Havnis

Havnis

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May 15, 2024
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Showing your real skin by posting rape/gore porn on a suicide forum where many of the members on here have past sexual trauma?
No, that photo was just a representation or my guess of her deepest secret based on my previous knowledge, I personally don't tend to target or harm anyone here, tbh, I don't really show my real skin here anymore, Even if I did, I would not target people personally unless they offended me. Last time I was minding my own business and expressing myself, I got this. They lied I never targeted users of this forum.
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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

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No, that photo was just a representation or my guess of her deepest secret based on my previous knowledge, I personally don't tend to target or harm anyone here, tbh, I don't really show my real skin here anymore, Even if I did, I would not target people personally unless they offended me. Last time I was minding my own business and expressing myself, I got this. They lied I never targeted users of this forum.
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The photo was inappropriate and uncalled for. I also have no clue as to why you are talking about targeting people when the point is that what you did was inconsiderate to both the OP and other users on here.
 
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Havnis

Havnis

XXXX'ed out 🌲🌲🌲🌲
May 15, 2024
167
No, that photo was just a representation or my guess of her deepest secret based on my previous knowledge, I personally don't tend to target or harm anyone here, tbh, I don't really show my real skin here anymore, Even if I did, I would not target people personally unless they offended me. Last time I was minding my own business and expressing myself, I got this. They lied I never targeted users of this forum.
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Sorry I have to post this, it's urge 😂
 
EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

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Oh she's an interesting person, but not secretly, at least not to this site.
Yeah, I agree. She doesn't have "super mysterious filled to the brim with secrets" vibes to her. She comes off as very open and honest about her views, but then again, we can only base this on the image she presents online. For all we know, she might have a lot of secrets despite how she comes off.
 
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Havnis

Havnis

XXXX'ed out 🌲🌲🌲🌲
May 15, 2024
167
The photo was inappropriate and uncalled for. I also have no clue as to why you are talking about targeting people when the point is that what you did was inconsiderate to both the OP and other users on here.
I think the photo is incomparable to what they went through anyway. I DIDN'T INTEND TO HURT ANYONE BY IT, BECAUSE WHY WOULD I? If you think they got hurt by it then you don't understand what "hurt" means.
 
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I think the photo is incomparable to what they went through anyway. I DIDN'T INTEND TO HURT ANYONE BY IT, BECAUSE WHY WOULD I? If you think they got hurt by it then you don't understand what "hurt" means.
Whatever dude. How about we just agree that you shouldn't post vile shit like that on here?
 
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I never did
You literally did. Just because you or one of the mods deleted it doesn't mean it didn't happen. I literally replied to the post where you posted that image, so we know that it existed.
 
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Dot

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No, that photo was just a representation or my guess of her deepest secret based on my previous knowledge, I personally don't tend to target or harm anyone here, tbh, I don't really show my real skin here anymore, Even if I did, I would not target people personally unless they offended me. Last time I was minding my own business and expressing myself, I got this. They lied I never targeted users of this forum.
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Sober4MostDays

Sober4MostDays

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That I'm addicted to pr0n and have developed fetishes that make me feel like the most pathetic creature on earth. They don't hurt anyone else I should say they're just designed to hurt and humiliate me as much as possible psychologically it seems. It's very fucked especially as a man I feel. Think it stems from my very deeply rooted inferiority complex and seeing my parents very toxic relationship as a kid.
 
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That I'm addicted to pr0n and have developed fetishes that make me feel like the most pathetic creature on earth.
Do you mean fetishes, or just kinks? A lot of people use the terms interchangeably but a fetishes specifically refers to something that you need in order to become aroused, while a kink can just refer to an unusual sexual preference. All fetishes are kinks but not all kinks are fetishes. At least, that's my understanding on the matter.

For example, if you have a leather kink, then you feel aroused by people wearing leather, but you can still feel aroused without it. It just enhances sexual arousal. A leather fetish, on the other hand, would mean that you require leather in order to get aroused. Honestly, this site explains much better than me.

I'm mostly just asking out of curiosity. If they are fetishes, then do you need all of them to get aroused, or does at least one of them need to be there in order for you to reach a point of sexual arousal? You dont have to answer if this is too invasive. I, for one, am a complete degenerate with several kinks (some of which actually make me feel kind of disgusted with myself), but I don't have any fetishes. Don't know where some of them come from, meanwhile others come from me reading too much fanfic and doujinshis.
 
