marcy2022
Student
- Oct 19, 2022
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I almost have everything for a few methods. A few of those are well know ctb methods and some not so much.
I'm having doubts cuz of inacurate research data and complications which makes it difficult for me to choose one over the other.
I know I've to choose this myself but I just thought to ask what another person would do given the same information and access to things.
I have SN 100g and all necessary pills to go with it except benzos (I tried getting benzos with no luck but I might try again)
I have thiopental 30g and anti-emetics. Can go both oral or IV route (still have to test cannula setup and run some trials with IV)
I have vecuronium bromide 60mg. (this isn't that well know ctb method. its used in lethtal injections, euthnesia along with anesthetic such as thiopental. Also used in surgeries to paralyze patients for the duration)
SN
48 hour fasting and anti-emetic regime or 3x10mg metocloprmide and 8mg ondansetron 40 minutes before
esomeptizole 80mg (same time as meto)
propranolol 400mg to potentiate (probably same time as meto)
diazepam or lorazepam (don't have but I can try to acquire them, idk if I'll be successful)
25g SN in 50ml water
Possibly have another 25g SN in 50ml water prepared as a backup drink
I'm scared of vomiting as its said way too many times in online documents and also here that regardless of anti-emetics the chances of vomiting are 50%. After vomiting, some suggests to abort, while there's another suggestion of taking another drink. I think if one vomits after taking SN, the drugs taken before, maybe they vomit those out too and then taking another drink of SN might make things painful or unpredictable to say the least. Stopping after vomiting could still complicate things where one maybe in so much pain or other physical or mental conditions requiring a visit to hospital. I for one would like to avoid hospitals as if its a plague (I've bad memories from failed attempts using another method). Even after all of that SN does sound promising to me considering the SN itself is reliable however the vomiting and complications which may arise following vomiting scares me and puts me in doubt. Also not having benzos is something to consider but I guess it can be done without. I would if one could vomit while being asleep under the effect of benzos and that would complicate things. I'm concerned about the vomiting part and complications associated with it.
Thiopental
Oral (probably won't go for oral route this time around)
3x10mg metocloprmide 40 minutes before
1-3g phenytoin sodium mixed with thiopental drink
30g thiopental in 150ml water
IV route (if cannula works without complications)
3x10mg metocloprmide 40 minutes before (maybe or not)
1-3g phenytoin sodium mixed with thiopental in the IV solution (maybe or not)
30g thiopental mixed in 150ml 0.9% Sodium Chloride/NS/normal saline
I've tried oral theoptal of almost 20g before with 48 hour fasting and anti-emetic regime and I was found around 8 hours later. No idea what went wrong but somehow I'm still here. This time I've 30g and probably can get more. I'm thinking to try intravenous route this time given that I manage to learn to setup the cannula properly or get a cannula from a hospital with a fake excuse, which is doubtful. If I manage to get the cannula going there's still the matter the cannula itself getting dislodged or IV tubing getting blocked by involuntary physical movements while unconscious. I've read a few online articles which suggests that there's intense pain involved with thiopental injection which some patients described as "burning sensation" and there's reports of involuntary withdrawal movements of the arm where the cannula is located. Itss also said there's chances of involuntary muscle movements while one is unconscious. I fear this could happen and complicate things where maybe the IV tubing gets blocked while half the solution still is in the IV bag or maybe the cannula gets dislodged and the fluid isn't being delivered. Fear of failure with oral route cuz of bad previous experience and IV route with its complications of burning pain sensations, possible cannula and tubing sensations scares me. It sounds like a good method provided everything works but the complications worries me.
