Who else has all the necessary materials to ctb but are still waiting for the right day to do it

[random123kid]

I have sn, i have antiemetics, i have acidity regulators. I'm just waiting for some of my family members to come back home, they live in a foreign country.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Yup, have everything I need for CO. Just don't have all my affairs in order.

 

[Kerrtu]

I have SN. No meto so I will use either Amitriptyline or forego AE altogether. I've been prescribed Ondansetron for years, I may be somewhat conditioned in that sense, idk.

Anyhow, I feel badly to CTB in July; things have gone downhill and my partner and I recently broke up. His birthday is tomorrow. I don't want to CTB around his birthday. So, as it stands, I'm holding off till August.

I've been pretty physically ill since December and it's very much taken it's toll. Finally had the colonoscopy I had been waiting for on the 28th and have been resting since. I'm supposed to start 3 months of pelvic rehabilitation but I am wiped out - I'll be calling to cancel that set up. Calling to cancel therapy this week as well.

Stick a fork in me, I am done.

Regarding the colonoscopy - they removed some polyps for biopsy among other things. I've lost over 50lbs since whatever this is started. Almost fainted in CVS the other day (dehydration, not in astonishment over how long the receipt was). I'm exhausted, but I guess I will have to get through July and finally CTB in August (no particular date, likely in the first week of August).

Wanted to see my sister before I go but then again, she'd be likely be horrified to see me in this condition (we live many hours apart) and I don't want her to feel bad, or like she could've done something, etc. I'd rather her have the memories of when I stayed with them for a summer. We had a lot of laughs, and I loved to see my nieces and nephew.