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Do you mean fetishes, or just kinks? A lot of people use the terms interchangeably but a fetishes specifically refers to something that you need in order to become aroused, while a kink can just refer to an unusual sexual preference. All fetishes are kinks but not all kinks are fetishes. At least, that's my understanding on the matter.

For example, if you have a leather kink, then you feel aroused by people wearing leather, but you can still feel aroused without it. It just enhances sexual arousal. A leather fetish, on the other hand, would mean that you require leather in order to get aroused. Honestly, this site explains much better than me.

I'm mostly just asking out of curiosity. If they are fetishes, then do you need all of them to get aroused, or does at least one of them need to be there in order for you to reach a point of sexual arousal? You dont have to answer if this is too invasive. I, for one, am a complete degenerate with several kinks (some of which actually make me feel kind of disgusted with myself), but I don't have any fetishes. Don't know where some of them come from, meanwhile others come from me reading too much fanfic and doujinshis.
I guess I wouldn't say I need them to get aroused. I could still get off to more vanilla fantasies, but it doesn't have the same edge to it that I think my brain is really addicted to so I pretty much never do that even though I think that'd make me feel so much better about myself.
 
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I guess I wouldn't say I need them to get aroused. I could still get off to more vanilla fantasies, but it doesn't have the same edge to it that I think my brain is really addicted to so I pretty much never do that even though I think that'd make me feel so much better about myself.
Sounds like you just have some kinks to me, since all they do is just enhance your arousal. Kinks are normal and a lot of people have them.
 
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Sounds like you just have some kinks to me, since all they do is just enhance your arousal. Kinks are normal and a lot of people have them.
What gets to me is how much they go against what I actually want and value in the real world. My therapist tried telling me that's kind of the point of fantasies, but my mind really wants my fantasies to line up with what I actually want deep down. It creates this pretty wild cognitive dissonance I think.
 
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What gets to me is how much they go against what I actually want and value in the real world. My therapist tried telling me that's kind of the point of fantasies, but my mind really wants my fantasies to line up with what I actually want deep down. It creates this pretty wild cognitive dissonance I think.
Well, the boundaries we have when it comes to our fantasies aren't necessarily reflective of the boundaries we have irl. I think a good example of this post I saw from tumblr. I can't find it at the moment, but it was talking about how they like reading BDSM type stuff (if I remember correctly), but they also don't like doing that type of stuff in real life. The main point they were trying to make is that the boundaries we have with things, from our tastes in fiction to our fantasies, are not inherently reflective of the boundaries we have in real life. Just as how you wouldn't assume that someone who likes slasher films must be into violence irl, your sexual fantasies aren't a reflection of your real life boundaries.

The great thing about our fantasies is that they give us room to explore things and process our feelings, including past trauma. So long as you aren't harming or plan on harming others then it is fine to have those fantasies. Most peoples fantasies don't completely line up with their what they believe deep down inside of them and that's nothing to feel ashamed about.
 
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Well, the boundaries we have when it comes to our fantasies aren't necessarily reflective of the boundaries we have irl. I think a good example of this post I saw from tumblr. I can't find it at the moment, but it was talking about how they like reading BDSM type stuff (if I remember correctly), but they also don't like doing that type of stuff in real life. The main point they were trying to make is that the boundaries we have with things, from our tastes in fiction to our fantasies, are not inherently reflective of the boundaries we have in real life. Just as how you wouldn't assume that someone who likes slasher films must be into violence irl, your sexual fantasies aren't a reflection of your real life boundaries.

The great thing about our fantasies is that they give us room to explore things and process our feelings, including past trauma. So long as you aren't harming or plan on harming others then it is fine to have those fantasies. Most peoples fantasies don't completely line up with their what they believe deep down inside of them and that's nothing to feel ashamed about.
I think you're absolutely right and if I accepted that it would probably be a very good step forward for me mentally to get out of this rut that I've been in for over a decade now with pr0n. Who knows maybe it'd even make the unwanted kinks and fantasies have less pull to them if I stopped beating myself up over them and feeling inferior and ashamed for having them which just feeds more into the viscous cycle of getting off to feeling inferior and then feeling more inferior and ashamed for doing that and then getting off to feeling inferior again to cope with the pain of it all etc. I've got to interrupt the process somewhere.
 
