Venting Feeling I'm not real

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Hi, i just discoverd this place
I've been feeling like I'm not real at all, that my body and face are melting and everytime I need to look at my hands and touch them just to be sure... No one really cares, u know? I have cut scars on my arms and they just ignore it, I'm obviously suicidal and whenever the topic " death" comes they just say if i die by my own hands I'm gonna rot in hell. After thinking for some time I think dying is going to be a good ideia, anyone have something like this in their minds?

 

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I've actually been using cutting for awhile as a way to feel real myself. A lot of times I feel I'm on autopilot and serve myself no purpose. Dissociation is an awful feeling. I just tend to sleep it off if possible since at least in sleep it feels like I don't exist at all which is preferable.

Sorry you're feeling this way though OP I hope you manage to find peace.