Why do you want to CTB?

[NoFOMO]

Because I should have been aborted. Or just not made.
Everything I can think of that I hate about me and my life I can boil down to that.

 

[mediocre]

because I am well and truly fucked.

 

[999888]

Shitty family
3° World Country
Genetic Trash
Chronic pain & health problems

 

[CalmStrikeofMercy]

To sum it up:
Headache that never goes away making functioning in a society almost impossible.
Running into ted bundys.
People who are dark triad.
Surrounded by people whose behavioral choices are felony offenses.
Running into people who want to commit genocide.
Extra-judicial punishments.
Trying to stand up for my rights and finding out people don't see me as having them.
Running into people who want to end peoples lives and then hide evidence.
Running into fraud.
Forced prostitution.
80% of interactions end with me risking hard jail time or being killed.
I have no desire to start a family or marry. The family I do have...they don't really like me and its for things I don't have control over.
Watching the world go to pot.
Watching the u.s. go to pot.
Not really being able to make sense of what is going on. What people want or expect. Just seen the worst in people to the point that Im always on alert for it.
Life for me is like being unconscious/sleep walking.
Lack of mature people.

Tried literally everything for a remedy...nothing works.

Basically a sum total of being fucked up beyond all repair.

 

[PeaceisallIwishfor]

I have terrible anxiety, ptsd, chronic fatigue, and adhd. I can't focus on anything, everything is draining and I live in a constant state of panic and misery.

 

[Mpez28892]

Stop my internal monologue
Spare myself/other people from the shit show my future holds
Control

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

See, and I've damaged my body to the point of no return, meaning the rest of my life is filled with anxiety over my health deteriorating, more hospital visits, more dependency on medication. I'm only in my early 20s.
I feel like I'm... glitched. This save file is corrupted, unplayable and it's no fun. I want to just end it already

I am in the same situation. Hope you can find a way

 

[AlreadyGone]

Spent the past decade trying to fix a problem that I have now come to the realization cannot be fixed. As a result, I am no longer happy with life.

 

[listeningpost1379]

Living requires too much effort. I'm not dead yet cause ctb is also effort. I wanna relax forever, you see.

 

[porfin1234]

Sabotaged home and career and finances.
All because of laziness and anxiety and impulsivity. Thousands of dollars in hospital debt and drunk in public on record.
Always had suicidal ideation often for no reason. Always kinda been delusional and sad for no reason. Had such a high year last year and to see how I destroyed it all and changed trajectory of life I just can't look at self in mirror anymore.

 

[Alucard]

I don't like the humans of this society, but I need them to "survive".
I don't like work, I don't like unemployment.
I can't accept the injustices of this world.

 

[Life_and_Death]

i just cant anymore. my mental disorders torture me day and night. i can never win. i cant make them stop. ive removed myself YEARS ago from what caused them but i guess it was just too late for me. honestly though looking back at my past actions i wonder if i wasnt born with these disorders and was fucked before i was even born.

 

[Deleted member 17949]

I'm ugly, stupid, awful personality and no talent.

 

[Bruces]

Depressed,nothing to live for or look forward to etc

 

[Rocket1Rocket1]

Because I have tried playing the game called life and failed numerous times. I don't want to play anymore I'm tired.

 

[wanttodie]

suffering from depression and anxiety problems and . My brain can't work fast enough for the world and i hate life and living this way i want to end my life and me day well end my life

 

[Rn110bg101]

i'm a terrible person
lost at the lottery people call "life" time and time again
chances of me ever being happy are nonexistent
and some other things.

 

[everydayiloveyou]

I just got a shitty hand in life. Severe social anxiety disorder for my whole life, depression since I hit puberty, incurable vision impairment that makes me look weird, ugly face, fat, stupid, no friends, no real extended family, talentless, boring, broke... Plus the world is falling apart at the hands of a few elites who make everyone else wageslave for 45 years, and its only getting worse.

I think ctb is the only relief for me. It's either ctb or wait another 30 years just to keep watching my life go farther downhill. I'd rather go out with some preparation and dignity at least.