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enough of this

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I'm never revealing that to ANYONE. Even the people who say they're non-judgemental will take that information and use it against you. I've had enough betrayal to last me a THOUSAND lifetimes. No more.
 
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i'm so scared, that is my darkest secret. i am so scared of everything. everything i do is an act. i am a coward, and i don't want people to see that i truly am weak.
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
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I do like the angle that your deepest, darkest secret is a lie you've told here, or something that would be hypocritical to the ideals you espouse.
I'm starting to think that her biggest secret is somewhere along this line or at least uses this premise. If I were to guess (since she asked people to guess), I'd say that she isn't actually an antinatalist. Most people who claim to be antinatalists aren't actually antinatalists. I feel like she would secretly procreate if it benefitted her in some way. Of course I'm just speculating but this is my guess. I think that the only real and true antinatalists on this site that I know of are @FuneralCry and @pthnrdnojvsc
 
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I'm starting to think that her biggest secret is somewhere along this line or at least uses this premise. If I were to guess (since she asked people to guess), I'd say that she isn't actually an antinatalist. Most people who claim to be antinatalists aren't actually antinatalists. I feel like she would secretly procreate if it benefitted her in some way. Of course I'm just speculating but this is my guess. I think that the only real and true antinatalists on this site that I know of are @FuneralCry and @pthnrdnojvsc
I like that guess. She's antinatalist because right now she sees having a baby as a burden, but not out of consideration for the baby, which - as you say - would mean she isn't really "antinatalist."
 
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I like that guess. She's antinatalist because right now she sees having a baby as a burden, but not out of consideration for the baby, which - as you say - would mean she isn't really "antinatalist."
I agree. She hates responsibilities and therefore she would hate having a child but would give birth to one if she wanted to. If she were to have a child, she would most likely give it up for adoption or give it to her mum to raise the baby or do something else to get rid of it. She wouldn't raise it herself as she doesn't like responsibilities at all though she'd definitely give birth to one. She had expressed on this site that she has baby fever towards a certain... ex SaSu member.

Many people who say that having kids are immoral would have one themselves if it benefitted them in some way; she definitely is no exception to that. I've noticed that many people who have claimed to be antinatalists are just frustrated at their own life being shitty and so they try and put it in a philosophy instead of agreeing upon the actual philosophy itself... she seems like one of those types of people to me. She always has ever since I joined this site and saw her posts
 
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I agree. She hates responsibilities and therefore she would hate having a child but would give birth to one if she wanted to. If she were to have a child, she would most likely give it up for adoption or give it to her mum to raise the baby or do something else to get rid of it. She wouldn't raise it herself as she doesn't like responsibilities at all though she'd definitely give birth to one. She had expressed on this site that she has baby fever towards a certain... ex SaSu member.

Many people who say that having kids are immoral would have one themselves if it benefitted them in some way; she definitely is no exception to that. I've noticed that many people who have claimed to be antinatalists are just frustrated at their own life being shitty and so they try and put it in a philosophy instead of agreeing upon the actual philosophy itself... she seems like one of those types of people to me. She always has ever since I joined this site and saw her posts
Agreed except about her not raising the child. I think you might be right, but I also think if she had a kid she might make the kid her whole world: 'my kid is the best', etc. Even if she absolutely wouldn't right now, I think that's a possibility. It would challenge her entire belief system, right? Right now, "NEET is fine because work is slavery forced on me and my parents forced me to be alive," but once that kid is there and vulnerable because of her actions, we'd see how consistent she is. Of course, she may come up with a new excuse not to take care of it, but I continue to believe in her for whatever reason.

Yeah, I've seen the posts about that member. I never know what's going on behind the scenes as far as who knows who and are talking outside this platform, but it makes sense, right? She had a massive idealized crush on someone IRL, then when it didn't work out she transferred the fixation to someone on here who - as far as I know - she never even met. Makes me think even more she might attach strongly to a child if she had one.
 
