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Seeking Aether

Seeking Aether

Off to unchartered islands I only half-believe in
Apr 20, 2024
20
I've been thinking about it recently and I think it would be nice if I could redo my life but with everything going right, among other good afterlife scenarios
 
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thenamingofcats

annihilation anxiety
Apr 19, 2024
374
That would be the dream for sure.
 
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anhedonya

anhedonya

Use common sense!
Apr 14, 2024
159
I don't think so. I can't think of anything worse that could happen to me as a cosmic punishment than reincarnation. Now if I could time travel back 10 years, absolutely, sign me up. But to come back and have to start over even if my life would end up happy feels like so much effort. If I could be taken back a decade with all my knowledge and memories intact, I think it'd be easier to build that- "everything going right" that way instead.
 
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Seeking Aether

Seeking Aether

Off to unchartered islands I only half-believe in
Apr 20, 2024
20
I don't think so. I can't think of anything worse that could happen to me as a cosmic punishment than reincarnation. Now if I could time travel back 10 years, absolutely, sign me up. But to come back and have to start over even if my life would end up happy feels like so much effort. If I could be taken back a decade with all my knowledge and memories intact, I think it'd be easier to build that- "everything going right" that way instead.
Yeah that's valid, but what do you think would be an even better scenario than that? Or would you rather just cease to exist completely?
That would be the dream for sure.
I hope that's the afterlife I get, planning to ctb soon
 
WoNkEy_DoNkEy

WoNkEy_DoNkEy

As Useful As A Chocolate Teapot šŸ«–
Apr 6, 2024
187
Yes definitely!! My life could easily have been better (though not without risks) were a variety of mistakes not made that put me beyond the point of no return.
 
anhedonya

anhedonya

Use common sense!
Apr 14, 2024
159
I'm sorry for the events that have brought you to this. I would like a nothingness in the afterlife, yes. What you see when you close your eyes- not really "darkness" but a lack of anything to see.
 
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soysoysoy

Dead girl walking
Feb 25, 2023
44
I've been thinking about it recently and I think it would be nice if I could redo my life but with everything going right, among other good afterlife scenarios
Thats exactly what I hope happens when I die, I want to try again
 
Blue Elephant

Blue Elephant

Arcanist
Sep 22, 2023
470
No! I did good, I did the best I could, I'm happy with how I lived my life and I'm ready to go now. I'm proud of who I am! All that was (and is) wrong happened because of others.
 
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Seeking Aether

Seeking Aether

Off to unchartered islands I only half-believe in
Apr 20, 2024
20
Yes definitely!! My life could easily have been better (though not without risks) were a variety of mistakes not made that put me beyond the point of no return.
And do you think there were times you were excessively unlucky? Like fate was toying with you?
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I'm sorry for the events that have brought you to this. I would like a nothingness in the afterlife, yes. What you see when you close your eyes- not really "darkness" but a lack of anything to see.
Yea, just to cease to exist, many people would like that for sure but I wouldn't, nor do I think it's possible for me, metaphysically
Thats exactly what I hope happens when I die, I want to try again
Here's hoping for you
No! I did good, I did the best I could, I'm happy with how I lived my life and I'm ready to go now. I'm proud of who I am! All that was (and is) wrong happened because of others.
That's great, it's nice that you're content with your life and I hope you can find something better in death
 
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WoNkEy_DoNkEy

WoNkEy_DoNkEy

As Useful As A Chocolate Teapot šŸ«–
Apr 6, 2024
187
@Seeking Aether considering it was how poor choices (plural) interacted with a health problem and made it spread. Yes sadly avoidable and a horrible twist of fate.
 
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CrownOfThorns

Member
Apr 9, 2024
11
Honestly, no. It's impossible for everything to go "right", too many things are out of my control. If I'm going through all this trouble to end it all, I sure hope it's not starting all over again once I'm done.
Even if some alledgedly omnipotent being swears to me it's 1000% certain nothing bad will happen this time, I'm not taking that risk.
And even if they're telling the truth and my life does go as I want it to, it won't erase suffering for the rest of the world and I can't live a happy life if I wake up to news of hunger, poverty and abuse every morning.
Fingers crossed to only living once !
 
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Hotsackage

Elementalist
Mar 11, 2019
806
I'm quite happy to go into heat death of the universe.
 
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4am

4am

thereā€™s nothing for you (it/its)
Dec 14, 2023
3,333
no, i don't find life desirable at all, i just want to leave asap and never come back
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

She wished that she never existed...
Sep 24, 2020
34,877
No, never I wouldn't want to exist under any circumstances, it's not me that's the problem but rather it's existence itself, for me existence is what is wrong and only ceasing to exist can fix it.

The existence of life is a tragedy to me, I have no interest in something so futile and torturous as human existence, in my case I prefer the true peace of non-existence over having the ability to suffer. I don't want to suffer in any way and in existence there is endless potential for suffering, all I wish for is to be permanently unconscious.
 
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Abyssal

Abyssal

Kill me
Nov 26, 2023
1,238
Be born with a smart brain, good looks, no misophoniaā€¦what a dream.

