Who destroyed your life?

[EmptyManForever]

My parents and psychiatrists ( who gave me tons of strong psych drugs without my consent )

 

[EraseRewind]

Me.

 

[kitigene]

I guess some of the previous incidents like my brother trying suicide and my father beating my mother fucked up my mind. But I don't blame them exactly, but I recognize that somehow it affected me. Right now, I see that I can change everything but I'm not caring enough anymore.

 

[throughtheglass]

I would say me, but I feel some compassion towards myself. I've been living in a toxic environment, dealing with bullying and toxic people all my life. So 50/50

 

[Chemicalcastration20]

My doctor! Well actually it's not there fault it's big Pharma!

 

[Ae54rge]

My parents, my family, the NHS, UK education system, UK government, my exs, my friends and me.

 

[awfullife]

me

 

[sadbadpsychogirl]

me and a bunch of people who decided to tell ficticious stories about me

 

[Flump]

My son

 

[rabbithole]

I am glad that you were able to get over it, that is amazing that you managed to heal from ptsd when you had so much trauma.

Some of us will never be able to until there are better treatments, but it isn't a matter of feeling sorry for oneself, for a lot of us we have tried our best and there was no relief.

I can accept it happened but it won't make the dehabilitating flashbacks and panic attacks go away, I don't think a lot people's physical responses to trauma can be controlled by mental fortitude. But that's just my experience with ptsd. If it cant be overcome, it is not the victim's fault. Similar to what painoflife said, it is often involuntary.

This.

sometimes it isn't possible to overcome trauma...especially when trauma is chronic. You can't keep up with it enough to heal. I have about 10 very traumatic memories and then tons of minor ones that just haunt me. For some they would be nothing, for me they're debilitating and they make me hold my breath when the memories assault me.

 

[Deleted member 94]

Me.

 

[NightmareTour]

Mostly me, some bacteria, and my ex. Special mentions to:

The doctor who misdiagnosed me and nearly got me killed, and the nurses who insisted that I was overreacting and didn't check on me the night I fell into a coma.

My mum, who is the way she is because she has plenty of her own issues. Generational trauma is a bitch.

And most of the people I went to school with, but I guess they were just dumb kids trying to fit in.

 

[torimandy]

I have to say I wish I could pinpoint it. Was it my parents who gave birth to a child who was in the wrong body? Was it my parents again who disowned me when I changed that error of birth? Was it me for not being abble to survive in the wrong body and making that wrone right? Is it society for not allowing me the ability to make a real living now that I have made that change? I think it's a combination of all of them, but I know that I cannot go any further than I have so far. Not without help anyway. And the only help being offered is involuntary incarceration until I tell them the drugs I don't need are doing a great job and I am no longer suicidal, which is nothing more than a lie.

 

[Awayout]

100% myself. Unfortunately my past actions will be my reasoning behind ctb when I finally do it. I truly wish I could go back in time as they're 100% unfixable.

 

[thats_a_wrap]

Me.

 

[Symbiote]

My mom and I, followed by therapy.

 

[stygal]

Doctors saving my life after having a stroke.

 

[Skathon]

This reality (nature?), unfortunately.
I will never have my revenge...

 

[regular john]

I always had problems with keeping jobs

 

[woknows]

5 the potent antibiotic Levaquin destroyed my health causing severe neuropathy and tendon damage and central nervous system dysfunction.

I feel you. I had a similar experience only after one pill of the same class of drugs. It sucks living like this.

 

[Johnjohn1]

I feel you. I had a similar experience only after one pill of the same class of drugs. It sucks living like this.

I'm really sorry to hear that, especially after only one pill. who would have ever thought an antibiotic could do such widespread damage! So sorry for your suffering! I hope you are improving. I took 20 pills love is poison. I just recently bought my nembutal as it is just unbelievably brutal to get through each day.

 

[plough22]

Who or What has destroyed me?
My ex through through lies/untruths and twisting turning of words, it has sent me down a path of self medication and medication self harm and suicidal ideation and, hoping that I'm pushed that extra inch over the edge and I find Peace. For a person that never had little mental issues to now being so close to being committed, I am pushed and tortured for something I didn't do. HOPE is what is what's allowing me to get through a day cause it's a battle

 

[Meditation guide]

My parents. I just watched this and got a lot out of it about "healing my inner child"

 

[mini_weeny]

It pains me to read all this, I think us humans are a disaster and don't know shit. We are here, alive but really walking blindly thinking we have control when clearly we have not because of the many interactions between ppl and the objects of the physical world. Those who have good happy lives are just lucky to have been born to good nature and nurture and then just good luck navigating the physical world, they had the resources mentally and genetically to overcome obstacles and be winners. Clearly we are not in that club or we wouldn't be here.

 

[Chemicalcastration20]

Many different doctors and psychiatrists that are just puppets on a string to the pharmaceutical industry. Hate the fucking lot of them.

 

[Akasha]

It pains me to read all this, I think us humans are a disaster and don't know shit. We are here, alive but really walking blindly thinking we have control when clearly we have not because of the many interactions between ppl and the objects of the physical world. Those who have good happy lives are just lucky to have been born to good nature and nurture and then just good luck navigating the physical world, they had the resources mentally and genetically to overcome obstacles and be winners. Clearly we are not in that club or we wouldn't be here.

I can't put into words how truly dumb we humans are. We spend 100% of our times eating the trail of crumbs, that the top 1% has lain out for us, pretend we have chosen the life that has happened to us. And then you look around for a moment, and we're all living the same identical train wreck. Only that some of us have hit rock bottom sooner than the others have.

Then thank god survivor bias exists, so that the more fortunate people that are still alive, can keep this sickening circle of pain on forever with the next younger generation, and that the people at the bottom who know the truth get locked up for trying to kill themselves.

 

[Going Home]

A politician, a boss and now a racist landlord.

 

[ungraceful gargoyle]

I've always wanted to die, even as an innocent child, even before I remember. I just don't want to be alive and it's that simple.
So obviously I'm the reason I want to CTB.

 

[Hurt]

me

 

[Deleted member 23885]

No one. I was just born with a predication towards depression. Life sucks.