Venting Wish I could convince my ex girlfriend to fix things

[Reflection]

I think I'm out of options. Tried talking to her to no avail in the end I had no choice but tell Ive been suicidal again because really, what other choice did I have?

Though that went as expected. Of course she thinks I'm bluffing and just trying to manipulate her. And of course she would only go "uh oh" once I'm fucking dead. A tale as old as time.

I'm almost tempted to include a passage in my note to her that says "well damn bitch, you happy now?" It's almost comical.
I wish I could just painlessy disappear into thin air.

 

[TastySorrow]

I'm very sorry you're going through this. Your story hits so close to home it's almost painful. My wife has always been very insensitive to my depression and she recently took the kids and left me after 16 years. Not only am I sure she thinks I've been manipulating her but she also told me so.

I'm almost tempted to include a passage in my note to her that says "well damn bitch, you happy now?"

Don't do this please. Sending a message out of spite is the worst reason to CTB. We don't know other people's reasons and have no right to make them shoulder the guilt of our own actions.

 

[Reflection]

Don't do this please. Sending a message out of spite is the worst reason to CTB. We don't know other people's reasons and have no right to make them shoulder the guilt of our own actions.

I understand that, but I also know she has no valid reasons for what she did to me when I have never done anything but be good to her. I wasn't depressed beforehand, I only became after she left ( the reason why is even more heartbreaking to me) and been dealing with it for a year and a half now alone, while she would only come to me whenever she needed me not giving a fuck about how I felt, no matter how much I explained or tried to communicate she would shut me up and then come asking for help when it suited her. I do not want to kill myself out of spite, but I think she bears accountability in this.