All of the things we won’t have to deal with after we ctb

[RacilyDank]

Oh, and being a grammar nazi

 

[RM5998]

Oh, and being a grammar nazi

These days, every time I see the word Nazi, this is what I think of:

 

[Smilla]

These days, every time I see the word Nazi, this is what I think of:

Brooks was a genius.

 

[2211264]

Always seeing what could be ......and then......what is.

 

[Perdition]

Depression
Anxiety
Having a human body
Eating
Working
Talking to other people
Waking up to face another miserable day

 

[FadedMemory]

No more worrying about money
No more traumatic memories
My mistakes will be forgotten
No more abuse
No more sexual harrassment
No more anxiety
No more depression
No more academic pressure
No more loneliness
It's a win-win situation for me,really.

 

[NumbItAll]

People with no spacial awareness (why do some people take up the whole goddamn parking lot while walking, and they're always walking fucking slow. Also slow walkers blocking the side walk. People who stop in the middle of the hallway, etc)

For me it's extreme depression and loneliness. I used to have crippling anxiety/panic attacks too but I'm too sad to even have that anymore.

 

[Self destructed]

For me it's extreme depression and loneliness. I used to have crippling anxiety/panic attacks too but I'm too sad to even have that anymore.

I wish I had depression so could finically CTB. I'm still in anxiety. 21 hours a day I pace around my house. 3 hours a night I try and sleep. Anxiety from regret is the worse.

 

[couldntthinkofaname]

-future
-past (worrying about missed opportunities and mistakes)
-health, sickness and injuries
-family
-bills
-job
-lovesickness
-disappointments
-ageing
-etc



just imagine how much shit the future has on hold for you


but not for me ... not for me...feels good to show the middlefinger to all that shit

 

[windingdown]

Let's brainstorm a bit and start listing all of the things we won't have to do/deal with/endure after we ctb.

I'll start. This list is non exhaustive, but it's a beginning. And it's personal, obviously. You may or may not identify with all of the things on my list but I am curious what's on yours.

Here's mine:

-taxes
-humiliation
-grief
-periods (sorry I'm a girl and I hate them)
-rejection
-work
-feeling ugly
-wondering if you hurt someone's feelings
-lack of money and fear about homelessness
-existential dread and endless musings about meaning
-voting for stupid politicians
-being sick with colds and the flu
-being alone
-endless cleaning up
-going to the bathroom
-modern day air travel
-looking at myself in the mirror

This is a good idea. I can think about these things to give me courage. Some of your ideas resonate with me. I would include (off the top of my head):

- aging (I'm almost 32 and aging is killing me. It only gets worse.)
- weight gain (I've cut calories to practically starvation levels and am still putting on weight. it's never getting better from here.)
- hair loss (kills me every day, I'm too young to be losing my hair)
- constant physical discomfort (one of the worst things)
- grief over losing my beauty
- being poor (I'm on disability, and don't anticipate being able to return to work)
- fear of homelessness in the future
- fear of, if not homelessness, living with my mom until I'm old (she is wonderful, but who wants that?)
- boredom (daily, constantly. no words, it's one of the worst parts of my life now)
- sadness over lost potential (I have an Ivy League education)
- fear of relapse into psychosis (I've had bipolar or schizoaffective disorder since 2016)
- barely being able to eat anymore (physical discomfort + weight gain from like a carrot)
- boring work (the odd bit of freelance, to supplement that disability income)
- living in a lame town, and knowing that if I did live somewhere nice again, I wouldn't make anything of it
- fear of my wonderful friends all dropping away, as I become saturated in chronic depression
- loneliness (I have no desire to see people in this condition, much as I may love them)

The worst things for me, the ones that drag me down constantly, are hair loss, constant physical discomfort, barely being able to eat, and boredom. They're just relentness. Not having my own house is hard, too. Bit random, out of all of those factors.

Hair loss kills. I've been feeling like I could hang in there longer (and why not, we all have the right to life), but then I think of having thinner and thinner hair over the months, and it does me in.

 

[DeletedUser4739]

Even just showering. It's such a chore for me now. I feel like I need to nap before and after a shower. If there's an afterlife I hope body odor isn't a thing and showers don't exist lol

I'm averaging one shower a week. And I thought I was bad when it was down to twice a week.

 

[BaconCheeseburger]

• Dealing with family issues
• PCOS (shit tons of facial hair and weight gain)
• Hair removal as a result of PCOS
• Going to work for the sake of it
• Spending time with people in work who could care less about me
• Hiding in bed on my days off work
• Drinking heavily when out socially
• Having to disclose herpes to new partners
• Feeling inadequate.
• Future jobs and job interviews

 

[MachineGunDani]

I'm averaging one shower a week. And I thought I was bad when it was down to twice a week.

