Venting Feeling guilty

[Toti]

I'm ready to die, I have my plans but my father called me yesterday and told me he wouldn't be able to live without me. I was so surprised, it was out of nowhere - he knows I'm struggling but I just didn't expect him to call me like that.

I feel so guilty for leaving him behind, it really hurts my heart. I wish there was an option where he wouldn't be hurt by it.

 

[FuneralCry]

I imagine that must be a painful situation to be in, to me it really is cruel how there's all this suffering. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[redkitsune98]

It's a matter of how much you are willing to suffer in order to spare other people. Is your pain bigger and hsrder to handle? In the end, the choice is yours

 

[white_petals]

I agree with redkitsune - the guilt before my loved ones outweighs the desire to ctb at the moment as well, and I think that's pretty much natural if you have people you care for. don't chew yourself up over it - you've already got enough on your plate. sending hugs and I hope whatever you decide to do, it'll be for the best.