Dear Stan, I never spoke to you because I was intimidated as hell by you and afraid to come off as stupid. Your lovely Jean is doing a wonderful job uniting the board for the holidays and I'm sure you are proud. I'm sad I never got to know your wit like others. Love, fellow popcorn addict.
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Jean4
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I was intimidated as hell by him, and I was the one who wrote him first blubbering like an idiot. He found me amusing with my shyness mixed with blubbering. ;)
APharmaDestroyedLife
Your RX drugs are likely your real problem
- Nov 4, 2019
- 305
I was probably one of the stupidest people here( and probably still am) when I first became a member. A few of my original posts and replies are proof of that. Right before Stan left us, I had a private chat with him. I explained my comments, admitted I was scared, and told him about me. He wrote back with 5 or 6 well written paragraphs. then 3 days later he was gone. At the end of his life, he took the time to talk to a person i think he highly suspected was a fear spreading pro life do-gooder.
He took the time to talk to me and he believed me when I told him I wasnt trying to sabotage the forum, i just didnt want to see anyone suffer. You see I had read a lot of scary info on a certain method, and just believed it without doing any research.
I will never forgot the compassion and effort he put into those few exchanges we had. As this forum seems to always speak of his logical side and his intellect, the Stan I barely knew was a caring , understanding, and compassionate person, and that's how I will remember him. In fact I knew so little of him, I don't even get the popcorn references...I'm guessing he must have loved the stuff.Last edited:
Jean4
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That he was. He was very damaged and hid behind that logical mask.
He had lower self esteem than I did if that was possible. I tried to stop him. I would give him logical ways to solve his issues, but I knew he was too damaged for help.
It's funny. To the people here, he was so put together. Pull back his mask, he really wasn't.
It just shows you. Nobody really knows the pain someone is going through even if they appear so put together and why one person's pain isn't greater than another.
Jean4
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BlueWidow
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- Oct 6, 2019
- 2,179
Extra butter, please!
I found the holy Grail here, Jean4! Buttered popcorn infused rum! The best of both worlds! What do you think?!
And one for Stan!Last edited:
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Archangel
- Mar 23, 2018
- 11,012
Another one for Stan
Vince Gill-Go Rest High On That Mountain
Lyric Version
Jean4
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Morning. I am actually not in pain this morning. Let's see how long it lasts. I miss you.
Take care of @NitriteAnatomy. I have a feeling he is with you. I'm sad if he is, he didn't say goodbye.
Jean4
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Jean4
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BlueWidow
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Thank you @Jean4 and Stan.Stan
Today is @BlueWidow 's 16th wedding anniversary. Take out her husband and have a hot buttered rum in their honor!
Happy Anniversary @BlueWidow
APharmaDestroyedLife
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- Nov 4, 2019
- 305
Jean4
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It wasn't a horrible day. Some bumps, but manageable. Thanks @LegaliseIt!
LegaliseIt!
Elementalist
- Nov 29, 2019
- 808
I admire the respect Stan earned here. I've been trying to find out what made him leave, but I didn't. Could someone let me know?
Thanks
Jean4
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- Apr 28, 2019
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Same issues as all of us. His pain was so bad that all of the love wasn't enough. ;)
Ok day yesterday. Woke up today totally lost. The difference a day makes. Bad day. Bad day.
Last edited:Hi there Stan. Missing you.
@Jean4 Thinking of you today also.
Jean4
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Bumpy day today. Had some horrible time, but also some laughs. I wish you were here. Have something I need your advice on.... now I can only imagine what you would tell me.
CyanideSoup
Memento mori
- Oct 1, 2019
- 463
I keep thinking of you Stan, I hope you are doing good on the other side. I know we didn't speak much but I hope to catch up with you soon...
I hope you are okay @Jean4
Jean4
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Keep coming here to talk to him when you need to. It helps :)
Jean4
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- Apr 28, 2019
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2:00 am. Really? Waking me up with answers? Thank you. Not what I wanted to hear. But as always, you are correct. Will cause me more pain And tears, but hey. What's a little more pain right? Thank you. I wish you were here to give me that answer. Wish you were here to take care of this issue. I'm still lost and you were so much stronger than you thought and better at these things. You were logical. My emotions get in the way. Remember? Time for me to be logical. Back to bed.
BlueWidow
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Jean4
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BlueWidow
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Jean4
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- Apr 28, 2019
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Thanks. It was a very odd day yesterday. Woke up feeling better after being woken up by Stan with the answer to a question. An answer that I needed, not what I wanted to hear. So like him lol.
Jean4
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- Apr 28, 2019
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Thank you Jean. One more day closer to peace. Today is a little better than yesterday. I hope your having a better day also.- Status
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