Rosiel

Rosiel

Member
Jan 24, 2019
45
4/10 today - despite having no particular trigger, just that my life is still the same and not where I want to be. It becomes 6/10 when I remind myself about my CTB option though.
 
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Al_stargate

Al_stargate

I was once a pretty angel
Mar 4, 2022
739
2/10 - barely coping. Eating, sleeping, playing video games, and being on this forum is what my life has come to. Don't even have the motivation to prepare for ctb but I'm getting closer to having all sorted out. Can't deal with this shit anymore. I just wanna fall asleep and not wake up anymore.
 
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Dead Ghost

Dead Ghost

Mestre del Temps
May 6, 2022
1,343
I guess a 4/10, I was clearly worse. Today I'm just sad and even though I'm angry it has nothing to do with when I have a fit of anger or shocks start (what I call shocks are very strong tics that catch me when I'm very nervous, usually not I have no tic).

Let's see how the day goes.
//
Suposo que un 4/10, he estat clarament pitjor. Avuí només estic trist, i tot i que m'emprenyo no te pas rés a veure a quan tinc un atac d'ira o comencen les sacsejades (el que jo dic sacsejades són tics molt forts que m'agafen quan estic molt nerviós, normalment no tinc cap tipus de tic).

A veure com segueix el dia.
 
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cryptid

cryptid

Member
Jul 10, 2021
28
2/10, I miss her so much.
 
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ImsooDone1N

ImsooDone1N

Arcanist
Nov 22, 2018
846
9.5/10 Really Struggling now
 
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Celerity

Celerity

shape without form, shade without colour
Jan 24, 2021
2,733
4

The weather is pretty average temp wise, but there's some cloud cover on the horizon. Bad times are ahead.
 
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Sarz

Sarz

Member
Apr 24, 2020
30
10 + ive got so much I want to say.. years and years of built up head hell it's a joke not knowing where to start so easier to just find an end.
I've reached out I've screamed and shouted but get ignored sad thing is " family and " friends know its coming but still remain oblivious and ignorant.
I've not wrote before but I'm desperate for the comfort I get from SS and people who actually get how I'm feeling..
Thank you all for helping even though you didn't know you were.
 
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Suicidebydeath

Suicidebydeath

No chances to be happy - dead inside
Nov 25, 2021
3,559
1/10 I'm physically and mentally overexhausted and I also miss her too much, she's in a place that is impossible for the living to interact with.
 
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ImsooDone1N

ImsooDone1N

Arcanist
Nov 22, 2018
846
I have been doing the ratings backwards here. So, it's somewhere between 1.25 and 1.50/10.00 - So Still Struggling, just as lonely, depressed, fearful, feeling horrible and unwell. I'm Very tired, yet there are things I must do / take care of, somehow.
 
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Slaanesh

Slaanesh

Memento mori
Oct 23, 2019
52
2/10 I've fucked my life up beyond repair.
 
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Scrubs2016

Scrubs2016

You cannot live without Darkness.
Dec 28, 2020
26
Been in bed all day today, so probably a 4? Pains been fluctuating all day.
 
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PleaseTakeMeAway

PleaseTakeMeAway

Nothing to say anymore.
Jul 16, 2022
118
1/10. I'm just crying in my bed alone. I wish he still loved me.
 
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Vy0kxZen

Vy0kxZen

Member
Mar 1, 2022
7
was at a 6 in the morning but very quickly dropped to a 2-3, don't see it improving.
 
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przeciwwymiotne

Be rude to me at all times, I don't deserve kindne
Jun 27, 2022
343
2
 
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Pallf

I'm tired
May 27, 2018
357
5/10 feeling pretty meh today
 
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abyss

abyss

Member
Jul 13, 2022
96
3/10. I keep mulling the same stuff over in my head, had I just done things differently etc.
 
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Fthis

Fthis

Student
Dec 8, 2020
192
Feel free to rate how you're doing from 1-10 and/or give few sentences. Either one is fine too. Try to avoid responding as this is meant to be more of a vent thread. Reactions are welcomed.
4 intrusive thoughts and currently feeling bad about everything
 
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KQuotientW

KQuotientW

404: Reason to live not found
Jul 17, 2022
326
2/10. Stressed and over it. Going shopping today for supplies. Getting my will witnessed and signed. Suddenly all of my relatives, who I've not spoken to in many years because of their toxic ways, will be coming out of the woodwork, when I CTB, to get their grubby mits on my property and what little money I have. Want to make sure they get nothing and it all goes to a local charity. FYI my family are well off and don't need it. I'm sure they were crying into their money during lockdowns, when many were losing their jobs. They did unforgivable things to me when I was growing up. Fk 'em.
 
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plshlpme

Member
Jul 20, 2022
13
1
 
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Vy0kxZen

Vy0kxZen

Member
Mar 1, 2022
7
3
 
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ImsooDone1N

ImsooDone1N

Arcanist
Nov 22, 2018
846
0.5/10.00 I want to die. Im not really eating cuz no appetite. sleeping 16+hr day & thats still not enough. i wish i never had to get outta bed. I want to be able to enjoy life, or even enjoy bad habits like using drugs and heroin but im so sick now. and i have no one, no help. The end is near and in sight.
 
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Cathy Ames

Cathy Ames

Cautionary Tale
Mar 11, 2022
2,106
5. To me that means I feel like shit but I am vertical and I know I've felt way worse than this. I was going to write 4, but then I saw what others were writing.

Edit: Never mind. It's a 3.5 kind of day. FML.
 
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Vy0kxZen

Vy0kxZen

Member
Mar 1, 2022
7
6 spent most of my day with my cat and listened to new music someone released so im doing better today
 
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DarkNearDeath

DarkNearDeath

Student
May 1, 2021
131
3/10 failed an interview, I'll never get a fucking job after university
 
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Josh007

Josh007

The number zero is feeling lonely...
Nov 30, 2020
188
3/10 I had panic attacks at work.
 
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Pallf

I'm tired
May 27, 2018
357
It's a 6 so far. I've got a headache and I'm hungry but my family and I are going out to eat so that's something to look forward to.
 
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KQuotientW

KQuotientW

404: Reason to live not found
Jul 17, 2022
326
2½. Today I'm pissed off that I'm still here. I haven't tried to CTB yet, but still trying to get things in order before I do and it's taking up time.
 
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Graham

Graham

Student
May 28, 2022
164
5 ish - neither good nor bad - just lackless
 
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Night_Crew

Member
Oct 23, 2021
41
4/10. It would seem that in addition to repeat lows and the constant daily battle, every several months, I decline by a by a full mark or so bringing a new low benchmark.
 
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KQuotientW

KQuotientW

404: Reason to live not found
Jul 17, 2022
326
2. I'm still here. Getting more supplies from the hardware store today.
 
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