Afraid I'll never have the courage

[rebelsue]

My biggest fear right now is that I will never be strong enough to succeed and will have to live this miserable life out until it's natural end. I crave the control over my situation that ctb brings but I'll keep wussing out.

 

[friendly99]

I share your pain. I want to ctb but I am so lazy and weak that I don't know if I can escape my pain

 

[Marktheghost]

I'm a bit scared of never succeeding too. If I had a way, it wouldn't give me peace, because I'd be so unsure that it would really work.