Girobatol
Specialist
- Sep 9, 2019
- 313
I am on a 9 pill a day regime for my bipolar. They tell you you´ll get better but is the opposite. I´m more suicidal than ever. Are you on meds? Which ones?
Girobatol
Specialist
- Sep 9, 2019
- 313
I have mixed personality disorder which in my view is a bullshit diagnosis. This is because it basically means that I don't have enough 'traits' for a single personality disorder but Iam so fucked in the head I have a personality disorder anyway as I have traits in several. No doctor in my case is willing to stick their neck out and say I have say 'borderline' so instead opt to do this. Which means all the stigma but not much in return. Iam doped up on meds anyway,
risperidone, mirtazapine, propanolol and procyclidine.
I used to be diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia in my younger days 5 years I had that diagnosis and it ruined my twenties as I was doped up on heavy medication. But now apparently I don't have that diagnosis, it was all a big mistake and I have personality disorder instead,but they still dope me up just in case but the med amounts are less than I used to be given.
Iam not sure they make me worse or better, the doctors seem to have no clue and nor do I . I think at some point I will end myself as it seems to me year by year and month by month, my life gets more complicated and my health both physical and mental gets worse and Iam not too far away from being on the streets. I am now pre diabetic thanks to them putting me on seroquel. I have just recently come out of a psychiatric hospital ward, and while there one doctor diagnosed me with schizophrenia yet again, and several days later my usual shrink said in her view Iam not psychotic or have schizophrenia and have a personality disorder. So in the space of ten days I was in there, I was diagnosed with two different things by psychatrists who had different opinions.
I think that sums psychiatry up really. Quacks I think for the most part. Some well meaning but still quacks.
risperidone, mirtazapine, propanolol and procyclidine.
I used to be diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia in my younger days 5 years I had that diagnosis and it ruined my twenties as I was doped up on heavy medication. But now apparently I don't have that diagnosis, it was all a big mistake and I have personality disorder instead,but they still dope me up just in case but the med amounts are less than I used to be given.
Iam not sure they make me worse or better, the doctors seem to have no clue and nor do I . I think at some point I will end myself as it seems to me year by year and month by month, my life gets more complicated and my health both physical and mental gets worse and Iam not too far away from being on the streets. I am now pre diabetic thanks to them putting me on seroquel. I have just recently come out of a psychiatric hospital ward, and while there one doctor diagnosed me with schizophrenia yet again, and several days later my usual shrink said in her view Iam not psychotic or have schizophrenia and have a personality disorder. So in the space of ten days I was in there, I was diagnosed with two different things by psychatrists who had different opinions.
I think that sums psychiatry up really. Quacks I think for the most part. Some well meaning but still quacks.
cryptic_cynic
Degenerate
- Jul 8, 2019
- 129
I've tried so many meds that made things worse that I can't even remember them all.
Psychiatry is pseudoscientific bullshit. You'd get better results praying to a nonexistent god.
Psychiatry is pseudoscientific bullshit. You'd get better results praying to a nonexistent god.
DeathImminent
Experienced
- Aug 9, 2019
- 203
allgood
Student
- Jul 17, 2019
- 171
Quetiapine makes things a little easier, clonazepam and mirtazapine used to but do no longer. For many people psychiatry works, it's the best we have anyhow.
When I was in the 'assessment unit', I saw familar faces from last year when I was in this place back then.... What happens is ,they are in crisis and are given a bed on the assessment unit ,where they are 'assessed', The assessment is not carried out by doctors but is based on what the nurses and health care assistants observe about you and report back to the shrink,which I think personally is a crap way to assess someone properly, if I was a doctor I would want to base my diagnosis on what I think,not on what others report to me. . Most are let go after say 3 days and sent back into society and a week or two later they are back in the assessment unit in a mess again. Everyone is drugged up as well, providing you take your meds like a good boy or girl and are quiet and don't 'kick off', you will be out of there fast.
The doctors try and discharge as many as possible as quick as posssible as beds are scarce and it clearly isn't working if you have people returning time and time again often worse than they are before . They have 18 assessment beds to cover all of essex.
I think psychiatry is dubious to begin with ,but it's made a complete farce if you add in the pressures to discharge and minimise peoples problems in the process.
It doesn't help either that you get some 'patients' who are in legal trouble who think a hospital will be easier than prison so decide to have a 'breakdown'. Others who are homeless so feign mental illness to get a roof over their heads for a few nights. Met both of those sorts in there.
While in the assessment unit, I personally witness'd illicit drug taking going on, as well.
My own view is there such a thing as mental illness, but it's always been the poor relation to physical illness and doesn't get near enough money going into research , hospitals, therapies,medication that actually targets the illness or disorder rather than a shotgun effect that has all sorts of nasty side effects etc etc.For the most part there are no objective ways to diagnose ,it's all based on the psychiatrist subjective opinion or in the assessment units case third parties observations....
