And so we have reached the end

[Placo]

I don't really feel like waiting for the canonical 8 hours of fasting, today is my birthday and I'll have some cake for dinner but then I'd like to do it during the night.

 

[Placo]

I want to kill myself tonight but my stomach is full and with the SN method it is not recommended but I don't want to wait, it's night and I don't know what to do, I'm not sleepy, I just want to die.

 

[Placo]

I'm trying to resist not eating even though I'd like to, but I know that after eating I'd be more suicidal and at the same time doing the SN method would be riskier.

 

[twilightSparriw]

Something went wrong and I'm still here, I'll talk more about it in the other thread.

Let's see if I can attempt again this morning.

It's been a year… lol

 

[Placo]

I took 800mg ibuprofen, 15mg metoclopramide and 30 drops of diazepam, I didn't eat anything obviously.

 

[Placo]

In the end I didn't do it, I took the drugs in vain, I'm waiting for a user's response to see if it's worth doing it together otherwise I'll proceed alone.

 

[Placo]

I am now convinced that all this must end. It is the middle of the night, I was undecided whether to go out and scout the place where I think I will end up, always with the SN method, but in the end I decided to stay home, maybe I will see during the day, also because doing it on Saturday night is risky since there is more movement around, in the night between Sunday and Monday instead there is less movement.

Otherwise I can do it at home but there is my family, I have to evaluate carefully, the idea of dying outside after a life spent mostly staying at home appeals to me anyway. Obviously I would do it at night to be more sure that no one can see me.

 

[Placo]

It's incredible, I had taken everything I needed except SN when I connected to the forum and found a message that I no longer hoped to find, maybe I don't have to die now.