Discussion Would it be wrong of me if I wasted a bunch of my mom's money by taking my own life?

[human123]

I am planning on ending my life. i was originally planning to do it at the end of August, but don't know if i can wait that long. I'm thinking of possibly doing it sometime in May, but then I would be wasting a bunch of my mom's money. My mom spent thousands of dollars to take me to Disney this summer to celebrate me graduating high-school. the tickets are nonrefundable, even in the case of death, so if I do die before hand, my mom would lose all of that money. I feel like I would be an asshole to waist someone else's money like that.

also, for Easter my mom got me a Nintendo switch 2, which while I was really grateful and enjoyed it, the console is very expensive and I'm not sure if it would ever get used after my death, so I would be wasting my mom's money with that too. if I killed myself, would I be an asshole for wasting the money my mom spent on me for the upcoming trip and for the video game console? I dont want to waist anyone's money, but i just can't take it anymore.

 

[leoneliona]

I think a parent is ultimately going to be more concerned with mourning a child than "wasting money". Any decent parent is going to be more concerned with your life, which is priceless, than what they've spent on you.

 

[fadedghost]

I am planning on ending my life. i was originally planning to do it at the end of August, but don't know if i can wait that long. I'm thinking of possibly doing it sometime in May, but then I would be wasting a bunch of my mom's money. My mom spent thousands of dollars to take me to Disney this summer to celebrate me graduating high-school. the tickets are nonrefundable, even in the case of death, so if I do die before hand, my mom would lose all of that money. I feel like I would be an asshole to waist someone else's money like that.

also, for Easter my mom got me a Nintendo switch 2, which while I was really grateful and enjoyed it, the console is very expensive and I'm not sure if it would ever get used after my death, so I would be wasting my mom's money with that too. if I killed myself, would I be an asshole for wasting the money my mom spent on me for the upcoming trip and for the video game console? I dont want to waist anyone's money, but i just can't take it anymore.

You should at least go to Disneyland.

High school is sometimes terrible for people. Once you are 18, and an adult, it may get better or worse, but things will change a lot.

You should at least wait until 20. If it seems like completely unbearable to live, if you have insurance you should get therapy, and if you don't have insurance, a lot of schools have insurance and you can take the bare minimum of classes to just get insurance and take them pass/fail and only take subjects you like.

Some people do get better with SSRIs and psychiatry, but just be careful because if you share you are suicidal, there's a risk of involuntarily hospitalization, which is extremely traumatic sometimes and expensive. Just be aware that if you mention suicidal feelings at all, the risk of involuntarily hospitalization exists.

 

[Shiitake]

You should at least go to Disneyland.

High school is sometimes terrible for people. Once you are 18, and an adult, it may get better or worse, but things will change a lot.

You should at least wait until 20. If it seems like completely unbearable to live, if you have insurance you should get therapy, and if you don't have insurance, a lot of schools have insurance and you can take the bare minimum of classes to just get insurance and take them pass/fail and only take subjects you like.

Some people do get better with SSRIs and psychiatry, but just be careful because if you share you are suicidal, there's a risk of involuntarily hospitalization, which is extremely traumatic sometimes and expensive. Just be aware that if you mention suicidal feelings at all, the risk of involuntarily hospitalization exists.

things became way way better for me after 20's
i used to cry tears of hapiness how enjoyable my life became,
im so glad i survived highschool

 

[name2come]

I mean, if you are truly at a place where you feel you need to CTB, that's your decision to make and you aren't accountable for how other people feel about that. I hope you can find peace, in this life or beyond it, and I hope you can hold off, but you aren't accountable for me. You aren't accountable for your mom.

I will say that I think your mom would be a lot more concerned about losing you than losing some money for a trip. I completely get where you are coming from. Right now, I'm planning a trip that I think I won't be around for, and I'm steering things towards refundable reservations. And I know, if it comes to it, its my choice to make. I can't control how other people will feel. I need to let go of that. Its not always easy, but its something I try to remind myself.

It is okay to try to bargain with yourself a little, though. Think about if this trip is something you want to experience, even a little. Even if just to be with your mom. I'm at a point where I'm realizing I may be doing a lot of things for the last time, and sometimes they are nice. It may not change the direction I'm headed, but that's okay. Its okay for something to just be nice for what it is. If you think the trip might be nice for what it is, even if it won't stop you, maybe its something you can hold out for. But that's ultimately going to be your decision. I wish you luck.

 

[purebliss]

I am planning on ending my life. i was originally planning to do it at the end of August, but don't know if i can wait that long. I'm thinking of possibly doing it sometime in May, but then I would be wasting a bunch of my mom's money. My mom spent thousands of dollars to take me to Disney this summer to celebrate me graduating high-school. the tickets are nonrefundable, even in the case of death, so if I do die before hand, my mom would lose all of that money. I feel like I would be an asshole to waist someone else's money like that.

also, for Easter my mom got me a Nintendo switch 2, which while I was really grateful and enjoyed it, the console is very expensive and I'm not sure if it would ever get used after my death, so I would be wasting my mom's money with that too. if I killed myself, would I be an asshole for wasting the money my mom spent on me for the upcoming trip and for the video game console? I dont want to waist anyone's money, but i just can't take it anymore.

"Dead man has no worries"

It is completely up to you to decide what is the best course of action for yourself.
If it's too unbearable, then your choice is yours alone.

I am also only here because of my CTB partner and promising each other that we first try a couple of "funsies ;)" before we go