hobbydevil

hobbydevil

Anxiously biting fingernails.
Sep 8, 2019
60
Nope. Current plan is to ctb around my birthday (early next year), and I don't even know if I'll make it until then.
 
Nem

Nem

Drs suck mega ass!
Sep 3, 2018
1,489
I should be dead already, it would be an absolute miracle to last two more years
 
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Lethe

Lethe

Fey
Sep 19, 2019
670
Before the end of November I am dead.
Already made all preparations and informed family.

Just waiting for next payment to order my stuff and go.


Wow, I'm curious how your family responded to that.
 
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Thatdude

Life is temporary, death is permanent
Sep 26, 2019
473
Lets put it this way. This weekend I will have my birthday. I don't think I will have another. If I'm lucky, I won't have to take my own life.
 
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Emerald

Emerald

Despairing
Sep 16, 2019
74
I would've said probably yes if I hadn't found this forum and the wealth of information from the members here. I had planned to CBT for several years but with no clear plan of course it never happened.

Don't want to see 2020 nevermind 2021!
 
MeltingHeart

MeltingHeart

Visionary
Sep 9, 2019
2,151
doubt it, hope not-more like two wks-max-two days would be preferable
I know I won't. I have Complex Regional Pain Syndrome which is the highest ranking pain condition in medical history. I've had it for 14 years since I was 20. I've had enough pain and isolation to last a lifetime. It's an inhumane way to live and I'm only getting worse with time. There are no treatments or cures and it's nickname is actually the suicide disease. My friend killed herself 3 years ago at 31. I wish I had the balls back then to do it because I wouldn't be going through what I'm going through now. I have a date set. I just hope I can commit to it
is that the sme thing as trigeminal caused neuralgia?
 
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837

Member
Oct 12, 2019
28
i really hope not and it will be a miracle if im still alive because i think about suicide almost every minute of the day due to things that have happened in the past like bullying and things going on right now and i dont think there is any recovering from that however I have not set a date yet as i am scared of failing and i occasionally am scared of actually planning because of what will happen if i get an ambulance or police called on me. that would be so scary and i really dont want to be put on life support or IV sedated so the consequences are scaring me from actually planning idk so id say there is about 50 50 chance that im still alive by then.
 
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AnnonyBox

AnnonyBox

Specialist
Apr 11, 2018
334
I highly doubt it. Last year I said I would finish myself off by the end of the year, and I'm still stuck here, this time I intend to carry through on my promise to myself.
 
SuicidalSymphonies

SuicidalSymphonies

I think I'll take a dirt nap.
Oct 13, 2019
1,028
I certainly hope not. I really would prefer not to make it to my 23rd. (next bday). Suffering from constant pain that does not stop and the doctors cannot help me.
 
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N-IsMyHope

Student
Aug 25, 2018
139
I have 1.5 year left. I think I can do it. It is good to set goal.
 
Chronicillness

Chronicillness

Experienced
Jun 19, 2018
236
The progression of illness and the weight of my symptoms determine my date of departure. I'm at the mercy of my body. When I run out of money for experimental treatments I will probably end up terminating myself.
 
Polka

Polka

Student
Oct 6, 2019
135
Maybe. If in two years there is a 100% cure rate for depression and the remedy is able to made at home so that banksters cannot control it. Otherwise not so sure.
 
I’vehadenough

I’vehadenough

Elementalist
Sep 15, 2018
847
No way. Not unless a miracle happens...a huge one
 
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Gamja

it hurts
Aug 27, 2019
43
Every year I ask myself that. The difference between me 2 years ago and the me now. I prolonged what was an inevitable fate, thinking it would get better. Years and years passed without an improvement.
i'm still scared, but a little less. Now that I've lost everything and got nothing to lose, I'm not that scared of the pain anymore, just the thought of being misunderstood and mistreated till the end. But it's okay. At least I can leave with fond memories of my childhood.
 
Boonks

Boonks

Lowlife
Mar 2, 2019
236
I can't even imagine being alive now, I certainly cannot fathom two years from now. :'(
 
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Bluefish

Bluefish

Member
Oct 18, 2019
36
I wish i could take a peek behind the curtain and see how i'd be like in 2 years. To see if its worth it. Honestly dont know if i'll be alive. I just don't want to suffer anymore.
 
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Avery Jordan

Member
Oct 14, 2019
71
I know I'll be still around, but I wanna live for now so.
 
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