Discussion When were you first introduced to the topic or idea of suicide?

[guineapiglover8503]

My first serious introduction to suicide was when I watched Control (a movie released in 2007 that is about the band Joy Division). It isn't a well known movie but I love it so much and the acting was phenominal

 

[ladylazarus4]

This is kind of dumb but my first recollection of hearing about suicide was from Dear Evan Hansen. I guess I was pretty oblivious for the first 10 years of my life lol

 

[darkenmydoorstep]

I was about six/seven and we drove past a house and my mum said "that's the house where he killed himself in the garage" and told me about a carbon monoxide death. I remember her saying he wouldn't have felt anything and that he'd been in a lot of debt. Was maybe 1980. Maybe why that's i always want to die that way, she described it so peacefully.

 

[lv-nii]

When I was about 10 years old?, I watched a lot of horror movies (especially psychological horror). I can't remember which was the first one that introduced me to those ideas, but I know I tried to watch more stories just to see why they did it. The same with video games that deal with these themes.

 

[ramon]

Honestly, I don't have a clear memory of how I got introduced to the concept of suicide.

Maybe by watching action movie characters getting stabbed and killed (no TV parental control systems available at that time) I figured I could do same to myself as I was seriously considering stabbing myself with a kitchen knife at around 6 years of age.

This kind of thinking was motivated by getting bullied by classmates and child neighbors, being yelled at by kindergarden and elementary school teachers, and getting hit (mostly with belts) by my parents.

 

[the_path_of_sorrows]

Back to 2013 I participated as a children's choir singer in Werther, opera by Massenet. Back the I was in my early teens and didn't understand Werther at all. I knew that it was a tragedy. The main soloist told me a few years ago that he had to see the therapist during rehearsals back then cos it was an insanely hard character to maintain without becoming it.

Nowadays I'm a fan of Werther. I understand his reasons to die way too well. It's been my comfort character for years.

 

[Ozzyno]

My first serious introduction to suicide was when I watched Control (a movie released in 2007 that is about the band Joy Division). It isn't a well known movie but I love it so much and the acting was phenominal

I don't remember when I was introduced to the idea of suicide but I know that I've said 'I want to kill my self' the first time when me and my ex broke up, I didn't mean it for real but that's the first time it came to mind and actually said it. Then I started to mean it when during the same year I moved and started living alone for the first time and I started thinking about it seriously.

 

[İnilerim]

Reading Goethe's Werther when I was 17, far away from home on student exchange, deeply in love with a taken girl.

 

[Emeralds]

A friend of mine killed herself when she was 15.

 

[trist_]

When I was 10 year old, I read a blog about the Aokigahara forest in Japan, I don't think wikipedia was available about it, at least in my languange. Although instead of the suicide theme, I was more attracted to the Japanese horror movies and folklore instead.

 

[Hotsackage]

Dance dance dance to the radio

 

[Reticent Being]

It's hard to pin point. For me, it was the cyberbullying incident with Amanda Todd, so I was around 12-13 years old.

Her YouTube video was promoted to me and other lot of middle school kids for some reason. I don't remember searching for it.

Then I listened to emo music, and a lot of them promoted the message "it gets better" over and over.

Another early memory of suicide, I remember seeing some there was anorexia stories of people who starved themselves to death.

 

[EternalLight]

I suppose it was when I was about 7 or 8 years old, and a relative of mine had done so somehow; he must have been in his twenties or something, but I don't remember him at all or how he went about it, possibly a car was involved. I just remember one day visiting his grave. I don't remember anyone ever explaining to me what it meant.

 

[sickgirlzis]

i wish I could pinpoint an exact moment, but i can't.
however, I used to watch a lot of horror movies when I was a kid, and besides the killing and jumpscares, wouldn't be surprised if there was some suicide in there too. I had like, unlimited internet access since I was really little, but when I was about 7-9 I started learning about a lot of stuff on the internet, like the lgbt community and mental health. i started to say I was depressed around those ages, (although I really wasn't, I was probably quite sad and traumatized though) and since then I think ive been obsessed with the idea of dying and how it would affect others around me. I remember I used to fake suicide with my online boyfriend when I was a tween, and I just got really bad from then on.

 

[princexhhn]

I'm not sure why, but I've been aware of the concept of suicide for as long as I can remember. I would recall fantasizing of suicide as a child, even.

 

[whatadom]

I think watching a TV show in the UK called casualty where a man had rigged his car up to die from CO poisoning.

No doubt there were other moments in movies where someone killed themselves so others or a group could survive. I didn't see "that" as suicide though, more a plot moving forward

 

[Forever Sleep]

Not sure exactly what age but, under 10. Likely from TV shows or films. I definitely remember an episode of Begerac (UK drama) where a person had been paralyzed. Weirdly though, when I saw the episode again, I'd remembered it all wrong. I'd got it into my head that a good friend of theirs was going to shoot them to spare them a life like that. I don't think that's what happened though. Again, I've pretty much forgotton! But, I suppose I was comfortable with assisted suicide at that point too.

Probably because there had already been a few natural deaths in my family by that point. When I wished them back, I was told how much pain they were in at the end. How- if we really loved them, we wouldn't want them to live like that. So- maybe that fed into it.

I don't actually ever remember being all that shocked or disapproving of suicide. Asides from being taught it was wrong and sinful, it made sense to me why people would want to do it.

 

[guineapiglover8503]

Not sure exactly what age but, under 10. Likely from TV shows or films. I definitely remember an episode of Begerac (UK drama) where a person had been paralyzed. Weirdly though, when I saw the episode again, I'd remembered it all wrong. I'd got it into my head that a good friend of theirs was going to shoot them to spare them a life like that. I don't think that's what happened though. Again, I've pretty much forgotton! But, I suppose I was comfortable with assisted suicide at that point too.

Probably because there had already been a few natural deaths in my family by that point. When I wished them back, I was told how much pain they were in at the end. How- if we really loved them, we wouldn't want them to live like that. So- maybe that fed into it.

I don't actually ever remember being all that shocked or disapproving of suicide. Asides from being taught it was wrong and sinful, it made sense to me why people would want to do it.

death with dignity is such an interesting discussion in medical settings. I personally believe it to be a good thing if done right