Which deceased Sanctioned Suicide member impacted you the most

[Nobodi]

@Octavia This is my first post ever on this site I snoop around here and there. Just reading along until I finally decided to make an account. The was this farewell letter from a user name Octavia it hurt reading it.

Farewell letter

Note: This post was sent using a scheduled time. It is probably that I am busy being dead, so I apologise if I cannot reply to anyone. Mods, please disable this account on the 18th of August if there is not any further activity. I must admit did not exactly expect my last words to number in the...

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[_AllCatsAreGrey_]

avaruus. May you be at peace Finnbro.

 

[XdragonsoulX]

Vizzy, his posts not only informational, but because reading his posts impacted me when I first came back to the forum after taking a break (June 2023) I'm not sure entirely why but it was the rawness I felt while reading his stuff that stuck with me. I hope he forever rests in peace

 

[Forever Sleep]

Lots of members have stayed in my thoughts. I likely won't name them all but:

GirlShappedWound. We PM'd a fair bit before she CTB a couple of years ago. I still think about her.

Another lady who left the site rather than CTB. We PM'd a fair bit too.

Also, another guy who just disappeared from the site. We PM'd a lot. I really don't know if he CTB, decided to leave the site or, if I offended him. That one was worse in a way- the not knowing.

Another member who CTB mainly because he couldn't handle the violent thoughts he was having towards others. I felt so bad for him. He'd had such a difficult life with abuse and it didn't sound like he had been helped by psychatric hospitals.

Also, other members that I didn't PM with but who's goodbye threads stayed with me. The first goodbye thread I ever came across was one. He had N. It felt so strange to think it was happening right now. He was so calm. There was another guy in some sort of sheltered housing that used SN. I felt a maybe weird sense of respect at how resourceful he was to both risk ordering SN to somewhere I'm sure they probably could intercept mail and to actually do it there. It made me feel like I had no excuse. He was so scared at the end but, he still did it.

Then, there are other members who I used to love reading their threads and 'seeing' them around the place where, I just don't know their fate. @ksp and @Ambivalent1 are two I haven't noticed in a while.

There are other members who are still with us and obviously, I'll respect their decision if they go but, I'll miss them a great deal.