landslide12
Member
- May 22, 2019
- 37
We're in the same boat, but instead of a friend my ex is the only person keeping me company, she felt bad after she broke up with me because of my depression.
tomz323
Walking to the bus stop
- Mar 29, 2019
- 367
Depends on what you think a "friend" is. I'm sure I've got people who think they are my friend, but I've never felt like I had one.
Rex2019
Can't wait for the summer
- Feb 23, 2019
- 128
Me. I have zero friends. I have never had a friend ever like even all through school. And now I'm in my late twenties. They only people I ever speak to are my family. To a certain extent I like it like that these days. Even when I'm around people, I wish I was alone. I guess I can't relate to people. All they talk about are TV shows or the latest viral thing or celebrity or something else everyone is supposed to be talking about. The X crisis in Y place Or whatever. Basically whatever they are supposed to "care about" at the time to fit in. Except they don't really care. Everyone forgets after a week when the news channels decide they have milked it enough.
I sometimes think people are just mirrors. They are all reflecting each other's thoughts/actions forever. There is no real them. There are no real thoughts of their own. Or maybe I'm just messed up in the head. I don't know. I guess I'm just not very interested in the things most people find interesting. Now I don't know if I am a loner because I like being alone or because I haven't met anyone I would like to be around. I don't know.
Sometimes I wish I had enough money to retire to some place in a countryside or by the beach and spend my days not having to interact with anyone. Just read books, explore nature and die someday completely anonymous.
My 1st post on here. I have none... Not even family, I've been spending birthday and Xmas & new year all alone for at least 15 years now, I'm 35 now.
Kit_the_kat
Member
- May 29, 2019
- 5
I managed to make a few friends last year. They left me as soon as they found out I attempted suicide and was admitted. They said that real friends accept you faults and all. I guess they lied about that. They told me they didn't want to deal with that. They ignored my attempts to reach out to them. I finally let go. So I'm back in the darkness alone. But it might be better that way.
NoOneKnows
Specialist
- Sep 12, 2018
- 323
none, Im very ill and poor ,basically in pitiful situation with very abusive relative, no one looks for friends like that, unrelatable. Plus severe social anxiety, I have it around every human being, even on the communication through internet, I feel stress and pressure. Result of longterm traumas. I always felt bad for having so much stress and anxiety even around best friend, when I had one in the past. Stress consequently makes me ill, I am on high alert and stiff body all the time unless I take some pill. Its a nasty vicious circle.
First off, I like the name. And Im sorry that happened. Imagine how much better the world would be if everybody prioritized each other. Not wealth or status, but living your best life and including those around you. And honestly I think this website is the closest I've come to experiencing that. I think thats why I like the people on here. Most people here dont give a shit about trivial and shallow stuff, we just want to experience peace
I'm so sorry :( I couldn't imagine how lonley that could make one feel. Do you have any pets? I desperately wanna dog lol
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Darkhaven
All i have left is memories
- May 19, 2019
- 979
Spending your last days on a beach would be great. Countryside is cool too, but I dont think the city girl in me could deal with the bugs and spiders lol. Also, I dont think you're messed up, just observant. You seem like a thinker and youre just telling it how it is.
TAW122
Emissary of the right to die.
- Aug 30, 2018
- 6,813
Me as I only have acquaintances and some people who live close to me (non-family, but roommate and home owner that I'm renting from). I don't really interact much with them or hangout much and most of my life is rather isolated. I do try to socialize, but more often than not, I'm often left in the background, even in a group of people, which just goes to show how much interest people have in me in general... (very little, if any).
Bulletwbttrflywings
My soul is awakened... and I’m f*cked
- May 29, 2019
- 244
My dog is mainly the reason I'm here...
landslide12
Member
- May 22, 2019
- 37
I'll spend xmas and birthday with you if I'm still alive next year
Bulletwbttrflywings
My soul is awakened... and I’m f*cked
- May 29, 2019
- 244
landslide12
Member
- May 22, 2019
- 37
We can throw a party
Bulletwbttrflywings
My soul is awakened... and I’m f*cked
- May 29, 2019
- 244
Agreed.
