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Jade10666

Jade10666

Exploring the end - Canadian
Apr 8, 2025
135
My feeling I will at some point. Maybe this afternoon, maybe next year :)
 
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dead dav

dead dav

Specialist
Feb 27, 2025
343
I would say probably but not yet if I was faced with a nursing home I would rather ctb
 
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StrugglingSienna

StrugglingSienna

Suicidal Trans Girl
Mar 16, 2025
181
Yes. By end of year unless an act of god stops me.
 
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whiskers

whiskers

blackpilled
Mar 27, 2025
86
absolutely yes
 
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singingcrow

singingcrow

Student
Jul 7, 2024
172
i don't know but i'm leaning towards yes
 
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divinemistress87

divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,919
Eventually yes
 
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Permanoir

Permanoir

Student
Dec 29, 2024
144
Hopefully soon
 
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ForeverCaHa

ForeverCaHa

Heartbroken Welshman
Feb 16, 2025
442
I've always felt my suicide was inevitable. Going through the recovery process now, but I can't shake how I feel, especially after this year
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
13,326
Currently: I don't know.
 
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technicallyAlive

technicallyAlive

Member
Nov 29, 2023
49
don't know. I still have hopes and dreams for the future but none of those seem tangible right now. I hope I'll get to see the future when I'm alive and happy, but right now I think I have my suicide all planned out
 
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sickoceanbunny

sickoceanbunny

Member
Sep 18, 2024
24
I wish I had access to easy suicide methods. I wish I was immune to pain and fear and could just stab myself to death.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,950
I wish, all I wish for is to peacefully cease existing on my own terms and never suffer ever again, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it non-existence truly is all I see as positive and is all I could hope for, I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this harmful, torturous existence that always felt like a mistake to me personally. The thought of being enslaved in this existence of suffering all for the sake of it just to die in agony from old age is so horrific and unbearable to me, I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence and I see so much cruelty in how peaceful guaranteed death is so cruelly denied for me with the suffering and torture of human existence seen as to force and prolong no matter what, I just wish I was never burdened with this existence of unnecessary suffering at all and I'll always see it as the most terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed.
 
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Danby

Danby

Just remember that the last laugh is on you
Aug 13, 2024
74
I honestly don't know. I think about it a lot, and get close to ordering the shotgun and shells, but perhaps I still foolishly have hope. So maybe, maybe not.
 
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getoutgirl

getoutgirl

got out the site <3
Mar 17, 2025
558
The future is a box and I'm its Schrödinger's suicidal idiot. I'm both certain of it and with plans. Who knows I don't
 
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The Unanswered Q

The Unanswered Q

Student
Jan 1, 2025
129
Although I try to get better, I've know for years now that my death will most likely be suicide
 
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23421

Student
Nov 14, 2024
164
i don't know why, maybe it's my existence feeling cursed for some reason, but i never envisioned myself having a long life. even before i became suicidal. just couldn't picture it at all. and now, at this point in my life, i am more than certain that i not only will, but want to die by my own hand.
 
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AllAloneAndSad

Member
Apr 2, 2025
69
Oh hell yeah!
 
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Mary Janex

Mary Janex

Probably dissociated
Apr 2, 2025
67
Yes, very soon if no great miracle should happen to stop me
 
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real human being

real human being

full of broken thoughts
Jan 28, 2022
240
I don't know... But it seems very possible...
 
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Busridin'26

Busridin'26

Hating every minute of being alive.
Dec 8, 2019
1,933
Dunno I've wanted to for a long time but always change my mind. Lately wanting to again.
 
Jade10666

Jade10666

Exploring the end - Canadian
Apr 8, 2025
135
Yes, very soon if no great miracle should happen to stop me
I hope you find peace
Dunno I've wanted to for a long time but always change my mind. Lately wanting to again.
I can relate
My feelings go in waves.

I expect one day I will get to close to the edge and the waves will whip me away
don't know. I still have hopes and dreams for the future but none of those seem tangible right now. I hope I'll get to see the future when I'm alive and happy, but right now I think I have my suicide all planned out
How well planned is your suicide?

I have mine well planned with all the tools I need - now I just need the wave to push me head first into the wave
The future is a box and I'm its Schrödinger's suicidal idiot. I'm both certain of it and with plans. Who knows I don't
how well planned are you?
 
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zilk

zilk

I shall rot, and nothing of my ego will survive
Dec 29, 2024
20
Definitely it wont matter if i die in 80 years or by the end of the year we all fall eventually so im taking the easy way out sometime when i gain the courage to do so
 
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nihilistic_dragon

nihilistic_dragon

Dead already. Just need to dispose of my body now.
Aug 6, 2024
884
If I had N, it would be a resounding YES.

None of the other methods appeal to me, but maybe one day they will, who knows. So I guess right now it's "I don't know"? Or "hopefully"?
 
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MathConspiracy

MathConspiracy

Trapped in a (prison) cell of organic molecules
Mar 25, 2025
245
Attempting FSH this week. I'll probably fail but at least no one will be home for a few days.
 
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Jade10666

Jade10666

Exploring the end - Canadian
Apr 8, 2025
135
Attempting FSH this week. I'll probably fail but at least no one will be home for a few days.
I wish you peace and success in your plans for the future.

I am not long away from following your footsteps. It's encouraging to see others go ahead of me.
 
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other-ghost

other-ghost

rotting
Apr 5, 2025
81
i'm only letting myself die by suicide or by god's will, but i try to take it by myself before anything happened.
 
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northevelyn

northevelyn

Little Void
Mar 26, 2025
66
I feel like it's destiny
 
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Jade10666

Jade10666

Exploring the end - Canadian
Apr 8, 2025
135
I feel like it's destiny
I relate!!!

Ever since I made a serious attempt as a teenager, I wake almost every morning with the thought that I would eventually end my wn life. It wasn't a prediction but a sense of being a fact in my life
 
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northevelyn

northevelyn

Little Void
Mar 26, 2025
66
I relate!!!

Ever since I made a serious attempt as a teenager, I wake almost every morning with the thought that I would eventually end my wn life. It wasn't a prediction but a sense of being a fact in my life
It's just a matter of when
 
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Jade10666

Jade10666

Exploring the end - Canadian
Apr 8, 2025
135
It's just a matter of when
Yeah - that I relate as well

I have an approach that I take two steps forward and then one step back. Eventually, two steps forward will mean I step off the stool, and there is no step back possible

I am at the stage where I have booked a hotel room
 

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