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Jean4

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Ark said:
Stan and I are going to have a blast. I promise. :wink:
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Well, I have a job for you. When you get with Stan, feel free to haunt me the way he is to make me get out of bed and do things. I can have another whispering in my ear and hitting me over the head. I'm so lost lol
 
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I will. I have a few on my list for just such things. If you want to know a secret, you were already on the list :smiling:
 
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I will. I have a few on my list for just such things. If you want to know a secret, you were already on the list :smiling:
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Put me on the top. You are going to love New York and my cats. :wink:
Stan
@6ixxy will be visiting soon. He is using your plan. Please look out for him.

You are really testing me aren't you? But I'm still here.

We mere mortals are keeping you busy.

I miss you and am doing the best I can, but I'm not you. Nobody will ever be.
 
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You told me I am strong then I think I am. I need you right now. Hit me over the head with a sign.
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Saw that and thought of you two. @Jean4 @Stan
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I wish I could have met you Stan.. I hope you rest easily ❤ Everyone on this forum has so many sweet things to say about you, so it just shows how much you mean to everyone here. I joined the forum later so I never knew Stan (sounds like he was very wise). Can someone tell me a little more about Stan?
 
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ceasetobreathe03 said:
I wish I could have met you Stan.. I hope you rest easily ❤ Everyone on this forum has so many sweet things to say about you, so it just shows how much you mean to everyone here. I joined the forum later so I never knew Stan (sounds like he was very wise). Can someone tell me a little more about Stan?
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Wise, protective, funny, and a lover of memes and popcorn. A man who didn't think he was good enough under his logical exterior and never thought he was worthy of love and didn't believe it when it happened.
 
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@realjunes needs you. Please look over him and help him get through his issues.
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Donald Trump may have just started a war. I am having massive anxiety attacks and PTSD. I need you. I need you. What would you say to calm me down?
 
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@Ark will be with you soon. Please get ready to welcome him. Take good care of him.
 
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@Ark is now with you. Thank you for giving us that sign. I feel better now. :heart:
 
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Good morning. @Ark is now with you, and you will be getting some more soon.
Take care of everybody. They needed you when on Earth and they need you now.
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Jean4 said:
Good morning. @Ark is now with you, and you will be getting some more soon.
Take care of everybody. They needed you when on Earth and they need you now.
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He's gonna need some big arms to welcome everyone. I'll give him a personal hug from you Jean. See you soon.
 
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He's gonna need some big arms to welcome everyone. I'll give him a personal hug from you Jean. See you soon.
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Please pm me and let me know before. I need to be prepared. I don't do well with things sprung on me... and I can tell Stan. :)
 
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Please pm me and let me know before. I need to be prepared. I don't do well with things sprung on me... and I can tell Stan. :)
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I can't leave without saying goodbye to you can I? I will give plenty notice, roughly 10/11pm GMT.
 
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You are busy. @6ixxy will be joining you soon.
 
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@6ixxy is with you Stan. We love and will miss him. Take care of him and show him the peace he didn't have on this hell called earth.
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Please look after @6ixxy, he's with you now. Make sure he has cheese, ham and bean toasties. I promised him one. Thank you :heart:
 
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Please look after @6ixxy, he's with you now. Make sure he has cheese, ham and bean toasties. I promised him one. Thank you :heart:
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Explain to this American what bean toasties are.
A rough couple of days. Between insomnia and having @Ark and @6ixxy leave us to join you, I am exhausted.

You were so upset about your finances and job when you were alive. You have been gone 26 days, and you now have the most important job you ever had. Taking care of everybody from this forum you loved so much.

We all miss you and I wish you were here. I made it another day.
 
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Explain to this American what bean toasties are.
A rough couple of days. Between insomnia and having @Ark and @6ixxy leave us to join you, I am exhausted.

You were so upset about your finances and job when you were alive. You have been gone 26 days, and you now have the most important job you ever had. Taking care of everybody from this forum you loved so much.

We all miss you and I wish you were here. I made it another day.
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Is basically a toasted sandwich. So 2 bits of toast and in between you out cheese, beans and ham slices. Comfort food at its finest. When we had our ctb date, we joked about buying a top of the range toasties maker and making the best toasties.
 
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I know... I know.. I needed to take a night off and sleep as best as I could before I collapsed. I am so sorry I wasn't here the second I woke up, but I missed so many posts.

Imissed a lot of people and you remain busy.

I won't feel guilty about not being there. I know you were there, and you are more important than little ol me.

It is the first weekend of 2020. I am still here. Keeping my promise to you and continuing to think about you every second of every day.

You keep leading the way and showing me what to do... and remember. Keep your patience with me because I am a slow learner as you know. :heart:

It doesn't appear it will happen, but how about you take a weekend off so I can?

I miss you so much. No. It isn't getting easier as time goes by. In a way, it is worse because I am going through all these things without he here to take care of me or give me advice. But I am still here.
 
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Just raising u up, like you did for us ❤
 
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Just raising u up, like you did for us ❤
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Thank you. Unless I see the post on the first page, I have an anxiety attack. Seeing it keeps me as stable as I am going to be.
 
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Death is the true name of time.
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Jean4 said:
Thank you. Unless I see the post on the first page, I have an anxiety attack. Seeing it keeps me as stable as I am going to be.
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I understand. ❤
 
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