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Agreed except about her not raising the child. I think you might be right, but I also think if she had a kid she might make the kid her whole world: 'my kid is the best', etc. Even if she absolutely wouldn't right now, I think that's a possibility. It would challenge her entire belief system, right? Right now, "NEET is fine because work is slavery forced on me and my parents forced me to be alive," but once that kid is there and vulnerable because of her actions, we'd see how consistent she is. Of course, she may come up with a new excuse not to take care of it, but I continue to believe in her for whatever reason.
Wouldn't her making her kid the "whole world" be contradictory of her personality where she wants less responsibilities and an easy life? I definitely think that she isn't holding any secrets or hypocrisy behind her lack of desire for responsibility
Yeah, I've seen the posts about that member. I never know what's going on behind the scenes as far as who knows who and are talking outside this platform, but it makes sense, right? She had a massive idealized crush on someone IRL, then when it didn't work out she transferred the fixation to someone on here who - as far as I know - she never even met. Makes me think even more she might attach strongly to a child if she had one.
She seems to get impacted massively by those who she likes. She made numerous threads about her irl crush that your post is referring to once her irl crush stopped talking to her. She then made much more numerous threads about that ex SaSu member. I feel like she doesn't care about most people but, the ones who she gets attracted to, she cares about them and even gets overly sensitive about them.

I have a controversial belief regarding your last sentence. My controversial belief is that your last sentence could be true but only if the baby turns out to be a white asian. She has an obsession with white people and I'm sure everybody on this site knows that by now
 
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Dr Iron Arc

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None of this stuff being discussed about sserafim seems like a secret either. Seems pretty obvious. 😅
 
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Wouldn't her making her kid the "whole world" be contradictory of her personality where she wants less responsibilities and an easy life? I definitely think that she isn't holding any secrets or hypocrisy behind her lack of desire for responsibility

See, this is where I just see her differently, I guess. Like I said, I believe in her. I think she has suffered real trauma causing her failure to launch and shuns "responsibilities" that she - arguably rightfully - sees as bullshit. I think there is a real psychological block there on what is seen as being forced and unfair. (again, rightfully so considering the trauma.) I also think if she got passionate about something she'd be able to really dive into it, even if it required a degree of work. I guess I'd say in my scenario (just speculating a possibility) she would see caring for her special child as her passion rather than a forced-upon responsibility.

She seems to get impacted massively by those who she likes. She made numerous threads about her irl crush that your post is referring to once her irl crush stopped talking to her. She then made much more numerous threads about that ex SaSu member. I feel like she doesn't care about most people but, the ones who she gets attracted to, she cares about them and even gets overly sensitive about them.

For sure. You should put the bit about her caring about another human in spoilers though so she doesn't have to see it. jk.

I have a controversial belief regarding your last sentence. My controversial belief is that your last sentence could be true but only if the baby turns out to be a white asian. She has an obsession with white people and I'm sure everybody on this site knows that by now

¯\_(ツ)_/¯ probably right. Different strokes. I can't criticize as someone in a WMAF relationship.
None of this stuff being discussed about sserafim seems like a secret either. Seems pretty obvious. 😅
lol well why don't you guess a deep dark secret of hers, then?
 
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ijustwishtodie

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None of this stuff being discussed about sserafim seems like a secret either. Seems pretty obvious. 😅
I don't think that my antinatalist related guess about her seemed obvious. The rest is obvious if you've seen a lot of her posts but chances are that some people missed the posts that me and @derpyderpins are referring to
See, this is where I just see her differently, I guess. Like I said, I believe in her. I think she has suffered real trauma causing her failure to launch and shuns "responsibilities" that she - arguably rightfully - sees as bullshit. I think there is a real psychological block there on what is seen as being forced and unfair. (again, rightfully so considering the trauma.) I also think if she got passionate about something she'd be able to really dive into it, even if it required a degree of work. I guess I'd say in my scenario (just speculating a possibility) she would see caring for her special child as her passion rather than a forced-upon responsibility.
Time will tell as for what she does
For sure. You should put the bit about her caring about another human in spoilers though so she doesn't have to see it. jk.
She wouldn't mind as she openly stated many times that she hates humanity overall. She'd probably even agree with me. Though I will admit that she does have some empathy for others as she does try to not offend people. She does little things here and there to make people not feel hurt such as how she censors certain trigger words and adds TW spoiler tags. Overall though, she hates humanity throughout
 
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She wouldn't mind as she openly stated many times that she hates humanity overall. She's probably even agree with me. Though I will admit that she does have some empathy for others as she does try to not offend people. She does little things here and there to make people not feel hurt such as how she censors certain trigger words and adds TW spoiler tags. Overall though, she hates humanity throughout
I'd word it as: she hates people, but cares about persons.
 
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