Vecuronium Bromide
vecuronium bromide 60mg mixed in 30ml 0.9% Sodium Chloride/NS/normal saline
Vecuronium paralyzes a person, full body paralysis. The way this works is by paralysis of whole body including diaphragm. With diaphragm paralysis breathing is suspended or gets the point of almost nonexistent. In surgeries patients are put into ventilation when vecuronium is induced. In this method one suffocates to death. Suffocation/asphyxiation takes around 10 minutes for an average person do die. In lethal injection protocols usually 20mg vecuronium is given after induction of anesthetic agents so one is unconscious when they receive the paralytic agent followed by another substance which disables the heart. Doing all 3 steps without proper equipment by oneself is almost impossible so I thought to try vecuronium and thiopental. The problem here is that they can't be mixed as it causes precipitation (simply put if that happens either one or both drugs might be ineffective and/or may result in further complications). Both of these drugs given at at clinically suggested dosage would still put one to sleep or paralysis in a sort period of time depending on which is administered first. If thiopental is administered first then there's a high chance of one falling unconscious before vecuronium or if vecuronium is administered first then one might get paralyzed before administration of thiopental. Also its suggested in a number of medical guidelines to flush the IV lines/cannula with saline solution to avoid precipitation. There's also suggestion of injecting each drug in a different arm followed by saline flush to avoid precipitation. So the risk of precipitation is there and it should be given priority. That made me think vecuronium by itself should work as a single drug solution as it results in paralysis of diaphragm which will result in asphyxiation. During suffocation first stage is body craving air, next is feeling discomfort because of the lack of air followed by apnea but maybe its irrelevant as diaphragm is already paralyzed and therefore breathing has already stopped followed by increased heart rate, vasoconstriction, increased respiratory rate, Cerebral ischemia, Cardiac failure, etc., ultimately leading to death. One good thing about asphyxiation is that one should lose consciousness soon enough after the initial discomfort of not getting enough air. I suppose I won't be awake through the whole 10 minutes or however long it takes. One thing to note here is that medical journals suggests the same "burning" sensation of pain when vecuronium injection is being administered and same involuntary withdrawal of the arm. However if its vecuronium only and the dosage is 60mg/30ml, its not that much maybe I can manage with a syringe and large needle or something like 18g cannula, it should take around 20 seconds to deliver the whole 30ml solution. Also if I'm not mistaken, even a low dosage of 20mg, it should be sufficient enough for diaphragm paralysis but I'm just going with a stronger dosage cuz why not. As for the discomfort before losing consciousness, maybe I can deal with it. I mean there's already the part of "burning" sensation of pain while the drug is injected. I'm not sure how to deal with this burning sensation part.
I've thought about taking a small dosage (not sure how much) of oral or intravenous thiopental and SN but then I feel like it only adds another thing that I may vomit or if intravenous thiopental, vomit while being unconscious maybe idk. Not travenous thiopental is really fast and the likelyhood of being unconscious before the drink maybe quite high.
Perhaps something similar can also be considered with small dosage of oral of intravenous thiopental and after a little bit (maybe a min with saline flush if taking intravenous route of administration for thiopental) vecuronium can be administered. For oral thiopental, I couldn't find any information regarding how oral thiopental interacts with vecuronium and there's risk of precipitation somehow. This also has the same level of uncertainty where thiopental being really fast, falling unconscious before the administration of vecuronium is a possibility.
I know some methods maybe considered horrible to some people. However almost every method involves some pain, panic, discomfort, physical or mental distress. How one perceives such conditions are largely subjective to individuals. Given the information above what would you choose?
I'm having doubts cuz of inacurate research data and complications which makes it difficult for me to choose one over the other.
I know I've to choose this myself but I just thought to ask what another person would do given the same information and access to things.
I have SN 100g and all necessary pills to go with it except benzos (I tried getting benzos with no luck but I might try again)
I have thiopental 30g and anti-emetics. Can go both oral or IV route (still have to test cannula setup and run some trials with IV)
I have vecuronium bromide 60mg. (this isn't that well know ctb method. its used in lethtal injections, euthnesia along with anesthetic such as thiopental. Also used in surgeries to paralyze patients for the duration)
SN
48 hour fasting and anti-emetic regime or 3x10mg metocloprmide and 8mg ondansetron 40 minutes before
esomeptizole 80mg (same time as meto)
propranolol 400mg to potentiate (probably same time as meto)
diazepam or lorazepam (don't have but I can try to acquire them, idk if I'll be successful)
25g SN in 50ml water
Possibly have another 25g SN in 50ml water prepared as a backup drink
I'm scared of vomiting as its said way too many times in online documents and also here that regardless of anti-emetics the chances of vomiting are 50%. After vomiting, some suggests to abort, while there's another suggestion of taking another drink. I think if one vomits after taking SN, the drugs taken before, maybe they vomit those out too and then taking another drink of SN might make things painful or unpredictable to say the least. Stopping after vomiting could still complicate things where one maybe in so much pain or other physical or mental conditions requiring a visit to hospital. I for one would like to avoid hospitals as if its a plague (I've bad memories from failed attempts using another method). Even after all of that SN does sound promising to me considering the SN itself is reliable however the vomiting and complications which may arise following vomiting scares me and puts me in doubt. Also not having benzos is something to consider but I guess it can be done without. I would if one could vomit while being asleep under the effect of benzos and that would complicate things. I'm concerned about the vomiting part and complications associated with it.
