MeltingHeart

MeltingHeart

Visionary
Sep 9, 2019
2,151
I just couldn't find a good heart image that wasted really cheesy - I like the black heart- with the snake trapped inside - not sure why- thought it would make a good tattoo actually. Dunno why melting heart. Should really be crushed soul or broken spirit.
The picture is Ninny, the invisible girl from the Moomins, a very popular Finnish childrens book/ tv series. I have a cup, bowl and plate with her that I eat from every day, because.. that is me, the invisible girl.
noctiva is has been with me for 20 years now, it is a very bastardized and feminized form of noctifer in latin is the bringer of darkness, as opposed to lucifer, who is the bringer of light. My teenage years were spend with a lot of Catholicism and Latin.
Surprised lucifer is the bringer of light - isn't that the devil? Fire I guess?
 
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YukiFox

YukiFox

Pastel demon
Dec 8, 2018
320
1. I love foxes. My favorite animal. So it was a good element to form a underlined profile.
2. Yuki is my frequent nickname (with X variants) at cyberspace, since I was a kid I liked anime a lot. Since it's an unisex name in Japanese (although there's more common in male anime characters) it fits to me since I'm a trans woman.
 
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noctiva

noctiva

the invisible girl
Nov 6, 2019
393
I just couldn't find a good heart image that wasted really cheesy - I like the black heart- with the snake trapped inside - not sure why- thought it would make a good tattoo actually. Dunno why melting heart. Should really be crushed soul or broken spirit.

Surprised lucifer is the bringer of light - isn't that the devil? Fire I guess?
Lucifer was according to Catholic faith a Seraphim (highest choir of angels serving God directly and allowed to see and adore him directly) before his fall. It is also the Latin name for the planet Venus, the so called morning star.
 
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MeltingHeart

MeltingHeart

Visionary
Sep 9, 2019
2,151
Lucifer was according to Catholic faith a Seraphim (highest choir of angels serving God directly and allowed to see and adore him directly) before his fall. It is also the Latin name for the planet Venus, the so called morning star.
Wow, that is interesting, why/ in chat way did he 'fall?'
 
WhyIsLife56

WhyIsLife56

Antinatalism + Efilism ❤️
Nov 4, 2019
1,075
My username is just random but my avatar used to be a picture of Sailor Saturn from Sailor Moon Crystal until I changed it again to the current one.
The current one is an art piece by Nicoletta Ceccoli and to me (my personal interpretation is that this girl has been wearing so many masks in front of people as a way of hiding her true self and emotions/thoughts.
 
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noctiva

noctiva

the invisible girl
Nov 6, 2019
393
Wow, that is interesting, why/ in chat way did he 'fall?'
Ha, good question, I actually needed to google it, but I found a quite nice article, though christian in origin (which kinda makes sense as an objective article might be a bit too much to ask for ;)). But to sum it up:
'Lucifer became so impressed with his own beauty, intelligence, power, and position that he began to desire for himself the honor and glory that belonged to God alone. This pride represents the actual beginning of sin in the universe—preceding the fall of the human Adam by an indeterminate time.'
Source: https://www.christianity.com/theolo...d-lucifer-fall-and-become-satan-11557519.html

Also his name was Lucifer before the fall (Bringer of light/ morning star) and Satan (adversary) after the fall.
 
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BorderingDeath

BorderingDeath

Dead Long Ago
Dec 9, 2019
16
Bordering Death. Borderline. Death.
You get the gist.

Celtic knots are a symbol of beautiful organized chaos. A sense of infinitude along with utter chaos that seems to create a pattern.

On the topic of Lucifer and why he was called the Bringer of Light, Jordan Peterson mentioned how Lucifer was essentially the excesses of Rationalism and how it can fall in love with its own creation. John Milton's "Paradise Lost" is what he referenced. This does make sense as Rationality tends toward nihilism and determinism.
 
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Moonicide

Moonicide

ᴘʜᴀꜱᴇꜱ ᴏꜰ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴏᴏɴ
Nov 19, 2019
802
Icon is Nezuko (manga/anime): She was human before she got attacked by a demon, which lead to her transforming into a demon herself.
Moonicide: I relate a lot to the moon due to Bipolar. The moon goes through many phases and so do I. Along with combining the word suicide.
 
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A

a_strange_day

Arcanist
Jul 16, 2019
461
The picture is very representative of what I am today. Pale, skinny, dressed all in black and walking with my head down.
A Strange Day is a song from The Cure that I heard for the first time when I was 14. It's from their darkest and most beautiful album Pornography. It stuck with me.

