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lameemo

lameemo

autism +cptsd
Aug 16, 2024
29
My dream place would be, id want to travel Asia first. Than make my way to Thailand, eat some of my favorite Thai food. Than make my way out to the country side over though and end it all, looking at the grass.

I think before I die, I'd buy all the children in whatever village I'm in snacks. Shit id buy everyone snacks, I want to see smiles before I go. I want people to look at me and see good before I go.
 
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charlieee

charlieee

Chronically online
Jun 3, 2026
19
My dream place would be, id want to travel Asia first. Than make my way to Thailand, eat some of my favorite Thai food. Than make my way out to the country side over though and end it all, looking at the grass.

I think before I die, I'd buy all the children in whatever village I'm in snacks. Shit id buy everyone snacks, I want to see smiles before I go. I want people to look at me and see good before I go.
Honestly the sea.
But not on a sunny day, on a cloudy (maybe rainy day), because I thrive in this kind of weather. I find it contorting and the sun burns my skin anyway.
The cold numbing my cheeks and my nose, my hair in the wind, the sound of the waves and no one around.
Just going into the sea slowly would be my dream.
(With some meds to deal with the pain and possible panic)

Thailand is really a beautiful place to ctb, the fact that your last action would be an act of generosity is very telling of what kind of person you are. Really nice :)
 
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Oiled Sandwich

Oiled Sandwich

Lazy Aspiring Demonolator
Jun 10, 2026
68
Sitting on a couch watching My Little Pony. Nothing fancy for me. Just fall asleep in the middle of an episode and finally be gone.
 
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groovygoober

groovygoober

Member
Apr 1, 2026
27
prolly like a beautiful valley with a river during spring or winter , a hillside or a snowy mountain just anything with overwhelming natural beauty that makes you not want to end it all .
 
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happy2die

happy2die

Student
Nov 5, 2025
102
in my bed watching my comfort show, comfortably warm, unknowingly falling asleep, and then passing.
I wrote something similar :) it's bittersweet knowing that all we want is to feel is calm in our last moments
Sitting on a couch watching My Little Pony. Nothing fancy for me. Just fall asleep in the middle of an episode and finally be gone.
 
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InfoToEndIt

InfoToEndIt

New Member
Sep 25, 2024
2
If it was totally up to me and it would have no affect on anyone, probably at the beach. Just relaxing, taking in the sun.

Realistically I've always said it would be somewhere where no one I lived would find me. I don't want to cause people more trauma than I already have.
 
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3rdworldsadness

3rdworldsadness

Can you ever stop the suffering?
Dec 22, 2024
230
In the ocean. But I live in plain side of the country
 
angelhopes

angelhopes

:)
Mar 15, 2026
92
I wanna do it in a lake nearby my house. I wanna make some last call to the people I love first then I wanna watch the sunset and Lastly ill ctb in my car using SN since I don't want my room to be a crime scene or something :) I wanna give away the items in my room.
 

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