Who else has no friends?

[Egddios]

My dog is the best, most loving and comforting being I know.

Human friends? Meh. The "friends" I once had conveniently disappeared after my struggle to come back from multiple suicide attempts, so I guess they weren't "true friends" after all.

Grateful for the few who have stood by me and believe in me. This said, I'm weary of people and am not looking for more friends at this point. Sort of a turn off.

I should note, I'm not active on the popular social media sites (Facebook, Instagram, Snapchat, etc). It all just seems so overwhelming cringy. Insincerity and empty platitudes - no thanks. I'll stick with my 3 friends, my super pup, and my cat.

I have met some kind, non judgemental souls here on SS though :) Grateful for this site.

 

[Imgonnadie]

Never

 

[phoenixx]

I haven't had friends since I dropped out of high school, over 6 years ago. Most of them stopped talking to me after I stopped going to school, then my last and only "best friend" told me she was fed up of me being depressed and suicidal and decided to leave me too (nice right?). Only had online friends after that but haven't even had any of them for over a year now. Completely and utterly friendless, not that it bothers me anymore. Use to the loneliness now.

 

[Xaphous]

Lifelong bullying has made sure I have none, I can't even leave the house without enduring another threat, belittled, mocked. All of my previous bullies know where I live and they drive past my house multiple times a day for the last 15 years beeping their horn. Sometimes as much as 70 times a day they will beep their horn outside my home.

 

[Vidar33]

Over 2.500 Facebook friends. But no-one to call in the middle of the night. Classic, isn't it?

 

[AutumnEmbers]

none, Im very ill and poor ,basically in pitiful situation with very abusive relative, no one looks for friends like that, unrelatable. Plus severe social anxiety, I have it around every human being, even on the communication through internet, I feel stress and pressure. Result of longterm traumas. I always felt bad for having so much stress and anxiety even around best friend, when I had one in the past. Stress consequently makes me ill, I am on high alert and stiff body all the time unless I take some pill. Its a nasty vicious circle.

I can relate to having such severe social anxiety that it makes even online interactions difficult. Also, the stress of socialising in real life, even with close friends (back when I had them), makes me ill too. You perfectly described the way it feels, physically and emotionally. I feel desperately lonely, yet I can't stand to be around anyone.

 

[dreamsofdestruction]

Used to have some long ago, not many mind you, but like two or three.

Then everything took a wrong turn and I never recovered. Have some people I talk to online now and then, but they're all far away.

 

[Alec]

None. And I was actually ok with it for some years but now, lately the loneliness is just soul crushing and it really kills.

 

[Broken]

I spent around 5 years without any friends/social life and I was perfectly happy. Then I got friends and thought I was making something of my life but I threw it all away. Lost friends, family and relationship. I've been depressed, isolated and lonely for 10 months now. I've lost hope and wanted to die for 10 months. Life is fucking cruel. Yeah I made mistakes but I didn't mean to and I don't know how to get out of this mess.

 

[RainAndSadness]

Here, no friends. I talk to some people from this community though.

 

[Broken]

The funniest thing is when people don't want to be part of your life anymore and they come out with shit like 'one day you'll understand and thank me for this' Yeah thanks you really did me a favour being partly responsible for me wanting to end my life when I'd committed to building a life with you.

The funniest thing is when people don't want to be part of your life anymore and they come out with shit like 'one day you'll understand and thank me for this' Yeah thanks you really did me a favour being partly responsible for me wanting to end my life when I'd committed to building a life with you.

Sorry gone slightly off the subject of friends.

 

[Gate]

No friends here too, i have only a vague idea of what that means

 

[GeorgeJL]

I have friends. Not a lot, but a few close ones.

 

[Orin]

I still have a few friends but i haven't spoken to them in years since i moved to another state; and mainly because there's no longer anything in common to bond over. It made me re-assess what the definition of a "friend" is. Is it common interests? I know they're the understanding type who would listen with understanding and compassion if i ever spoke to them about my problems and suicidal thoughts but i don't want to burden them with that.

 

[kolski]

Ahaha no

 

[thesongbird]

I have one friend, who collects guns. We had originally became friends in 5th grade because we wanted to commit suicide together. For some reason we didn't do it, thinking each other was enough of a reason to go on. Now hes neet and I'm hating 90% of every day, caught in the persuit of a career. Wish we went through with it. Maybe Ill bring it back up some day.