My head falls backs and the walls crash down
And the sky and the impossible explode
Held for one moment I remember a song
An impression of sound
And then everything is gone forever
 
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NitriteAnatomy

NitriteAnatomy

Lost. Alone. Trapped. Need escape.
Nov 21, 2019
450
I like Mad World and the message it conveys. It's true, to me. And it's a play on Zydrate Anatomy from Repo! The Genetic Opera, one of my favorite films.
 
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samarra

samarra

Member
Aug 17, 2019
45
name: The Goldfinch by Donna Tartt is my favourite book and I am from Europe.
avatar: I guess I am too depressed to make the effort to set an avatar picture. That's a storry of my life.
For some reason I really liked Alchemist's avatar and name and I think of him often. Rest in peace mister moderator.
 
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WhyIsLife56

WhyIsLife56

Antinatalism + Efilism ❤️
Nov 4, 2019
1,075
Icon is Nezuko (manga/anime): She was human before she got attacked by a demon, which lead to her transforming into a demon herself.
Moonicide: I relate a lot to the moon due to Bipolar. The moon goes through many phases and so do I. Along with combining the word suicide.
From Demon slayer (Kimetsu no Yaiba) I believe?
 
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NitriteAnatomy

NitriteAnatomy

Lost. Alone. Trapped. Need escape.
Nov 21, 2019
450
name: The Goldfinch by Donna Tartt is my favourite book and I am from Europe.
avatar: I guess I am too depressed to make the effort to set an avatar picture. That's a storry of my life.
For some reason I really liked Alchemist's avatar and name and I think of him often. Rest in peace mister moderator.
May I suggest

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thepolarbear

thepolarbear

'til we die
Dec 7, 2019
58
Cause polar bears are awesome
 
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NitriteAnatomy

NitriteAnatomy

Lost. Alone. Trapped. Need escape.
Nov 21, 2019
450
Thank you NitriteAnatomy, that is a great picture. I might give it a try :) So kind of you to help - if only help came in real life always so fast. :hug:
Not a problem. I'm a fan of strange stuff, like the occult and alchemy, so I usually have random pictures like that lying around. And right? But, if help came that fast, we wouldn't have this forum, so it's a bittersweet thought.
 
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LegaliseIt!

LegaliseIt!

Elementalist
Nov 29, 2019
808
LegaliseIt is my username because I believe that all adults should be allowed Medical Assistance In Dying (even those of us with mental illness). I used the "s" instead of the "z" because I prefer UK spelling. The crying seal avatar is a result of my learning how to post gifs on this site in memory of Stan. (Ideally, it would have been a sarcastic seal!)
Thank you, old chap!
 
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Morphosis

Morphosis

Experienced
Sep 22, 2019
260
-morphosis

noun combining form

-mor·pho·sis | \ ˈmȯ(r)fəsə̇sometimes ˌmȯ(r)ˈfōsə̇s \

plural -morphoses\ ˈ⸗fəˌsēz , ˌ⸗ˈfōˌsēz \

Definition of -morphosis (Entry 2 of 2)

1: development or change of form of a (specified) thing

2: development or change of form in a (specified) manner


Also liked the "morph" part because I have been prescribed massive doses of morphine / fentanyl / other opiates for over 20 years and am rather too fond of them :happy:

I chose the profile pic because my 15 year old dog recently had to be put to sleep at the same time as the rest of my life fell apart. He was an abused puppy and literally terrified of his own shadow, but managed to overcome a lot of his fears and "metamorphosed" into a big strong, happy, confident dog. He was my best buddy. I loved the caption with this image as I love the idea of him waiting to meet me and "show me the way" when I die.
 
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Malletboy

Malletboy

Member
Nov 27, 2019
52
So I'm a musician who plays percussion instruments but my primary instrument is a Vibraphone. A vibraphone is a mallet instrument that looks very similar to the xylophone and has a beautiful sound. Been playing mallet instruments for so long that it's become apart of my identity.

The icon is DC hero static shock! My favorite superhero series besides iron man.
 
