Do you think you will be alive 2 years from today?

[SuicideValley27]

no, I do not expect anything from me or anyone for 2 years or after having put this message is no longer here

 

[Dawn0071111]

Fuck NO

 

[DeathImminent]

i hope i wont be alive for the next month

 

[Sadwind]

I don't know. I am thinking that if the medicine does its job I'll be here for a while. If it stops working at any time I will have my way out. I just need to get that secure, for my own peace. I really just don't know how long I will be able to last. In any case, I can't rush it, nor delay the inevitable. We'll see if I can get to a stable place mentally long enough to hold a job. If I can do that I'm pretty sure I'll be okay. I want to be there for my son and give him some happiness in his life. I know I'm not a good mom, nowhere near perfect, but I'm what he's got. I wish better for him but it's too late now. I am a part of his life.

I want to go no contact with my narcissist mom, take my medication and go to therapy. We'll see if this works. I want to exhaust all my options before I make any decisions about my death. I just want to be in a place mentally where I know I can't take another step. I think I'm going to make it, honestly. I've made it a year since my psychotic breakdown, so conceivably I could make it another.

I'm not running on delusion anymore, I'm remaking myself from the ground up. This is herculean and maybe impossible but I have to try. I want to look back on this life and say I tried as hard as I could, that I really wanted to be the best version of myself I could. I want to change my entire self, for the better. I want to do something that's really hard to do and I want to succeed at it. Even if it means I end up a normie nobody, I have to believe that it matters.

 

[Dwna25]

I hope not, I want to do it before 2020..

 

[Thanatos]

Not a chance, 2 weeks even is iffy tbh. Just waiting for my SN to get here

 

[spanishguy22]

thats the maximum

 

[justanotherday]

thats the maximum

Same here

 

[Final Escape]

Probably not :( if iam still here it will be a miracle.

 

[Prozac]

Hope not

 

[Lady black]

No

 

[Bathsheba]

No.. even though I'm not planning to ctb this year I can't imagine being here in 2 years. I'll either die in a car crash, jump or drink myself to death. I don't want to see 45.

 

[Timetoleave]

I really hope not but leaving this place seems impossible

 

[INWonderland]

Absolutely not I am positive of my method and have prepared back-up plans just so that I feel secure. I will be gone in the next day or so.

 

[WatermelonMel]

Most likely, I don't think I have the balls to commit. It hurts to see all of you wonderful people planning to leave though even though I never got to meet you, I will miss you.

 

[Ani]

Not sure, I want to die but at the same time I don't want to hurt certain ppl I care about by doing so also scared of having a failed attempt then being paralyzed. I don't know if I will be able to live 2 more years though so hard question for me tbh

 

[Maravillosa]

Probably. My novel will probably be more or less complete and publishable but I don't think it will have been published by then. Also, my mother, despite being 79 years old, bedridden and with a failing short-term memory (might she have dementia?), has the physical constitution of a sturdy young carthorse. You know that I want to outlive her, so I suspect that I will still be alive two years from now.

 

[LastFlowers]

No.

 

[Pykul]

I seriously doubt I will make it the rest of the year. Holidays coming and such.

 

[toxicfox]

Nope, sometime in the later month. Charcoal suicide.

 

[Morphinekiss]

Nah. But I don't think it will be because I've ctb. I'll probably get hit by a bus or choke on peanut butter or something stupid. That's my luck.

 

[GrizzlyGrapefruit]

Depends how these next 2 weeks go. I'm forcing myself to try one last ditch effort in order to make things better.I know that this will let me carry through with ctb if nothing comes of this effort, so this as a win win.

Assuming it works out, sure. If it doesn't, I don't see myself lasting longer than a month. I'm genuinely surprised I made it through this past summer actually lol.

 

[mathieu]

I sure hope not.

 

[Nyanpasuu]

I hope not, I'd like to leave at the end of this year, but I'm afraid of hurting certain people I care about.

 

[coma-baby]

I sure hope I'm fucking not.
Every day gets worse. I've been living with this monkey on my back since I was a toddler. He's heavy. He's breaking my spine. I don't want to make it another two years.

 

[BobbyPellitt]

I hope not. It's my worst fear to keep on living with my current mental state, survival instinct is a bitch.

 

[Heart of Ice]

Most likely not. I have failed a lot in my life but I'm looking for a suicide method that is so idiot-proof even I can pull it off. I can only see being alive in two years if I fuck up my attempt and am forced to go into therapy and that will somehow stop future attempts.

 

[Nephis]

Honestly I wanted at one point to visit Japan before I CTBd but with they way things are going I'm probably gonna be dead within the next 2 years

 

[Boobles]

Hope to be outta here before thanksgiving. Thinking halloween might be a cool time to exit. Maybe I'll transform into a ghost or something cool like that. Maybe a forest fairy.. haha‍

 

[BangBangBang]

I hope not