Failed CTB (Wrist)

[icetea15]

Hey. I cut my wrists yesterday. It was a relatively deep cut. I then called the suicide hotline and talked there for two hours while I was bleeding. When there was still no end in sight after two hours, the hotline informed the police when they found my address via my number (In Austria, registration with new numbers is mandatory). I was driven to the emergency room by the police, where they sewed up my wound. I was not put in the closed psychiatric ward. Altough I had a suicide note/letter with me. I was allowed to leave the hospital without any problems and had to volunteer in the outpatient clinic. I didn't want to be saved. It was a mistake to call there. I will not make this mistake anymore. The cut didn't hurt. A cool towel and ice blocks were enough to relieve the pain. Two cuts, each 10cm long. The artery was not completely cut. My body temperature dropped over time. No pain at all. Sewing up wound and infusion. That's it. Austria sucks. Plan to ctb next week by jumping.

 

[Hopeindeath!]

I'm sorry for all your pain. I know your life must be so bad to cause you to do this. I hope you heal without getting an infection.

 

[TheEndof]

Wow, I'm honestly surprised they took that long to inform the police. Glad it wasn't painful. Sounds like it would be!

 

[icetea15]

Wow, I'm honestly surprised they took that long to inform the police. Glad it wasn't painful. Sounds like it would be!

I called the hotline again after my treatment. It took two hours for the police to get the address from my cell operator.

I'm sorry for all your pain. I know your life must be so bad to cause you to do this. I hope you heal without getting an infection.

Thank you for your kind words but at this point in my life, I don't care if I get an infection or not.

 

[HorribleFeelings1]

You're way braver than me, I'm impressed! I'm glad it wasn't painful or nothing too serious, glad it was a wound easy to heal. I hope you find peace in whatever path you take, whatever makes you happy!!

 

[9137890]

If you want to succeed, I would look for another method. The change is very low with this method.

 

[icetea15]

Update:Medication

1x Sertralin 50mg (in the morning)
1x Mirtazapin 45mg (before going to bed(/bgtbed))
2x Temesta 1mg (Lorazepam; bgtbed)
2x Seroquel 25mg (Quetiapin; bgtbed)
1x Inderal 40mg (Propranolol; bgtbed)

 

[Living sucks]

I

Update:Medication

1x Sertralin 50mg (in the morning)
1x Mirtazapin 45mg (before going to bed(/bgtbed))
2x Temesta 1mg (Lorazepam; bgtbed)
2x Seroquel 25mg (Quetiapin; bgtbed)
1x Inderal 40mg (Propranolol; bgtbed)

if that's a plan to ctb, i dont think it will work

 

[icetea15]

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if that's a plan to ctb, i dont think it will work

No, no. That's the medication plan for the next two weeks from now on. According to the pachiatrist, this cocktail of medication will finally put me to sleep. They worked for two hours, have no memories of the time before taking them and currently have no orientation. But no sleep in sight.

 

[frostedreef]

If you want to succeed, I would look for another method. The change is very low with this method.

I think most wrist slashers don't really want to succeed. They're crying out for help and attention.