Just as an FYI.... I haven't gotten a bday or Christmas present for years now too. You're not alone.
OpheliasFlowers
Specialist
- Apr 2, 2019
- 348
that_guy2611
Student
- Mar 17, 2018
- 187
raises hand loneliness kills but unfortunately it takes a long ass time.
OpheliasFlowers
Specialist
- Apr 2, 2019
- 348
I have no real life friends. I have a few 'friends' on FB that I knew in high school, but nobody ever calls me or texts or anything, even when I've reached out first and attempted to start conversations. I've had poor health and been very isolated for over 20 years now, haven't worked, barely ever go anywhere except to doctor appointments. NObody wants to be friends with a person who is unable to get together and do things and hasn't much to talk about (actually, I do think I have a lot to talk about as I love music and movies and I'm interested in many different things. But everyone my age, and for the last decades, have careers and families and they go on vacations and everything...I've none of those things so, to them anyway, I have nothing to talk about.)
When I was younger I always found it hard to make friends because of my social awkwardness and anxiety, so I'd usually only have one good friend at a time and that's it, with a few casual friends I'd hear from once in awhile. But after my health got bad, even the casual friends drifted away. Sometimes they'll email me but it's only to brag about whatever's happening in their life at the time, and then they disappear again. They never ask me about what's going on with me, or remember anything about my life.
The loneliness and isolation has gotten even worse for me after my mom died 5 years ago because now nobody ever calls or gets in touch, not even my own sister.
When I was younger I always found it hard to make friends because of my social awkwardness and anxiety, so I'd usually only have one good friend at a time and that's it, with a few casual friends I'd hear from once in awhile. But after my health got bad, even the casual friends drifted away. Sometimes they'll email me but it's only to brag about whatever's happening in their life at the time, and then they disappear again. They never ask me about what's going on with me, or remember anything about my life.
The loneliness and isolation has gotten even worse for me after my mom died 5 years ago because now nobody ever calls or gets in touch, not even my own sister.
Conflicted Cat
Experienced
- May 23, 2019
- 256
Chalken
Decaying
- Nov 20, 2018
- 214
I used to have a few in middle school, but in high school my depression and social anxiety escalated and I distanced myself from everyone. Now I have no one but my family. I think it's better for everyone since I would just be a burden to them.
throwaway123
Hell0
- Aug 5, 2018
- 1,446
same here. It's better this way.
I HAVE YOU GUYS <3
I HAVE YOU GUYS <3
I HAVE YOU GUYS <3
StillWaiting
Need cats to comfort me
- Jul 28, 2018
- 550
I dont really have friends because I will end up hurt them but it is nice to hang around here
throwaway123
Hell0
- Aug 5, 2018
- 1,446
We're just letters on a screen. Might as well talk to a bot :(((
i know man, but even in person we never really know who we are really talking to. But we will call then friends and go out, just to help with boredom
Severen
Enlightened
- Jun 30, 2018
- 1,819
People are more genuine over the internet than in real life because they feel more secure hiding behind a computer screen. In real life, people tend to wear masks.
LaBrava
Experienced
- May 5, 2019
- 265
I never had more than a handful of friends. Like a lot of males my friendships were just based on common interests/hobbies, I've never had a friend I could confide in or get support from. When I started to realise how badly my life was going to turn out many years ago I cut myself off from the few friends I had. The friendships didn't help with my struggles, just cost me energy in putting up a front all the time. I also felt that there was always a hierarchy in which I was the lesser. I don't regret cutting people off or miss it, to be honest. I've been entirely solitary for more than a decade, barring online interactions.
PatKat
Meh
- Aug 9, 2018
- 1,025
My family doesnt understand, I have 1 friend in the real world, and I do not like people. I have no reason to be here anymore. Noone will even notice me leaving.
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I would rather be alone. Yes loneliness is painful at first but when you truly understand why.. It became clear. We are lonely because we need acknowledgements. Because we desire affirmations. We want to be seen, to be heard, to be known, to be needed by someone. Our desire to be love. To exist. And once you abandon those things. Solitude became my paradise. Eternal stillness untainted. I wish I can live on forever in solitude. Just sit there watching the world goes by. Silently.
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