Venting Why me?

[logar]

Hi guys, I haven't made a forum post in a while but I'm still here, probably not for long though. I'm probably going to be gone within the next 2 months.

There's so many factors in my life that just make me more miserable. I look at others my age (18) and wonder why the fuck do I have to live like this. Why do I have to deal with these awful circumstances? Why do I have to be so weak to the point where any inconvenience just sends me spiraling into a more horrible state? I can't keep pushing through anymore, and what would I be pushing for! I can't see a better life. There is no path, nowhere to go. The most desirable thing for me to do is just cry in my bed all day. Everytime my parents see that I am slightly stressed out or anything like that, they just take that chance to ridicule me even more. Why do I have to live with these damn people? When I was 8, I pulled a knife on myself and my parents saw it, and they simply told me to do it. Every day I wish I could just be a normal kid with a normal parents with a normal life, but nope. I have to struggle with all these issues with myself and my shitty parents. I wish my attempt 6 months ago worked. I wish I ended it there. I feel so weak for not being able to deal with the pain.

 

[sadsillygoose]

Its so shitty to deal with such circumstances, especially when others are like "just relax and enjoy, these are the best years of your life!!". Your parents sound absolutely horrible, you deserve better.

 

[sacrilegeofsouls]

Nobody deserves what you've gone through the world truly is some bullshit I've faced similar things and the only thing I felt like doing every step of the way is burning down everything people cities why shouldn't you hate the world that's defiled you so thoroughly you should never look down on yourself it's not your fault the world can't be good enough