Uwa
Snorting beta blockers
- Nov 8, 2025
- 51
Heyyy I kinda have to write this quick so sorry for any typos!
Today I was on call with my friends when my mom asked me to straighten up the kitchen. I had no problem with it because I clean the kitchen all the time and it's no big deal. I threw away trash, cleaned crumbs off the counters, stuff like that. Then a couple hours later she starts yelling at me because I didn't sweep the floor or wash someone else's dishes. I know it seems like it's not a lot but it feels like a lot to me. I clean all the time, even without being asked, but it's like all that I do just isn't apparent anymore when I mess up once. I don't feel like I deserved to be belittled because I made a small mistake, but she always does shit like this. Every day I have to deal with her taking her anger out on me because every relationship she tries to be in fails. I'm sick of it. I'm so sick of it. Sometimes I just wish she didn't exist anymore. I hate that I have to pretend to love her just because she gave birth to me, because I don't love her. I hate her. With every inch of my body, I hate her. Every second of sadness and pain in my life has been because of her, so I don't think she deserves my love at all. Not one but of it. I don't have any more friends I can say this stuff too because I feel like I'm over reacting, but Im not. I know I'm not. She has done stuff to be that if people knew about it would justify my hatred towards her. I forgot what I was trying to say with this post. But I relapsed again. It's not like I had a long streak anyways, I relapsed a couple days ago. I hope I will get better but I know I won't. Anyways, thank you so much for reading and have a good night or day or whatever!!
Today I was on call with my friends when my mom asked me to straighten up the kitchen. I had no problem with it because I clean the kitchen all the time and it's no big deal. I threw away trash, cleaned crumbs off the counters, stuff like that. Then a couple hours later she starts yelling at me because I didn't sweep the floor or wash someone else's dishes. I know it seems like it's not a lot but it feels like a lot to me. I clean all the time, even without being asked, but it's like all that I do just isn't apparent anymore when I mess up once. I don't feel like I deserved to be belittled because I made a small mistake, but she always does shit like this. Every day I have to deal with her taking her anger out on me because every relationship she tries to be in fails. I'm sick of it. I'm so sick of it. Sometimes I just wish she didn't exist anymore. I hate that I have to pretend to love her just because she gave birth to me, because I don't love her. I hate her. With every inch of my body, I hate her. Every second of sadness and pain in my life has been because of her, so I don't think she deserves my love at all. Not one but of it. I don't have any more friends I can say this stuff too because I feel like I'm over reacting, but Im not. I know I'm not. She has done stuff to be that if people knew about it would justify my hatred towards her. I forgot what I was trying to say with this post. But I relapsed again. It's not like I had a long streak anyways, I relapsed a couple days ago. I hope I will get better but I know I won't. Anyways, thank you so much for reading and have a good night or day or whatever!!
