Feel so emo

[monolog]

I was motivated and determined to kms without any regrets and even with some joy
But now I look back at my life analyze it feeling sadness empathy etc Holy shit how pathetic it is.
I believe that stae of mind counterproductive and probably force me to pussy out

 

[Linda]

I was motivated and determined to kms without any regrets and even with some joy
But now I look back at my life analyze it feeling sadness empathy etc Holy shit how pathetic it is.
I believe that stae of mind counterproductive and probably force me to pussy out

I don't think you are in a position to judge that your life is/was "pathetic". That's for the same reason that we shouldn't rush to judge anyone's life (including our own) to have been a success either. As we go through life, we interact with lots of people, and inevitably we affect them. They will live their life a bit differently because they have known you. They, in their turn, will go on to affect others. The ripples that you start will spread out a long way, and you can have no idea how far they will go, or whether their ultimate effects will be for good or for bad.
Just get on with your life - assuming that you don't want to ctb - even if it seems to you that you are not doing or achieving much.
They also serve who only stand and wait.