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Lil_Intro_Vert

Lil_Intro_Vert

she/they
Oct 15, 2018
195
My username is based off of a song by anthem 2k, and my profile pic is Kumiko screaming because it's a constant mood
 
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Bulletwbttrflywings

Bulletwbttrflywings

My soul is awakened... and I’m f*cked
May 29, 2019
244
1. I love foxes. My favorite animal. So it was a good element to form a underlined profile.
2. Yuki is my frequent nickname (with X variants) at cyberspace, since I was a kid I liked anime a lot. Since it's an unisex name in Japanese (although there's more common in male anime characters) it fits to me since I'm a trans woman.
Fucking hugs
-morphosis

noun combining form

-mor·pho·sis | \ ˈmȯ(r)fəsə̇sometimes ˌmȯ(r)ˈfōsə̇s \

plural -morphoses\ ˈ⸗fəˌsēz , ˌ⸗ˈfōˌsēz \

Definition of -morphosis (Entry 2 of 2)

1: development or change of form of a (specified) thing

2: development or change of form in a (specified) manner


Also liked the "morph" part because I have been prescribed massive doses of morphine / fentanyl / other opiates for over 20 years and am rather too fond of them :happy:

I chose the profile pic because my 15 year old dog recently had to be put to sleep at the same time as the rest of my life fell apart. He was an abused puppy and literally terrified of his own shadow, but managed to overcome a lot of his fears and "metamorphosed" into a big strong, happy, confident dog. He was my best buddy. I loved the caption with this image as I love the idea of him waiting to meet me and "show me the way" when I die.
This is beautiful...
The picture is very representative of what I am today. Pale, skinny, dressed all in black and walking with my head down.
A Strange Day is a song from The Cure that I heard for the first time when I was 14. It's from their darkest and most beautiful album Pornography. It stuck with me.

My head falls backs and the walls crash down
And the sky and the impossible explode
Held for one moment I remember a song
An impression of sound
And then everything is gone forever
It's amazing how music speaks to the soul
 
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TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
6,861
My username was what I used when I was on Reddit before SS and other similar subreddits were banned. This is just a carry over of my username from Reddit. (Just fyi, I don't post on Reddit anymore ever since the censorship and bullshit that platform has become.) As for my profile picture, it is a picture of light and dark card from Cardcaptors. The meaning of it (at least from my interpretation) is that light resembles life while dark resembles death (cliche but just follow my logic for bit) and as someone who is pro choice, one can make the choice between life or death.
 
B

Bzrluvtriangle

Member
Dec 28, 2019
53
Bizarre Love Triangle by New Order is one of my favorite songs.
 
peacefully31425

peacefully31425

Dirtbag
Aug 28, 2018
162
Name: I was looking for a peaceful exit at the time I created this account.

Avi: I was reading Dune and liked how it looked
 
cosmicpixiedust

cosmicpixiedust

Pixie
Jun 5, 2019
972
I couldn't have any of my other Pixie related names because they would give away my identity, so I just made up a new one. /shrug

My profile picture is Alex Grey's "The Seer" from his "Progress of the Soul" portfolio.
 
k75

k75

L'appel du Vide
Jun 27, 2019
2,546
Mine is nothing special. It's the first letter of my regular username and some random numbers. I like 7s, but double 7 would have been a dead giveaway to certain people.

My avatar is a self portrait of a character in one of my favorite comic books. It's also kind of a mask she wears to cover her feelings and identity when communicating. I thought it was appropriate.
 
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Chalken

Chalken

Decaying
Nov 20, 2018
214
My avatar is just something I found by googling depression illustration. I think it conveys that feeling very well. My name is pretty random, just thought of chalk and thought up this name.
 
Inferdan

Inferdan

Meeting the first minor relapse after recovery
Nov 3, 2019
450
Where should I start...ah well, like some say, best 'til last.

My avatar pictures is an image I found and saved for its appearance. I thought it fitting for here; in empty space, filled with wonders unknown, and a man that I thought would suit me and my speech (I talk like this because whenever I'm here, I just feel like it, it's weird, but oh well). All in all, it's mainly because it is aesthetically appeasing.

And my name, Inferdan. An antagonist from one of the two biggest projects I had been working on. A being of armour and fire, the watcher of the Infernal-verse. The incarnation of my pent-up stress that comes out in rage), and is basically the most tortured of all the characters, for he is all of them combined, bearing all of their pain into one body. I found it fitting; a pained being that only wanted order and peace, but never was able to have it. To be completely honest, I think I could have gone with another name, but it does not matter, I like the name, it sounds nice.

Now that I think about it, I think part of the reason for both was just that it had a soft feeling to them, empty yet filled, and connected with me somehow. I guess that's it.
 

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