Wish I could CTB with a smile

[Lookoutbelow]

Is it strange that I want my CTB to be humourous. Jumping is my method. I am depressed every waking moment. Is it possible to jump with a smile. Maybe a funny saying like "look ma, no hands." I know there is nothing funny about our pain and suffering, but I want it to be. I've been on the ledge calm, I've been on the ledge angry. Maybe I should try skipping and whistling my way off the edge. I have to jump. I don't see any other way.

 

[lwlaiet8887]

I'd just go out embracing oblivion and hoping for something better on the other side, that's what I'm doing. Will have a good drink, food, some music, then I'll lay it all to rest,