I did not mean that in a positive sense: the fact that I care for a few people who are innocent and do not deserve to suffer because of me is what keeps me in this prison called life.
Romantic love is a double-edged sword. It has a lot to do with my wishing to die but nothing with me staying.
Yeah i know what you mean.
I discussed everything with my family
They know and see daily how it is for me a day. So they understand very well why i want to go out of life. So they are prepared now even tonight with dinner my mom said it is hard but she knows it will happen anyway and she said she have seen me change from happy kid into a depressed adult who dont trust life.. She cried but she understands its not healthy to life with damage of childhood and later inlife.
