Discussion Will you let a message or a suicide letter?

[inviável]

I've been thinking about it recently and my thoughts are that I want to leave a message or something explained why I did it and leave some words to friends and family, but I can't stop thinking about how selfish it would be, like why would a make someone close to me suffer it last words and maybe they'll start thinking about how they wished things to be different, suicide already have a hard grief process and I don't want to stand it. But at the same time I feel if I left nothing it'll be worst, like people would just don't know why.

I really want to know what other people opinions in this, and if you'll left something behind or just go without explanation

 

[Big_Eal]

i will leave without any message

 

[Subhumano]

Probably not, or maybe Ill post it on the internet where no one I know irl will read it

 

[Erik.t.f]

I don't have anyone to leave a note for but i don't think i would leave a note anyway

 

[deepsweetdiver]

Maybe a letter to family but def no "i will miss you!! sowwyyyy..." I'll give them a whole encyclopedia of why they fucked up my life, but also how badly I've been suffering.

Also a thread here of course. Atleast this site helped me find the correct way to hang yourself.

 

[ma0]

I'll most likely leave something for a select few friends. I don't want to be remembered.

 

[Luv (sic)]

I've been thinking about it recently and my thoughts are that I want to leave a message or something explained why I did it and leave some words to friends and family, but I can't stop thinking about how selfish it would be, like why would a make someone close to me suffer it last words and maybe they'll start thinking about how they wished things to be different, suicide already have a hard grief process and I don't want to stand it. But at the same time I feel if I left nothing it'll be worst, like people would just don't know why.

I really want to know what other people opinions in this, and if you'll left something behind or just go without explanation

As odd as it sounds i would probably leave a usb stick instead of a letter. It would be filled with songs and books i liked, maybe even some photos or videos i could relate to. As to who sees the usb most likely family.

 

[voidinsidemychest]

i will leave my super long vent journal for my family and put a scheduled post on my instagram story a couple hours after i pass. seems like im begging for attention but i just want people to not be confused

 

[-nobodyknows-]

I think about this a lot too. I still don't know what I am going to do. Especially for those people I would like to say goodbye to but may not find out about my death at all (which, to be honest, I think might be for the best) if I do not send them something

 

[I'mSoFreakingCool]

It just feels wrong personally to leave without saying goodbye. I'll probably leave a note for my family and send final messages to friends. In the note I want to explain why I did this so they won't see my death as some mystery.

 

[3ngel]

even if it hurts, i'll leave a suicide letter to my boyfriend. letting him know that none of this was his fault and that i passed away peacefully ^_^ ... i know this might hurt him a lot and i wish i wasn't depressedd enough to leave him behind :{
i'll also leave a note for my mom and leave a final message for the forum!! <3

 

[2messdup]

I'll leave a note simply because I know my brother will vocally (and possibly physically aggressively) blame certain people who, although they abused me and kept in touch for the wrong reasons, did keep in touch. Whereas my brother walked away, exactly the same as he did when my alcoholic dad was alive and attempting ctb with violent means repeatedly. My dilemma is how to leave the note since I've read on here that the police may take any notes and family will never see them. I'm debating delayed emails but worry that the shock for people receiving an email without warning when they know I'm dead would be too much. Maybe send notes in the post and hope they don't get lost.

 

[DeathIsJustAJourney]

I've wrote several letters now but then tore them up after arguments after realising some home truths about people around me,seems I was correct from my 1st judgement at 6yrs old but allowed myself to be fooled through wanton on my part,so my situation now doesn't require any letters bar 1 to let people know how it was them that drove me into this situation and the outcome of it.so it depends on your situation really as some people have those they love and others have no one at all like me,if you do have people who truelly do love you it would make sense to leave them letters so they don't blame themselves for it,those who have no one except false family can leave it or do one letting them know they helped them to reach their decision,a letter that not many people would want after realising they helped end someone which in the eyes of God is a mortal sin with a direct pass to hell.so it's upto your personal situation really

 

[nyctophilia]

I'm thinking about this a lot too, but I think I will leave a short note for my family and maybe send a message to a close friend. It feels a bit weird to just go without saying anything. And I think something like a usb stick with passwords and stuff like that.

 

[PrismHon]

My thoughts have changed on this a lot. I used to think I would record a long video explaining why and everything, but I think I'm too lazy. Then I thought "just a written paragraph". Now I'm pretty sure I will not leave anything.

 

[3ngel]

My thoughts have changed on this a lot. I used to think I would record a long video explaining why and everything, but I think I'm too lazy. Then I thought "just a written paragraph". Now I'm pretty sure I will not leave anything.

yeah i feel the same as u
ill probably write my suicide letter just as a backup cause when i actually kill myself i'll be too lazy to write a letter lmfao

 

[bankai]

I'll leave a scheduled WhatsApp post to my mother. that's it. I attempted my first time partial hanging a few days ago. I knew she keeps her phone off at night so I just sent the message. couldn't go through with the hanging so then I deleted the message. Next time I think I'll schedule it to be safe. She'll go utter ape shit if she finds out.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd write to explain how I just want peace from the futile and torturous burden of human existence that always felt like a mistake to me, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather all I hope for is to never exist ever again, I find it horrific how a human can be conscious in this existence for so long just to die in agony from old age with no limit as to how much they can suffer, I'd just never wish for any of this no matter what rather all I hope for is peace, I just wish to be permanently free from this deeply undesirable existence.

 

[NonEssential]

Nah, I'll just go outside one day and not return.

 

[Knoc]

I'll just program a delayed WhatsApp message to my mom apologizing for what i did and trying to not make her feel responsable for my dead.

 

[burneverybridge]

I think about leaving a letter to my mother telling her how she fucked me up from the start. How I wished I'd killed her when she would slap me around the face as a teenager, for daring to stand up for myself, things like that. But she's totally incapable of accepting any blame. I wouldn't need to leave my twin a note, he is bad also and understands the want to go. Other siblings, none of us speak anymore. No one to thank or say goodbye to