 

[Hayalet]

For some odd reason people are attracted to me, but I cant keep friends due to my depression. Even friends that say they have it cant understand. I sometimes get lonely, but other times I remember the rejection, being used, and labels....
I can relate

I have no real life friends. I have a few 'friends' on FB that I knew in high school, but nobody ever calls me or texts or anything, even when I've reached out first and attempted to start conversations. I've had poor health and been very isolated for over 20 years now, haven't worked, barely ever go anywhere except to doctor appointments. NObody wants to be friends with a person who is unable to get together and do things and hasn't much to talk about (actually, I do think I have a lot to talk about as I love music and movies and I'm interested in many different things. But everyone my age, and for the last decades, have careers and families and they go on vacations and everything...I've none of those things so, to them anyway, I have nothing to talk about.)

When I was younger I always found it hard to make friends because of my social awkwardness and anxiety, so I'd usually only have one good friend at a time and that's it, with a few casual friends I'd hear from once in awhile. But after my health got bad, even the casual friends drifted away. Sometimes they'll email me but it's only to brag about whatever's happening in their life at the time, and then they disappear again. They never ask me about what's going on with me, or remember anything about my life.

The loneliness and isolation has gotten even worse for me after my mom died 5 years ago because now nobody ever calls or gets in touch, not even my own sister.

 

[OmgDudeWhatNoWay]

I'm 25 now, but back in high school when depression was really kicking in, I felt a need for isolation so I disconnected from my friends. During recess and lunch, I always went straight to the library. It was terrible being alone sitting at the farthest corner of the library. I think it was terrible more due to the fact that I was bored out of my mind and feeling worthless instead of feeling lonely. Maybe a little bit lonely. I wouldn't even study. I had no phone at the time to occupy myself. I would just sit there, existing, alone with my thoughts.

Eventually during the middle of my Junior year, I was transferred to another high school because of credit deficiency. A tiny school. The school had around 200 kids or so compared to the usual 2,000ish at my old one. I made some new friends at this new high school. I was a lot more socializing than ever with not just my friends, but a lot of other different people. However, I never hung out with any of them outside of school. Once my senior year finished, that was the last time I saw them.

From the age of 17 when I graduated up to this day of age 25, I never felt lonely actually. I do have one friend, but we rarely talk these days because he's so busy with college. There would be periods of months, maybe even up to a year or more, where we don't talk to each other online. I still think about him from time to time. I'm always ready to play games with him if he's up for it. Mostly, I don't really feel I have a need for friends and hanging out with them, so that's good depending on how you see it. I never had a girlfriend either. Deep down, I personally feel like I have a lot of chances with a lot of girls (mostly due to looks), but I'd still be nervous just because of hormones and shit, and the total lack of experience. I'm never planning to get one either because of the current condition of my state.

At work, I'm comfortable with all my coworkers. There's other guys around my age who are really chill that I enjoy talking with. They're the ones who usually make coming to work so much more tolerable when I'm there. I always greet them with, "what's up man", just having a very casual conversation, laughing, making jokes, etc. I also work in the backroom, so I rarely have to be on the floor with customers. If they come up to me, I just go "Ohh! Uhhh, no english!" (just kidding).

 

[IsItReallyParanoia]

Technically I have one, my internet friend
he was my absolute favorite person in this world. But he made it clear he didn't care enough about me to stay, so I'm emotionally distancing myself as much as possible. He came back now but it isn't the same.

 

[Bärchen]

My 2 cats are my friends, the last human friend was 23 years ago.

 

[not_a_robot]

Loneliness kills

I don't know. I've always felt more comfortable alone. I'm weird, so I attract bullies and haters like flies on shit, always have, it will never change. I'm trying to think of a single time I have ever had a "friend" who wasn't just trying to have sex with me or set me up for some kind of cruel hateful joke or elaborate bullying. I'm kind of smart, and that makes stupid people so angry and insecure that they just can't live with themselves until they've ganged up and conspired some horrible nasty trick to play to try to "take me down a peg" or feel like they've "outsmarted" me (as if!).
Their manipulations are always so obvious and stupid and childish that half the time I just pretend to go along with it out of pity, and because I know if I don't "play possum" and let them believe they've hurt me, the bullying will just keep escalating and never stop.

