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blackorchid

blackorchid

Facing the brink.
Mar 27, 2026
25
just curious, what makes you gurt youself? personally, I do it because I wanna feel something... and I have something weird going on with blades.

what about y'all?
 
absolutethistime

absolutethistime

shinigami
Feb 20, 2026
26
A sense of control and relief over the internal pain.

Sometimes as a form of self punishment.
 
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blackorchid

blackorchid

Facing the brink.
Mar 27, 2026
25
A sense of control and relief over the internal pain.

Sometimes as a form of self punishment.
same here. self punishment is real. I rather hurt myself than someone else... and I pretty much (feel like) deserve it.

sending you a big hug <3
 
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3FailedAttemptss

3FailedAttemptss

trans girl (`・ω・´)
Jan 22, 2025
239
Cause I want/need to. It doesn't help me though TwT
 
maki

maki

Member
Apr 18, 2026
5
ive stopped cutting since then but partly because i was sad and unable to accept things as how they were and partly to get pity and attention from my fp
 
Sept1stismyenemy

Sept1stismyenemy

Member
Apr 18, 2026
8
I just listen to my brain it screens at me that I need to feel pain or just feel something in my control, i love watching the blood run down my body, and i love my scars
 
alivebutnotliving

alivebutnotliving

“The suffering said we go around”
Dec 16, 2024
53
i love seeing my inner pain reflected and feeling it. so addicting, unfortunately
 
fadinghalo

fadinghalo

悔しいけれど いらない過去で この私は作られてます
Apr 18, 2026
4
Usually when I sh it's very impulsive, whenever something makes me feel distressed I get this strong urge to hurt myself to externalize that feeling. Whether I'm upset at myself or someone else it doesn't matter, I always end up taking it out on myself.
 
absolutethistime

absolutethistime

shinigami
Feb 20, 2026
26
same here. self punishment is real. I rather hurt myself than someone else... and I pretty much (feel like) deserve it.

sending you a big hug <3

Its unlikely you deserve it, how come you feel that way?
 

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