her life/incoming passing made this thread more personal and real to me. It hits harder in a way.
 
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Lotus1818

Lotus1818

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Nov 4, 2019
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Everyone. Moonie threw up. i couldnt see how much. after that she had some trouble breathing. the breathing only became slower and slower. and now she's laying not breathing. peacefully. i need some time to proces this whole thing. i will update everyone another time.
 
Sunshine

Sunshine

Student
Jan 11, 2019
132
Everyone. Moonie threw up. i couldnt see how much. after that she had some trouble breathing. the breathing only became slower and slower. and now she's laying not breathing. peacefully. i need some time to proces this whole thing. i will update everyone another time.

Damn. Did it look to you like she was suffering? If she struggled with the breathing?
 
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OrangeLounge

OrangeLounge

Member
Jan 5, 2020
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Everyone. Moonie threw up. i couldnt see how much. after that she had some trouble breathing. the breathing only became slower and slower. and now she's laying not breathing. peacefully. i need some time to proces this whole thing. i will update everyone another time.
Please take care of yourself, it can be very hard to do what you have agreed to. :heart:
 
waterbottleman

waterbottleman

Not a person
Sep 30, 2019
721
Everyone. Moonie threw up. i couldnt see how much. after that she had some trouble breathing. the breathing only became slower and slower. and now she's laying not breathing. peacefully. i need some time to proces this whole thing. i will update everyone another time.
That is heart breaking =(

Jeez you’re a much stronger person than I am, I couldn’t handle watching anyone go through with something like that. Especially someone with a heart of gold like Moon.
 
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pandora

Member
Sep 21, 2019
36
Everyone. Moonie threw up. i couldnt see how much. after that she had some trouble breathing. the breathing only became slower and slower. and now she's laying not breathing. peacefully. i need some time to proces this whole thing. i will update everyone another time.

Take care of yourself. You've been through a lot, especially tonight, but throughout Moonicide's full process. *hugs*
 
Lotus1818

Lotus1818

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Nov 4, 2019
248
Damn. Did it look to you like she was suffering? If she struggled with the breathing?
i have it all documented. i need some time to process this. i will update you later in this thread. or in a new thread.
i think overall the method is pretty fast. and i guess there was a bit of suffering.allot of gasping for air. but im not sure if she was consious during that.
 
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Daffodil

Student
Dec 23, 2019
130
Everyone. Moonie threw up. i couldnt see how much. after that she had some trouble breathing. the breathing only became slower and slower. and now she's laying not breathing. peacefully. i need some time to proces this whole thing. i will update everyone another time.
That's why I asked for her to say when she was leaving consciousness. I heard another report of a sitter who was quite traumatized by how it ended and said SN was not peaceful at all. The thing is, I think the person is probably unconscious by the time they throw up and ultimately die. I hope when you have some time to process maybe you can report back, maybe on the SN megathread. Take care of yourself now, you did a really good thing and I hope you can are able to be at peace with it soon too.
 
WhyIsLife56

WhyIsLife56

Antinatalism + Efilism ❤️
Nov 4, 2019
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i have it all documented. i need some time to process this. i will update you later in this thread. or in a new thread.
i think overall the method is pretty fast. and i guess there was a bit of suffering.allot of gasping for air. but im not sure if she was consious during that.
Take the time you need :hug::hug::halo:
 
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OrangeLounge

OrangeLounge

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Jan 5, 2020
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I have a feeling that the extra day of meto may have done more harm than good. I was worried about that when someone brought it up on the first page...

It's actually raining right now. I feel like the sky is crying for you, Moonie... along with many of us here. I hope you're okay, wherever you are. Lotus, as well.
 
enlightened_suicide

enlightened_suicide

How do you know, this isn't all a dream?
Jan 4, 2020
112
i have it all documented. i need some time to process this. i will update you later in this thread. or in a new thread.
i think overall the method is pretty fast. and i guess there was a bit of suffering.allot of gasping for air. but im not sure if she was consious during that.
take your time and take care of yourself that is a lot to process
 
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Broken Chimera

Broken Chimera

The abyss also gazes into you
May 27, 2019
972
Everyone. Moonie threw up. i couldnt see how much. after that she had some trouble breathing. the breathing only became slower and slower. and now she's laying not breathing. peacefully. i need some time to proces this whole thing. i will update everyone another time.
I'm sorry you had to sit through that. Please take care of yourself. I hope she didn't suffer too much.
 
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Lotus1818

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That's why I asked for her to say when she was leaving consciousness. I heard another report of a sitter who was quite traumatized by how it ended and said SN was not peaceful at all. The thing is, I think the person is probably unconscious by the time they throw up and ultimately die. I hope when you have some time to process maybe you can report back, maybe on the SN megathread. Take care of yourself now, you did a really good thing and I hope you can are able to be at peace with it soon too.
atm im really shaking. in total it took around 20 min for me to be fully sure she stopped breathing
 
Sunshine

Sunshine

Student
Jan 11, 2019
132
With all due respect, Sunshine, please allow Lotus this time to grieve, as requested. As mentioned, they are processing a significant and traumatic loss. There is time to have our questions answered, but this is not that time.

No, you're right. I just thought Lotus left and would come back later to answer (not now) as they said they would update us another time.
i have it all documented. i need some time to process this. i will update you later in this thread. or in a new thread.
i think overall the method is pretty fast. and i guess there was a bit of suffering.allot of gasping for air. but im not sure if she was consious during that.

Sorry, please take your time. I didn't mean to push you into answering directly.
 
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Daffodil

Student
Dec 23, 2019
130
atm im really shaking. in total it took around 20 min for me to be fully sure she stopped breathing
Maybe you can take some solace in that she spared herself a lot of suffering through life and I'm sure a natural death would have been quite painful.

20 minutes is not really that long in the grad scheme of thing, I thought it was going to take longer. I look away for what seemed like a second.