When I'm with people all I really feel is pity and disgust at all the stupid little games they constantly play. So loneliness doesn't "kill" everybody. It's the only thing that has ever made my life bearable. If every so-called "human" disappeared off the planet, I wouldn't feel anything but profound relief. I've dreamed about it since I was a toddler. "I just wish they were all gone." When my grandfather died I was four and I remember people trying to explain death to me. "They go very far away, and they never come back." I knew it was my only destiny, the only place I cared about going was very far away, and never coming back. It was all I could think of, but of course I got beaten for being weird whenever I tried to explain it. Around six I found out what the word suicide meant. I was in love! YOU CAN DO IT TO YOURSELF!!! You can make that decision for yourself and choose to go very far away and never come back, whenever you decide! Genius!

It's still I've ever really wanted, I'm just chicken about overcoming SI.

Me. I have zero friends. I have never had a friend ever like even all through school. And now I'm in my late twenties. They only people I ever speak to are my family. To a certain extent I like it like that these days. Even when I'm around people, I wish I was alone. I guess I can't relate to people. All they talk about are TV shows or the latest viral thing or celebrity or something else everyone is supposed to be talking about. The X crisis in Y place Or whatever. Basically whatever they are supposed to "care about" at the time to fit in. Except they don't really care. Everyone forgets after a week when the news channels decide they have milked it enough.

I sometimes think people are just mirrors. They are all reflecting each other's thoughts/actions forever. There is no real them. There are no real thoughts of their own. Or maybe I'm just messed up in the head. I don't know. I guess I'm just not very interested in the things most people find interesting. Now I don't know if I am a loner because I like being alone or because I haven't met anyone I would like to be around. I don't know.
Sometimes I wish I had enough money to retire to some place in a countryside or by the beach and spend my days not having to interact with anyone. Just read books, explore nature and die someday completely anonymous.

No, you're right. They aren't real. They are just organic wads of mindless instinct. They make-belive that there is profound meaning in all their constant fucking and fighting, but they have no real insight or free will, they just act in irrational patterns based on chemicals whose only function is to keep them breeding breeding breeding, ENDLESSLY FUCKING BREEDING! They think pumping out little copies of themselves makes them special and important, but they are less significant than rutting pigs on a farm. Ugh. Lol they always act like they pity me for not fitting into their world, til they realize I think their world is pure stupid garbage and I wouldnt be like them for all the love & money in the world. Then they're just furious, like "How dare you not want to be part of this social shitpile? I'M TRAPPED IN THE SHITPILE AND I HAVE TO PRETEND TO LOVE IT SO YOU SHOULD TOO!" Fake people get soooo murderously angry when they meet someone who isn't fake, even if that person is struggling. Being true o your own thoughts is a luxury that people who crave social approval will never have, and they are completely jealous of it.

 

[dandan]

I have no friends, because I dont want tooo, but if I wanted too sure, its possible....

 

[Shoopaloopadoop]

I have one online friend but aside from her I honestly have no friends in real life & it's been this way for a quite a few months now. I also tried to reach out to old friends but they all either ignore my messages or literally just leave me on read. Made me realize that I'm honestly not a very interesting or likeable person if even my old friends don't want to hangout with me anymore. I fantasize about having friends everyday but gave up on trying to contact anyone or initiate friendships a while ago once I realized no one would even care if I just dropped off of this planet entirely.

 

[a_strange_day]

I have no friends irl, voluntarily
I talk to some people online sometimes, but I wouldn't call them friends

 

[HGL91]

Unfortunately, I can relate to this.

I don't know if I agree. Surrounding myself with fake friends makes me feel lonelier than actually being alone.

Then yea. Aside from my boyfriend, I have a close online friend. I met him on r/SuicideWatch on Reddit. Unfortunately, I think I'll probably lose him soon because he indicated he wants to commit suicide.

I thought your boyfriend was from China when you lived there, no?

 

[ScorpiusDragon]

I thought your boyfriend was from China when you lived there, no?

Yes he is from China. I think you are mistaking my bf for my online friend. My online friend was also male and I met him on r/suicide watch on Reddit. My online friend was from Austria.
I worked in China for a year, and I met my bf on a Chinese dating app—TanTan (which is the Chinese version of tinder).

 

[HGL91]

Yes he is from China. I think you are mistaking my bf for my online friend. My online friend was also male and I met him on r/suicide watch on Reddit. My online friend was from Austria.
I worked in China for a year, and I met my bf on a Chinese dating app—TanTan (which is the Chinese version of tinder).

Oh ok. I see how I misread it now!

 

[Dawn0071111]

Sociopaths only contact you when they need something because they see people as just tools.

Oh God.. Im a sociopath... I def need to ctb.

 

[AnnaJaspers]

I had friends here and there but mostly have been isolated, especially the past three years.

 

[TraumaBunny]

I'm socially isolated too.