Venting conflicted over fp

[gurowuro]

the person who i thought was my soulmate genuinely has ruined my life, has taken away everything about my being by traumatizing me, making fun of my hurt, belittling the situation and then cutting me off to avoid accountability, thats pretty much everything in a nutshell. theyre a horrible person and is currently living a lie they fabricated and people around her have no clue. she has expressed to me before hatred for most of her friends yet they know nothing about it. im sure her current bf isnt aware about how she was literally lovebombing me while dating him and how he was literally a side option who she was gonna drop if i complied with how much she wanted to control my life. she drove one of her ex's to suicide and bragged about how he used the method she told him about. shes done more, not only to me but to others but id be here all day listing everything and i just want to get shit off my chest for now. i probably will never expose her for any of this even though i have the text messages, recordings of our calls, and everything. and its because i care about her unfortunately, her whole life has been hard and now im seeing her smile with the lie she made. shes comfortable for once and she can for once feel like a normal girl after feeling excluded her whole life. i think thats why i havent done anything, i know itd ruin her current life and i dont want her to go through what im going through. sorry for the long post and possibly bad grammar, im balling my eyes out writing this. i just want an apology even if it changes nothing, a real heartfelt apology from her. i miss the loving, caring, understanding, compassionate person she used to be. i wonder if it was all an act just to lure me in and convince me to kill myself the way she convinced her ex to end his life aswell

 

[egyptian_baddie]

same, I genuinely hope he has a very sad life

 

[bl33ding_heart]

I'm so sorry you had to go through that. No one deserves to be treated so horribly by someone they love. I know what it feels like to love someone that isn't a good person, it hurts more than anything. Just know that you deserve so much better than what she put you through, and you shouldn't let anyone treat you like that no matter how much you love them. Because you deserve way better than that, and a relationship with someone that doesn't care about/wants to hurt you will never work out. As impossible as it may feel it is very possible to move forward and put all of this behind you. It won't be easy but you just have to believe in yourself. Good luck with whatever decisions you make for yourself and god bless.