Failure

[Ephemeral_sunshine]

Today, I went for a walk. I knew my destination, and I knew what I was going to do. I waited for my train. I even checked out when the fastest train was going to be near the area where I was waiting. And so I watched the train pass by. I waited for another one, then another one. After missing three trains, I went back home. I wasn't happy with myself, quite the contrary. I cried a bit and checked the timetable for tomorrow. It's messed up. I know what I want, but I can't do it. It requires only what? A few seconds of being brave? That shouldn't be a challenge.

 

[FuneralCry]

The train method sounds quite terrifying to me personally and suicide just isn't straightforward but anyway I understand why you would be upset. I wish you the best.

 

[Ephemeral_sunshine]

I just thought it would be quick, effective and once I take the step forward to this, there'll be no going back. It doesn't require much preparation. On the other hand i'll probably screw up some poor person's life. It will probably be a traumatic event for the driver. I honestly can't think of anything else that wouldn't raise any suspitions of my family (due to my inability to be a valuable member of society, i still live with my parents, they often go through my stuff because i've been suicidal ever since I was a kid.)