Which deceased Sanctioned Suicide member impacted you the most

[Gangrel]

@LetzteAusfahrt

In Memory of Dani (1968-2020)

Dear friends, I wanted to take a moment to remember a cherished member of our forum, Dani, from Switzerland. He sadly passed away on October 10th, 2020, after a long battle with mental health struggles. His story touched many of us, and I think it's important to keep his memory alive, as a...

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[Frozen Blood]

I can't remember her user. It was in March 2024, in the very first time I encountered this site. Her goodbye thread was created hours before and, as a lurker, watched as she posted her last messages.

It made me very sad and I wish she didn't do it, because she started to regret when it was too late. I think of her often, even never knowing her.

 

[greebo6]

There was one person. I don't know if she did actually ctb but I suspect she eventually did. She was a lovely person. If she really is gone I hope she found peace.

 

[an alien]

@hi-okbye, Lra. She was such a beautiful soul. You could feel it in her words, you could see it in her art, she was kind person and it was shown in every interaction I ever saw her have here. She was so broken after losing her partner and just wanted to be free of pain to be with him again. I've never been one to believe in much of an afterlife but I like to think the first thing she experienced on the other side was his warm embrace once again. May she rest in peace.

As well as @NoOneLovesMiMi/@Mi Mi. She was incredible. She put incredible words to her struggle, hell she put incredible words to the struggle of so many. Despite her pain when she would speak positively or laugh at something in her youtube videos she could absolutely light up a room. She was a bright bright light that had been dimmed by the hell world she had to deal with. Most heartbreakingly is with enough poking around you can find her obituary and its so obvious she was so deeply deeply loved and cherished by those around her but that's not always enough. May she rest in peace.

And may the family of friends of both of these beautiful souls find peace after their passing and the focus on the moments of joy they got to share with them before everything became too much.

ETA: @venin and all his usernames. Wow what an amazing soul he was. On and SS it was obvious how much he cared for those around him. He hated that anyone around him was also hurting and would go out of his way to speak kindly. He will live on forever as the creator of a recovery thread still going on to this day. He so deeply wanted others to feel better but could never get that for himself and I hope he's found the peace his dear sour deserved.

 

[Hojag]

Hysteria. Didn't know much, I'm new here, but I saw the thread just a little hours after.

I don't know, just think "what if I had awaken earlier that day?", though we can't change what's done.

Wish you peace.

 

[Amarajoy]

@LetzteAusfahrt

In Memory of Dani (1968-2020)

Dear friends, I wanted to take a moment to remember a cherished member of our forum, Dani, from Switzerland. He sadly passed away on October 10th, 2020, after a long battle with mental health struggles. His story touched many of us, and I think it's important to keep his memory alive, as a...

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Does he have a goodbye thread on here?

 

[SNastablesalt]

Vizzy, his posts not only informational, but because reading his posts impacted me when I first came back to the forum after taking a break (June 2023) I'm not sure entirely why but it was the rawness I felt while reading his stuff that stuck with me. I hope he forever rests in peace

agreed, miss him bad

 

[Fate]

Does he have a goodbye thread on here?

Yes. https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/goodbye-thread-today-10-00-pm-utc-2.50562/

 

[Amarajoy]

Yes. https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/goodbye-thread-today-10-00-pm-utc-2.50562/

Thank you. Do you know if he succumbed to the sn or had to use the alternative method?


He said his ctb would be documented. Do you know if there is a link to that?

Fascinating, beautiful creature.

 

[justcallmeJ]

@LonelyKitten @venin @heavyeyes
I still think about them a lot

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

On the day I joined, @seasons4changing announced casually that she will ctb the coming weekend. Her acceptance of where she found herself came across as almost natural and she was so sure, her plan so simple yet well thought out. At first, I felt panic for her, this being my first time to see a goodbye thread, but then I started to feel admiration for her courage in life, her journey and her decision. I guess she made me feel at ease about where I found myself, and with that came a deeper understanding of the path we find ourselves on.

 

[ConfusedClouds]

In a slightly different way to the above, @Ash impacted me big time. Just hearing her raw battles coming and going daily really felt tough to not be able to help in any way with. But she was also still here offering support to others when she could.

 

[billie]

@QueerMelancholy

 

[lamy2006]

@Wezzy777

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Coming back to this thread and reviewing my answer, I'd say that @Daxter_87 and @myusername890 have both impacted me.

I was in my early SS days when daxter was around and I remember him being so similar to me in a lot of ways. His views on a lot of things regarding life were so similar to mine and his personal struggles in life as well as his struggles in trying to ctb is so similar too. I wasn't really too close to him back then due to my anxiety but I wish that I was. I'd say that his impact on me has really started to come into play when his sister @mya_ made an account here to try and know more about him. It really goes to show at how difficult suicide is both for the individual and for the people who were close to the individual.

@myusername890 was a good friend to me on here as they understood a lot of my views but what scares me is that their final moments seemed a bit uncertain with regards to the timing of when they were online or not. I hope that they managed to ctb successfully and that they are free from the pain and struggles of life. Having that certainty that they are truly gone would put me in so much relief as they truly suffered immensely in life. Everyday I look at their profile to see when they were last online and hope that they don't come back due to having caught the bus successfully.