Thiopental
Oral (probably won't go for oral route this time around)
3x10mg metocloprmide 40 minutes before
1-3g phenytoin sodium mixed with thiopental drink
30g thiopental in 150ml water
IV route (if cannula works without complications)
3x10mg metocloprmide 40 minutes before (maybe or not)
1-3g phenytoin sodium mixed with thiopental in the IV solution (maybe or not)
30g thiopental mixed in 150ml 0.9% Sodium Chloride/NS/normal saline
I've tried oral theoptal of almost 20g before with 48 hour fasting and anti-emetic regime and I was found around 8 hours later. No idea what went wrong but somehow I'm still here. This time I've 30g and probably can get more. I'm thinking to try intravenous route this time given that I manage to learn to setup the cannula properly or get a cannula from a hospital with a fake excuse, which is doubtful. If I manage to get the cannula going there's still the matter the cannula itself getting dislodged or IV tubing getting blocked by involuntary physical movements while unconscious. I've read a few online articles which suggests that there's intense pain involved with thiopental injection which some patients described as "burning sensation" and there's reports of involuntary withdrawal movements of the arm where the cannula is located. Itss also said there's chances of involuntary muscle movements while one is unconscious. I fear this could happen and complicate things where maybe the IV tubing gets blocked while half the solution still is in the IV bag or maybe the cannula gets dislodged and the fluid isn't being delivered. Fear of failure with oral route cuz of bad previous experience and IV route with its complications of burning pain sensations, possible cannula and tubing sensations scares me. It sounds like a good method provided everything works but the complications worries me.
Vecuronium Bromide
vecuronium bromide 60mg mixed in 30ml 0.9% Sodium Chloride/NS/normal saline
Vecuronium paralyzes a person, full body paralysis. The way this works is by paralysis of whole body including diaphragm. With diaphragm paralysis breathing is suspended or gets the point of almost nonexistent. In surgeries patients are put into ventilation when vecuronium is induced. In this method one suffocates to death. Suffocation/asphyxiation takes around 10 minutes for an average person do die. In lethal injection protocols usually 20mg vecuronium is given after induction of anesthetic agents so one is unconscious when they receive the paralytic agent followed by another substance which disables the heart. Doing all 3 steps without proper equipment by oneself is almost impossible so I thought to try vecuronium and thiopental. The problem here is that they can't be mixed as it causes precipitation (simply put if that happens either one or both drugs might be ineffective and/or may result in further complications). Both of these drugs given at at clinically suggested dosage would still put one to sleep or paralysis in a sort period of time depending on which is administered first. If thiopental is administered first then there's a high chance of one falling unconscious before vecuronium or if vecuronium is administered first then one might get paralyzed before administration of thiopental. Also its suggested in a number of medical guidelines to flush the IV lines/cannula with saline solution to avoid precipitation. There's also suggestion of injecting each drug in a different arm followed by saline flush to avoid precipitation. So the risk of precipitation is there and it should be given priority. That made me think vecuronium by itself should work as a single drug solution as it results in paralysis of diaphragm which will result in asphyxiation. During suffocation first stage is body craving air, next is feeling discomfort because of the lack of air followed by apnea but maybe its irrelevant as diaphragm is already paralyzed and therefore breathing has already stopped followed by increased heart rate, vasoconstriction, increased respiratory rate, Cerebral ischemia, Cardiac failure, etc., ultimately leading to death. One good thing about asphyxiation is that one should lose consciousness soon enough after the initial discomfort of not getting enough air. I suppose I won't be awake through the whole 10 minutes or however long it takes. One thing to note here is that medical journals suggests the same "burning" sensation of pain when vecuronium injection is being administered and same involuntary withdrawal of the arm. However if its vecuronium only and the dosage is 60mg/30ml, its not that much maybe I can manage with a syringe and large needle or something like 18g cannula, it should take around 20 seconds to deliver the whole 30ml solution. Also if I'm not mistaken, even a low dosage of 20mg, it should be sufficient enough for diaphragm paralysis but I'm just going with a stronger dosage cuz why not. As for the discomfort before losing consciousness, maybe I can deal with it. I mean there's already the part of "burning" sensation of pain while the drug is injected. I'm not sure how to deal with this burning sensation part.
I've thought about taking a small dosage (not sure how much) of oral or intravenous thiopental and SN but then I feel like it only adds another thing that I may vomit or if intravenous thiopental, vomit while being unconscious maybe idk. Not travenous thiopental is really fast and the likelyhood of being unconscious before the drink maybe quite high.
Perhaps something similar can also be considered with small dosage of oral of intravenous thiopental and after a little bit (maybe a min with saline flush if taking intravenous route of administration for thiopental) vecuronium can be administered. For oral thiopental, I couldn't find any information regarding how oral thiopental interacts with vecuronium and there's risk of precipitation somehow. This also has the same level of uncertainty where thiopental being really fast, falling unconscious before the administration of vecuronium is a possibility.
I know some methods maybe considered horrible to some people. However almost every method involves some pain, panic, discomfort, physical or mental distress. How one perceives such conditions are largely subjective to individuals. Given the information above what would you choose?