Clonazepam (Benzo) ruined my life. I've been dependent on it for 14 years. I lost my job, marriage, and mental well being because of this drug. Originally prescribed for anxiety and worked great but eventually the effects wore off and made me worse. I've been on antidepressants Paxil and leaxapro before and those were easy to quit and weren't nearly as detrimental to me compared to clonazepam. Looking back in hindsight the antidepressants really didn't do anything for me and felt like sugar pills when it came to my anxiety. I was on Paxil and lexapro for a couple of years before the clonazepam. The clonazepam definitely worked but I built up a tolerance and it was pure hell reducing the dose and trying to quit. Avoid Benzos at all cost.
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Trainwreck
Student
- Sep 11, 2019
- 196
Ive been on anti-depressants most of my life for anxiety (mostly Paxil). I doubt it even works, but it's impossible for me to get off it due to withdrawal (worse anxiety, brain zaps, headaches, etc.). I at least was able to get down to 10MG for the last few years, which beats the 60MG they had me on. And the stupid thing was, I told the doctor I didn't feel any better on 60 than smaller doses, and she said to keep taking the higher dose anyway! Nevermind that it's been proven that people who take crap like Paxil have a much higher risk of getting Alzheimer's. I take Ativan too, but sparingly (maybe once a week). I don't need to be addicted to 2 psych meds, that's for sure.
SinisterKid
Visionary
- Jun 1, 2019
- 2,113
My meds dont make me any worse, but they also dont make me any better. They might as well be placebos. I have tried not taking them without any adverse effects, but take them because its keeps everyone else off my case. Take your meds, smile and tell everyone you are doing ok and they are happy to believe you.
Much as I hate to say it, I am now of the opinion that the majority if not all of psychiatry is pure bullshit made up purely to try and give reason where there is none.
Much as I hate to say it, I am now of the opinion that the majority if not all of psychiatry is pure bullshit made up purely to try and give reason where there is none.
Nem
Drs suck mega ass!
- Sep 3, 2018
- 1,489
Omg, meds are what put me here. I had taken meds before and they are bullshit and I let my guard down, I was in a controlling relationship that I should've ended and meds ended up ruining my life. Holy shit
Peace/hugs
Peace/hugs
woxihuanni
Illuminated
- Aug 19, 2019
- 3,299
Never taken any meds in my life. All I have is my mind, want to be sure it is actually mine. Don't do drugs, either.
Rocksandsand
Specialist
- May 26, 2019
- 396
@hypo666 I am prediabetic from fucking seroquel too. And non alcoholic fatty liver. I gained 65kg because of that nasty medication. I may be having weight loss surgery as a result. I feel like billing the quack that insisted I continued on with the meds despite the obviously correlated weight gain.
I can't resist a good bitch about psychiatry. I've been on Escitalopram, Fluoxetine, Duloxetine, Agomelatine, Bupropion, Sertraline, Imipramine, and Venlafaxine. I maxed out the doses on all of them for a minimum of three months each. All had fucked up side effects from heart palpitations to brain zaps to no orgasms. I'm now on diazepam and clonazepam for anxiety, zolpidem for sleep, and propranolol for anxiety/migraine prevention. My psychiatrist wants me to try dexamphetamines because he's confident it's a dopamine issue (no shit. I'm an ex opiate addict. Of course I have a dopamine issue. The only time I didn't was when I was loaded on heroin).
It honestly feels like this is the only area of medicine where your supposed expert is a blindfolded monkey with a prescription pad that has been trained to throw darts at a board with medications on it. And whatever it lands on, YOU have to take and deal with all the side effects, and hope that it works. Otherwise you're labelled as non-compliant.
I am yet to meet a psychiatrist that appreciates just how fucked up the side effects to psych meds are. They aren't a real problem until they're happening to you.
I can't resist a good bitch about psychiatry. I've been on Escitalopram, Fluoxetine, Duloxetine, Agomelatine, Bupropion, Sertraline, Imipramine, and Venlafaxine. I maxed out the doses on all of them for a minimum of three months each. All had fucked up side effects from heart palpitations to brain zaps to no orgasms. I'm now on diazepam and clonazepam for anxiety, zolpidem for sleep, and propranolol for anxiety/migraine prevention. My psychiatrist wants me to try dexamphetamines because he's confident it's a dopamine issue (no shit. I'm an ex opiate addict. Of course I have a dopamine issue. The only time I didn't was when I was loaded on heroin).
It honestly feels like this is the only area of medicine where your supposed expert is a blindfolded monkey with a prescription pad that has been trained to throw darts at a board with medications on it. And whatever it lands on, YOU have to take and deal with all the side effects, and hope that it works. Otherwise you're labelled as non-compliant.
I am yet to meet a psychiatrist that appreciates just how fucked up the side effects to psych meds are. They aren't a real problem until they're happening to you.
