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Would you

  • End your life where it is

    Votes: 39 53.4%
  • Rewind back to a certain point

    Votes: 24 32.9%
  • Restart from the beginning

    Votes: 10 13.7%

  • Total voters
    73
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yellow rose

Member
Apr 24, 2026
28
If you had the option to end it all now, rewind back to a certain point, or start life all over again, which would you choose?
 
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froggirl9000

froggirl9000

9,000,000 LIVE FROGS
Feb 4, 2023
1,877
I think I'd rewind back to a certain point, provided I could retain my memories and thus knew what not to do. The only better option would be the choice to have a new life entirely.
 
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FoolsExpedition

FoolsExpedition

I Still Don't Know Where Everything Went
Nov 24, 2018
78
i'd start life over if i could be someone else entirely but if not when rewinding to a certain point if it meant i had the oppertunity to change how everthing went
 
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yellow rose

Member
Apr 24, 2026
28
I'm not convinced rewinding it would change much, I'm still me.
 
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if_i_make_it

if_i_make_it

Member
Apr 30, 2026
99
Theres mistakes I wish I hadn't made but given my chronic illness I think my life would end up the same… no way to change it.
 
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Malfunction

Malfunction

Experienced
Jul 27, 2024
222
I chose to end it where it is.

Unless I could retain memory or change anything, I'd see no point in going back as I would just end up here again. I really wouldn't want to relive my life.

If I could go back and correct a mistake or course of action, then I'd certainly choose that.
 
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insectontrial

insectontrial

Student
Jan 29, 2026
130
Start from the beginning with different parents and a neurotypical brain, if that's an option.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,549
All I want is to permanently cease existing, I just want to erase this dreadful, torturous and cruel existence I just always saw as the most terrible mistake so it's like I never suffered at all, no matter what I'd just never wish for something as torturous, evil and harmful as existence that just tortures existing beings with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and the suffering and torture of existing is endless.

It truly is an abomination to be conscious burdened with this terrible, torturous existence that just causes harm and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I'll just always see it as so dreadful to suffer in this existence and it's so horrible to me how the torture of existing can continue for decades longer just for one to face the terrible extreme agony of old age, I'd never wish to exist and no matter what this existence of torturous suffering should never be imposed.
 
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yellow rose

Member
Apr 24, 2026
28
All I want is to permanently cease existing, I just want to erase this dreadful, torturous and cruel existence I just always saw as the most terrible mistake so it's like I never suffered at all, no matter what I'd just never wish for something as torturous, evil and harmful as existence that just tortures existing beings with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and the suffering and torture of existing is endless.

It truly is an abomination to be conscious burdened with this terrible, torturous existence that just causes harm and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I'll just always see it as so dreadful to suffer in this existence and it's so horrible to me how the torture of existing can continue for decades longer just for one to face the terrible extreme agony of old age, I'd never wish to exist and no matter what this existence of torturous suffering should never be imposed.
I hope we both find the peace we seek
 
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Mio_Kamimachi

Mio_Kamimachi

Too pale to bleed. Too drained to care.
May 4, 2026
81
Out of those options, going back a few years, i guess. Idk if it would change anything and i might just end up here again. But maybe i could just find a boyfriend or some guy willing to take me in long term? Somebody nice and kind. I could get a part-time job at a convenience store or something. Work towards becoming a librarian and work in a cozy, old-fashioned bookstore where the world moves a bit slower. That would have been nice.
 
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endboss

endboss

Student
Apr 8, 2026
140
If you had the option to end it all now, rewind back to a certain point, or start life all over again, which would you choose?
start all over!
 
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Dovahki11n

Dovahki11n

Member
Apr 29, 2026
8
If you had the option to end it all now, rewind back to a certain point, or start life all over again, which would you choose?
I'd like to start all over but I want to be born in another city with good parents and supportive environment.
 
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Spite

Spite

I don't like this world.
Aug 20, 2025
471
I think I'd want to rewind back to a certain point. That is what I would want most of all. It would be ideal if I could retain all my memories and knowledge and get a second chance to do things right. I'd probably go back in time to 2011, when I started high school. I'd try my best to not repeat the same mistakes, try to say and do the right things and not be totally antisocial and weird. Hopefully that way I could actually make friends, study hard, set myself up for success and accomplish more things. Something that weighs me down a lot today is thinking about how much time I wasted when I was younger, doing the wrong things and failing to accomplish much of anything.
 
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ih34rty0u

ih34rty0u

ā€ži should resist, this is going to kill meā€¦ā€
Apr 16, 2024
108
rewind back to the beginning of high school, 2020
 
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wishmaster9

wishmaster9

Member
Mar 25, 2024
21
For me the best option is to end things where they are.
Rewinding back or restarting wouldn't change anything for me if I'd get stuck with the same abusive family again.
 
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morina

morina

Member
Apr 11, 2026
76
Neither rewinding nor restarting can change my chromosomes or what's wrong with my brain chemistry. I didn't become this way, I always was, so no knowledge or avoiding bad choices could make my life livable.
 
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Catchthebusnow

Member
Mar 20, 2026
54
Rewind to before I took psych meds :/
 
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chaoschuckler

chaoschuckler

CTB on 11th May Hopefully šŸ–¤
Feb 4, 2026
127
Rewind back to 2020 with my current knowledge . COVID created an environment that fucked me
 
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Matchaaa

Matchaaa

pragmatics errors can kill me
Dec 10, 2025
355
If I could choose the circumstances of my birth, I would be willing to start all over again. But if starting over meant being born into the same circumstances as before, I would prefer a peaceful death.
 
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xvxmvx75

xvxmvx75

Member
Apr 16, 2026
8
I think ending it all now is still the option I'd go for, I had some really great times that I wouldn't like to forget
 
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Mattew

Member
May 3, 2026
14
I really don t want to do this shit again, even if i can cancel my mistakes. I want peace.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,376
End it not reset
 
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