And so we have reached the end

[Placo]

In the end I fell asleep so it will be again tonight, this death just doesn't want to come.

 

[Placo]

I failed, it's incredible, I'll specify in the other thread what the errors might have been, I refuse to believe that the method itself doesn't work.

I think I'll try again today.

 

[sugarh1gh]

I failed, it's incredible, I'll specify in the other thread what the errors might have been, I refuse to believe that the method itself doesn't work.

I think I'll try again today.

The life just keeping hanging onto you, doesn't it. Clingy.

 

[Placo]

The life just keeping hanging onto you, doesn't it. Clingy.

Yes, it's absurd, I seem immortal.

 

[Placo]

Maybe it's time for another attempt, let's hope it goes well this time.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

Wishing you peace.

 

[Placo]

 

[Placo]

In the end I gave up, the feeling of suffocation must be something tough, I'm keeping it as a backup method, now I'm giving myself up to helium.

 

[UnwindingStar]

That's a beautiful quote
And oh so true.

 

[ecliptic]

Bye.

 

[Ww42]

Do you maybe think now isnt your time to CTB? Something seems to be stopping you, give it some time and think it over

 

[Placo]

Do you maybe think now isnt your time to CTB? Something seems to be stopping you, give it some time and think it over

It's the method that from what I read and from the little experience I've had is a bit brutal, now I'll try to have a more human one otherwise I can always resort to this.

 

[Placo]

The cylinder will take a couple of days to arrive and I don't know if I will have the patience to wait, also I'm almost out of tranquilizers, I might try the plastic bag and handcuffs method even if it's annoying due to too much boredom waiting.

Ultimately in human history there are people who have had horrible deaths, I wonder why I have to be a pussy and look for the painless method at all costs.

 

[Placo]

The helium tank should arrive between June 7th and 10th, all that remains is to wait and try to distract myself in the meantime, considering that we're almost at the 5th I'd say I can manage to wait.

 

[Placo]

The delivery date is approaching, now I know how inmates on death row feel, but sometimes it still seems far away, especially if my father keeps breaking my balls about the fact that I don't do anything.

 

[Placo]

The tank has finally arrived!

I'll try to explain the method in a separate thread, it's a mix of methods let's say.

 

[Placo]

Unfortunately the tank didn't work as it should but I'm more determined than ever to end it by any means now, I'm thinking of going back to my old asphyxiation plan which didn't involve using the tank.

 

[Placo]

I'll make another attempt tonight, I'll evaluate whether or not to use the cylinder, now with this heat it's only worth trying at night, during the day it's too hot to even die anymore.

 

[Placo]

It's 3 am and I still haven't made a real attempt even though the setup is ready, I don't have much time before dawn, I have to make up my mind.

 

[Kapsyl]

It's 3 am and I still haven't made a real attempt even though the setup is ready, I don't have much time before dawn, I have to make up my mind.

I've had my setup ready for 3 weeks sitting in plain view for me every day. Your method will still be available another day if you're not feeling it tonight.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

Are you still here? Wishing you peace

 

[SeekingPeace164]

It's 3 am and I still haven't made a real attempt even though the setup is ready, I don't have much time before dawn, I have to make up my mind.

Is there a reason you have to do it before dawn?

 

[Placo]

Is there a reason you have to do it before dawn?

In order not to be discovered and then during the day it's really too hot, my method already causes a bit of a sensation of heat, doing it in this heat would be annoying.

Are you still here? Wishing you peace

For now yes although I think I'll try again tonight, it goes from night to night now.

I've had my setup ready for 3 weeks sitting in plain view for me every day. Your method will still be available another day if you're not feeling it tonight.

I've had mine since 2013, think about that.

 

[Placo]

And even today we die tomorrow, I don't want to continue this game for long anyway.

 

[Placo]

Today I don't feel particularly depressed but I don't see why I should wait until I'm in terrible shape to do CTB, when I think about life I still get a sense of boredom.

In the meantime I'm on alcohol and sedatives to be more ready for the idea of doing CTB now.

 

[sugarh1gh]

Good luck! Have fun.

 

[Placo]

Good luck! Have fun.

The plan is postponed for the umpteenth time, since it will involve dealing with hypercapnia which is the sensation of suffocation due to the accumulation of CO2. I want to be sedated in a very powerful way so that it is as little traumatic as possible so I have to stock up, I have to get almost to the point of losing consciousness but since I have a certain tolerance to benzodiazepines I wonder what dosage is needed.

Obviously the overdose of benzodiazepines is not the method of suicide but it will serve to keep me calm as much as possible, if I had opiates or N available it would be easier, they could be used directly as a CTB method or one of those anaesthetics that make you faint so you don't feel the sensation of suffocation but I imagine they are not easy to find.

 

[Placo]

I finally have the supply of sedatives, now I have to get to the point of almost losing consciousness in theory or at least very narcotized.

The idea of hypercapnia scares me less with each passing second under sedatives, that's good.

 

[painoflife]

I finally have the supply of sedatives, now I have to get to the point of almost losing consciousness in theory or at least very narcotized.

The idea of hypercapnia scares me less with each passing second under sedatives, that's good.

How are you feeling? Still quite calm?

 

[Placo]

How are you feeling? Still quite calm?

Yes, a little stoned to be honest but quite calm, maybe I increase the dosage a little more, I want to get to the point where the idea of hypercapnia doesn't scare me in the slightest.