Yea I'm twice a week and it kills me to do it. I'm lucky I'm not a smelly girl lol bc I literally have not much energy or motivation to do anything

 

[samhelloall9]

disease, time, anxiety, fear of getting hurt, pain. dealing with...society. Grr. Haha.

 

[Made4TV]

crushing debt
worrying about how to afford medical care (USA)
therapy
crying
my broken down body
loneliness

 

[Smilla]

crushing debt
worrying about how to afford medical care (USA)
therapy
crying
my broken down body
loneliness

I'm in US too. The cost of life here is overhelmeing, not worth it.

 

[Ben]

I'm just looking forward to not being able to fuck anything up anymore

 

[DeletedUser4739]

I too, am over the American Rat Race.

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

I too, am over the American Rat Race.

I was asked by a vocational counselor if i'd crawl through gutters to ferret out rats . He was only trying to gauge my willfulness, so I replied with
"For 7 figures I'll gladly do it naked"

 

[throwaway123]

People.

 

[Shay]

Loss of my entire self
Bitchy abusive people who take advantage of you needing them
Unhappiness
Anxiety
Feeling worthless and disgusting

 

[Duqu]

Hair loss kills. I've been feeling like I could hang in there longer (and why not, we all have the right to life), but then I think of having thinner and thinner hair over the months, and it does me in.

Totally feel your pain there. I'm transmasculine and I'm like "if I hadn't gone on testosterone (11 years ago) would my hair still be falling out?" It started falling out at 23, really fast in the past couple of years though (I'm 30). It's also turning white on the sides fml. My dad's went grey early but only JUST started falling out damn him.

 

[Duqu]

Oh, and being a grammar nazi

I'm a total grammar nazi too. People call me out on it and say I'm being "Classist" and I'm like "uh..no...I went to a public school and paid attention in English like a good student." I have a great T-shirt that is currently in my dirty laundry bag but I'll totally take a pic of it for you (It has a sentence on it using "they're, their, and there" correctly on it).

 

[worldexploder]

All of my problems would be solved!

 

[RacilyDank]

I'm a total grammar nazi too. People call me out on it and say I'm being "Classist" and I'm like "uh..no...I went to a public school and paid attention in English like a good student." I have a great T-shirt that is currently in my dirty laundry bag but I'll totally take a pic of it for you (It has a sentence on it using "they're, their, and there" correctly on it).

Haha I'd like to see that!

Grammar and class are not mutually inclusive. I was in the English class with the dumb kids at school because I couldn't pay attention, not because I wasn't good at English. I could've got an A for the same paper if I was in the class with the intelligent kids. Classic education system.

 

[Duqu]

Haha I'd like to see that!

Grammar and class are not mutually inclusive. I was in the English class with the dumb kids at school because I couldn't pay attention, not because I wasn't good at English. I could've got an A for the same paper if I was in the class with the intelligent kids. Classic education system.

I don't actually RECALL the proper uses of they/their/there being taught...I remember the only class I ever had on (English) grammar in 7th grade we learned the trick to figure out if you use "I" vs "me" when you are saying things like "you and I" or "you and me" which was handy...It's kinda sad that I only ever had (including university and grad school though at that level it's assumed you know proper grammar I guess) ONE english class that focused on grammar (and that only for a semester!); the rest taught literature. I also over-use parentheses and semicolons.

I still screw up proper usage of something that I can't think of right this second (my memory suuuucks) but one starts with an "A" and the other an "E" and one is a verb and the other a noun (I think) and I tend to mess it up occasionally when the sentence is complex.

 

[Maravillosa]

I don't actually RECALL the proper uses of they/their/there being taught...I remember the only class I ever had on (English) grammar in 7th grade we learned the trick to figure out if you use "I" vs "me" when you are saying things like "you and I" or "you and me" which was handy...It's kinda sad that I only ever had (including university and grad school though at that level it's assumed you know proper grammar I guess) ONE english class that focused on grammar (and that only for a semester!); the rest taught literature. I also over-use parentheses and semicolons.

I still screw up proper usage of something that I can't think of right this second (my memory suuuucks) but one starts with an "A" and the other an "E" and one is a verb and the other a noun (I think) and I tend to mess it up occasionally when the sentence is complex.

I think you mean affect and effect, Duqu

 

[PatKat]

I can sum it all up into EVERYTHING! :)

 

[Duqu]

I think you mean affect and effect, Duqu

Bless your heart thank you. That was going to drive me batshit.

 

[Halvah]

Please write me, I don't know how this works