Y'all better watch out I'll be reincarnated as the most powerful person alive because anything other than perfect it the problem.
 
Kurai

Kurai

Suffering
Jul 23, 2023
136
Absolutely not I don't want to relive a life
 
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Linda

Linda

Member
Jul 30, 2020
1,403
No. Once was enough. Arguably, it was once too often. And that's from someone whose life has gone well, for the most part. Life is over-rated. Non-existence is a lot less hassle.
 
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Jorms_McGander

Arcanist
Oct 17, 2023
476
A lot of what went wrong for me isn't really anybody's fault and has more to do with the specific historical context in which I as a neurodivergent individual arise. I was born in a part of Canada where farms got electricity in the 1950s, the work was very hard and emotional understanding was not the best. My parents were beaten with a switch [you know, where Dad has to go cut his own switch and if he gets one that's too small, Grandpa is gonna go get one so big that Dad will never pick a small one again] and they beat me when I was a child, but that stopped in the 90s as the social environment changed.

I'm hypersensitive emotionally and physically, born to a couple who lacked proper emotional education because it didn't exist for anybody at the time and just not beating your children was considered progressive in the culture at the time. I'm the third of four kids, so I was never a priority. I was ignored and basically from the moment of my birth I've been repressing my own needs. Due to that, diagnosis as neurodivergent was impossible. I was not put it front of the right doctors until my 30s in a psych ward, but the diagnosis I got there was BPD. BPD could have been entirely avoided if I had been treated properly from a young age. A whole-ass personality disorder would be off my list of shit I gotta deal with now.

SO if everything went right for me, that means that people in the past had better emotional experiences, they didn't pass down traumas great or small, it means that the healthcare system in Canada was working properly and able to diagnose me with uncommon presentations of ADHD [and maybe autism], and all of those things would be true not just for me but across the entire system, because my trauma comes from systemic failures rather than any particular lack of compassion. I don't think my parents meant to neglect me. They actually gave me a much better upbringing than they received. It's just that I was not a normal brain inside this body, so it never translated for me.

Hell I'd do it even if it only fixes the societal issues of the time and I'm still traumatised. It'd put us forward twenty years as a society. Hard yes.
 
astonishedturnip

astonishedturnip

Like Christine Chubbuck, but sadder
Jan 16, 2024
185
Yup. Let me do it over again. I know what to do now.

Just the thought of knowing that I can never go back and relive my younger years and undo my mistakes is enough to send me into a death spiral. I fucking hate it here. All of our years of scientific advancements and we have no time travel or anything. Just hentai AI.
 
untothedepths

untothedepths

I am falling I am fading I have lost it all
Mar 20, 2023
372
I'm certain there is a catch to this. If the catch is that someone's life has to be worse then I don't want to participate.
 
homesoon.

homesoon.

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Apr 15, 2024
83
I would be open to giving it another go if I was able to remember the things I've learned from this life. Otherwise, nope. It would just become another life, filled with other mistakes, and without any guarantee I wouldn't just end up cbt'ing all over again.
 
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Mi Mi

No One Special
Mar 18, 2024
245
I've been thinking about it recently and I think it would be nice if I could redo my life but with everything going right, among other good afterlife scenarios
I'm so traumatized
And second guess everything
So no
One and done
 
Raindancer

Raindancer

Experienced
Nov 4, 2023
289
That is a good question. For some reason recently I've been hearing people say if I could goo back and change something I wouldn't because it would change who I am now. My first thoughts are well goody for you LOL. Seriously, I used to think that way at one time. But there are things I would definitely want to change if I could do it again. Some desperately.
 
Illegal Preclear

Illegal Preclear

Skull Skylight Installation Specialist.
Sep 6, 2022
135
If I get to come out of a v*gina that isn't attached to a drug using, Satan worshiping, subhuman pig, therefore not being born disabled...sign me up. In fact - make me dumber. Shave off a chunk of my IQ points. Make me an absolutely neurotypical human normie who's into flower picking and cheerleading and all the popular lowest common denominator TV shows. Make me oblivious to the realities of this Planet and its surrounding Dimensions. Give me good, salt of the Earth, working class Christian parents that make me go to Church and let me never discover the Occult or Black Magick. Give me the most blissfully AVERAGE life imaginable so I can know what LIFE is like. Because I never got a single day of normal, human life in this cursed, Devil-made flesh shell.
 
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lifeneedssavepoints

Member
Oct 5, 2023
6
Absolutely. I wish this was possible. I might be able to save some others as well as myself too.
 
locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
5,871
Not for a second.
 
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Yuina

Yuina

Member
Apr 13, 2024
89
More than anything. Reincarnation happens to be my most ideal form of an afterlife. It's not the world I hate as much as myself, though the world certainly doesn't help either. If only I could be reborn as someone better than I.
 
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BardBarrie

Experienced
Mar 17, 2024
225
No, because I still take issue with this reality we're in: I detest the cruelty of Nature and how we're conscious beings yet existence wasn't made for us, instead we're open to all sorts of needless suffering.

If I wanted to live again, it would absolutely have to be in a modified reality, rather than just a rerun of this place but with me personally doing better.
 
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