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blackorchid

blackorchid

Facing the brink.
Mar 27, 2026
26
just curious, what makes you hurt youself? personally, I do it because I wanna feel something... and I have something weird going on with blades.

what about y'all?
 
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absolutethistime

absolutethistime

shinigami
Feb 20, 2026
27
A sense of control and relief over the internal pain.

Sometimes as a form of self punishment.
 
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blackorchid

blackorchid

Facing the brink.
Mar 27, 2026
26
A sense of control and relief over the internal pain.

Sometimes as a form of self punishment.
same here. self punishment is real. I rather hurt myself than someone else... and I pretty much (feel like) deserve it.

sending you a big hug <3
 
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3FailedAttemptss

3FailedAttemptss

trans girl (`・ω・´)
Jan 22, 2025
239
Cause I want/need to. It doesn't help me though TwT
 
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maki

maki

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Apr 18, 2026
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ive stopped cutting since then but partly because i was sad and unable to accept things as how they were and partly to get pity and attention from my fp
 
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Sept1stismyenemy

Sept1stismyenemy

Member
Apr 18, 2026
10
I just listen to my brain it screens at me that I need to feel pain or just feel something in my control, i love watching the blood run down my body, and i love my scars
 
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alivebutnotliving

alivebutnotliving

“The suffering said we go around”
Dec 16, 2024
53
i love seeing my inner pain reflected and feeling it. so addicting, unfortunately
 
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fadinghalo

fadinghalo

悔しいけれど いらない過去で この私は作られてます
Apr 18, 2026
4
Usually when I sh it's very impulsive, whenever something makes me feel distressed I get this strong urge to hurt myself to externalize that feeling. Whether I'm upset at myself or someone else it doesn't matter, I always end up taking it out on myself.
 
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absolutethistime

absolutethistime

shinigami
Feb 20, 2026
27
same here. self punishment is real. I rather hurt myself than someone else... and I pretty much (feel like) deserve it.

sending you a big hug <3

Its unlikely you deserve it, how come you feel that way?
 
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mars2027

mars2027

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Apr 8, 2026
30
Self-punishment. Most of the times when I fail to control myself and end up doing things I know are wrong.
 
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bl33ding_heart

bl33ding_heart

Borderline
Jun 24, 2025
194
My intense emotions due to my bpd. :p
 
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blackorchid

blackorchid

Facing the brink.
Mar 27, 2026
26
I just listen to my brain it screens at me that I need to feel pain or just feel something in my control, i love watching the blood run down my body, and i love my scars
same here, I unexpectedly enjoy watching the blood run through. I still cut myself very slightly tho.

Usually when I sh it's very impulsive, whenever something makes me feel distressed I get this strong urge to hurt myself to externalize that feeling. Whether I'm upset at myself or someone else it doesn't matter, I always end up taking it out on myself.
it's hard, right? whenever I have a heated argument, I can't help but release my frustration and anger on my self.

Its unlikely you deserve it, how come you feel that way?
long story short, low self steem. and whatever you repeat for long enough, becomes true in your mind. I feel like I'm just inferior in every aspect of life and end up punishing myself for that. I've tried to make it different, but one way or another, I always end up in the same path. (TMI sorry)
 
absolutethistime

absolutethistime

shinigami
Feb 20, 2026
27
same here, I unexpectedly enjoy watching the blood run through. I still cut myself very slightly tho.


it's hard, right? whenever I have a heated argument, I can't help but release my frustration and anger on my self.


long story short, low self steem. and whatever you repeat for long enough, becomes true in your mind. I feel like I'm just inferior in every aspect of life and end up punishing myself for that. I've tried to make it different, but one way or another, I always end up in the same path. (TMI sorry)

I see. How old are you? Self esteem tends to increase later in life.
 

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