Anyone else never really manage to make a 'career' for themselves. I.e build up skills/experience in one area/business/trade/industry/environment/type of job?
My experience is of lots of temp/seasonal jobs and a couple of failed attempts at more 'stable' stuff, but thus also an envy and sense of failure when previously seeing the pay levels of peers of a similar age (we are now 10-15 years after uni). Though I also wouldn't be able to deal with the general responsibility that typically comes with promotion/higher pay. I lose it even when asked to buddy with a newbie and show them the ropes. Fine doing it in the moment, feel helpful, but soon over analyse and ruminate and doubt and run.
Does mean I have quite the back catalogue of previous lives and random experiences though. Another reason for isolating - ruins conversations where I'm like 'yea I've done this or that' to a ton of stuff.
Generally harder and harder to fit/'blend' into the seasonal jobs now. Questions get asked and its not a lifestyle that typically fits 'older' folk. Sticking out now.
Dead end where I tried retraining and feel like I've tried every option (private/public/charity, full time/part time/0 hours/seasonal, all sorts of sectors/industries). Just know that I'm best 'doing' rather than desk based. Although one of my office jobs wasn't too offensive.
