I don't think many people find THEMSELVES attractive. I mean, it's someone else's job to find you attractive enough to want to.... whatever. No, really: have sex, kiss, date, photograph for a magazine, whatever it is, it's never your OWN responsibility to find YOURSELF attractive. get up and take a shower and put on some nice clothes, maybe, but I think it'd be truly W E I R D if someone FOUND THEMSELF SOOO attractive that they think about it and talk about it a lot.
I think societal beauty standards are false and absurd.
I find myself unattractive, but that's not why I don't pursue relationships of sex/ love/ kissing/ etc. anymore.
I don't because I hate myself and Life, society, capitalism, what's happened to music and film this century, talking to strangers, and I'm old now so KINDA am going into a male-menopause state where I don't even really LIKE THE IDEAS of kissing or sex anymore.
Plus I want to isolate myself so I can kill myself easier, as some people say on here.
Plus I'm broke as fuck. And live in a SHOEBOX apartment with my brother and his (mentally-ill hoarder) boxes and boxes AND BOXES of junk. There is no TV or furniture. He has a chair. I have this bed. THAT"S IT. And a nutty cat (I like the cat but again, there is no room to myself or privacy).
Saturday Night Live once did a skit where Corbin Bernsen was dating this woman and they were talking about how unapologetically he found himself attractive, and wasn't that unapologetically honest and healthy? .... but THEN he started up a video tape of HIS OWN FACE. He expected them to spend the evening WATCHING IT.
The point of the skit is -- MAN, THAT GUY is fucking nuts! Thinking he was THAT hot was The Joke.... literally....
You say you aren't normal looking. You have congenital defects. My last girlfriend was under 5 foot, and had anthro. multiplex congenita. She had an inability to bend her arms or legs, couldn't really (to be graphic about it) give head because she can't open her jaw all the way (she has special dentists who COME TO HER apartment, because, well, you know the old dental phrase "open wide"? She can't DO that0.
SHE broke up with ME, after a while. We're still friends because, well, she's really fucking cool, and I like her as much as anyone I've ever loved, as a person.... and I was not her main boyfriend WHEN we dated; she was polyamorous.... and I STILL think she's sexy as fucking HELL, a decade later.
So you may think nobody would find you attractive, but I'm telling you, SOCIETAL STANDARDS AIN'T SHIT compared to meeting ACTUAL cool people who don't follow them.
MIND YOU -- if that's all beside the point, and you wanna die because Life Sucks, well, like I said, I'm right there with you. But you don't have to want to fuck yourself. Look who's MOST FAMOUS for saying they'd WANT TO fuck themself-- it's that nutter from Silence Of The Lambs, isn't it? And who else ACTS like they're ALL that? Paris Hilton? The Jenners? Nicki Minaj??
Good fuckin CHRIST, be GRATEFUL you don't look like them. They're hideous inside and out.
I'd rather have sex with a tree.
