Despite my codependent and my struggles with a psychological anxiety disorder that has contributed to my need for death despite always wanting to ctb in the first place, I found these to be very endearing, especially coming to terms with fake people I've met and in general my mental anguish in belonging, so thank you and I don't do favorites or necessarily do that (never have;however I'd be lying, wouldn't I, right? being human, I mean) but I know deeply what it means to enjoy someone's company and these would be that in some way
@whitetaildeer - he's just so goofy and so relationally like a brother I can relate to and grew up with to understand enough and has been so emotionally invested to my updates whenever I get the chance to share what's going on currently with my dumb self
@Namelesa - she's the little sister I never had and see myself in her enough to protect her and she equally always gives me the strength to feel loved, which I never had from my own sister in this world, despite having money to hurt her her and give her the world the best I could when we were younger, and she has a lot of mental energy despite dealing with the same shit I went through and is so tough it surprises me and wished I known someone like that growing up and is listens and cultivates knowledge along the way ((:
@whywere - he is a my big brother I look forward to talking to and are deeply very similar in terms of personality and he gives me the warmth of finding myself in someone without it being weird and he has the most comforting personality and energy despite what he has endured and I just love him so damn much :'))
@futurecorpse - i know I just met her but I just know we will get along and she is just as girly and relatable as me yet she never fails to make me feel seen and heard and yet equally I find myself enjoying her stories despite only a day and a halfconvo
@ma0 - we hardly talk as much but they see me and now I know why and it'll equally be rewarding knowing someone I don't know is like me and it makes sense why they are always around
@itriedinthislife2 - we had not been around to meet much sooner until now but they remind me of myself yet I can't find why and they were so understanding that time when I saw their post and they just supported me without much reason and I was so surprised to find them again and I just know we'll get along ((:
@GoSan1 - a literal brother and same in age and I just love how he is trying and his dreams and aspirations and how real he just is, he's so sweet and warm despite his exterior and what has led him to this point, I love him as my own heart, two of a kind and seem to come from one similar place, he loves and cares for humanity so much, yet isn't open to sharing himself to the world as he is like us, and has been so woundedโฆ so amazing
@BlueButterfly111 - she reminds me of myself yet she doesn't, she is strong yet warm, and has a warm, kind, strong heart and voice that sees the light and is so compassionate yet foregoing on her journey and reminds me of a sister I never had and she is the beacon of my soul and would be like a friend I never known I had before until now and can't see her as a sister but a genuine gal friend or bestie I would've loved to hang with if we had been in a better world, and I always searched to know the answer for so long, and she feels the void in my days somedays as it feels so wonderful to know how much someone can feel similar to you yet they are still a person ((:
@dontwakemeup - the person I connected with and deeply see myself in, I love his connection with god and how he settles himself into doing so much for others despite hurting and takes his pain and his suffering into a whole deeper meaning regarding a peace and the ability to heal that as a Christian man ((': he deserves so much and feel so close to his bright light whenever we have talked :>
@isa_nqra1 - a sister, a gal friend, a bestie, a gamer, a queen, an icon, a legendโฆ I just love her so much!! And she is so receptive and kind and nurturing and I love our convos and how she can joke around one moment and then be serious and is a true gift to masterโฆ she is a gift
And honestly so many are too here
@soonnotkoei - a loving brother or cousin? Not sure yet but he did better than the male cousins I had, and he sees me, I see him, and he is just so fun to be around, he is pretty funny and pretty unique at conveying interest and affection and has a great ability to be the center of attention, I feel, oh and a personality that is the void to my very soul as it feels like he gets me, or so I think?
If there is anyone I missed, truly I will write again to you once I felt more comfortable and feel like as I know you as myself and find somewhere to share my heart with you
@EternalShore - I remembered you sadly last minute and deeply am so sorry I did. You remind me so much of myself and I know how much you know I love your company, but trulyโฆ I really vibratingly do and often wonder how or where you were in my life, as we share so much in common and radiant the same frilly whimsical joy and I feel in such awe of how you express yourself and how you just are ((:
Thank you for reading ^^
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@beseechgod - a queen and will just say, she may be quiet, reserved, but she feels so genuine and greatly appreciating to how one can grow and express themselves if life had offered a better choice and her patience and understanding is what makes me feel so heard and seen and special as I felt I would be judged for my upbringing a tad bit, truly from the bottom of my heart, you mean so much to how we have been discussing our plans to ctb :>
@curiousbeing - he was more active before changing his goal and his ctb plans, but he was very much a light to me, we talked so much and despite how it went, what occurred was very genuine and I loved his space, his time, his presence and his overall character and personality, his energy, his interests, his brain, and his ability to convey what he's thinking, just as my ex, and I truly wished he didn't suffer or endure loneliness as I, but he truly meant so much to me when we talked and discussed our plans and I care so much about his future and his peace and for him to find hope someday where he will never loose his happiness to find love and connection. <3 (sorry for accidentally forgetting about you
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Who I respect:
@fallingleaves - just a unique girl who lost her way in life and deserved better and I love how she expresses her emotions despite how hard it is for her and the state she is, I love her to death, and wish I could give her my strength somewhat :'))
@nomoredolor , I forgot you so much!! Forgive me. I don't know much about you, but I do know you are so loving and sweet and care so much for everything and deserved everything that was taken from you, you are nurturing despite us not talking as much and have a deep level of trust in how you have handled things so far and believe in you
@BlueberrySylv - A sentimental guy trying his best and I love his vibes and his personality of honesty and kindness and humility
@L'absent - I like how she writes and deeply reminds me a lot of myself and she explains things so uniquely especially what she's going through and how she genuinely hates this world as much as I do
@lawlietsph - I just love how she opens up about her emotions and the true reality on how it affects you to exist in this world ((:
@ijustwishtodie - I think he hates me for annoying him but I already explained half below but if you see this, you already know from a week or two ago, but seriously keep being yourself and keep hating your existence
@FuneralCry - should I even explain how much I love her take on existence?!?! Excuse men but didn't you see my mention above?!? Please never give up who you truly are and why you have suffered, hoping you and I catch the bus soon as we have had enough
@danny10 - he is very kind and considerate and like how he works so hard for him and his mental health despite knowing what he'll give up because he loves those who he will depart with and hold his sleeve on his heart on the pain he'll carry and very knowledgeable
@Tonic_Secrecy - hell know why soon
@guineapiglover8503 - she means so much to me as a person and she will know why once she knows me more too
@bleepbloopbleep - was so excited to know him before his break and he helped me when I was first here too :'))
@MrFreshTheCat - so able to help me when I first joined and I'm so glad to know them before I had started
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He'll know why soon
@Warkman1 - Same here with him
@Jealous Blackheart - Hehehehe
@Bruce - he's just so realโฆ I love him so much!!
@APeacefulPlace - He will also find out soon ((:
@CTB Dream - She will know someday
@Sannti - He'll know someday
@Bootleg Astolfo - she just makes me so proud of her and forgot she existed for a second until I was reminded about her in the PMs and I just must sayโฆ she's so strong and deeply respect her so damn much
@LionsTigersAndBears - He will know someday soon
@Chuuya-Chan โ. ๐ห - love reading their journey
@Forever Sleep - hehe they'll know soon ((:
@Forveleth - I can't explain it now but I know
@divinemistress36 - I love their company and being on here and being able to interact and get people so fast
@The_Hunter - he will know quite soon but I think is aware of why :>
(previously soulkitty)
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I swear, your presence on this site is appreciated, you genuinely help and have understanding for others, ya knowww it's a mythical thing ppl write stories about the disappearance of the "real ones" hah
