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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
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I kin the bjork stalker, I think I am a lot like him except he's a lot smarter than me and more talented than me and he had the balls to do what he did and create a beautiful video diary about it.

So uh yeah

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Wasn't he also racist? If so, then that's just another layer of concern to be had with this shit...
 
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derpyderpins

derpyderpins

I was wrong
Sep 19, 2023
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Yeah, I'm definitely full of it and I'm not even sure to what extent they believe me but I just find it odd how open some of my friends are about discussing what turns them on when I'd rather keep it private or at least only tell it to people who I know don't actually know me.


I know it's not that bad, but I guess it leans more on the deeper side of the scale of secrets than the darker ones for me. I would never confess this to anyone I actually know that's for sure. 😅
I think you misunderstood. I don't think you're full of it. I respect you for discussing that topic. I also hate discussing my preferences with my guy friends. (Don't get me started on the concept of strip clubs.) I meant that guys who try to act like the urge to masturbate was never a problem for them - or that it is shameful to do/talk about - is probably lying.
 
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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
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He also tried to give a pop star acid burns as if I'm going to do that.
Well, I mean you did say you kin him and that you think you are a lot like him...
 
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ImTelling

ImTelling

Sad Doggo
May 27, 2024
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Well, I mean you did say you kin him and that you think you are a lot like him...
Look man, just because I say I kin him and I'm exactly like him doesn't mean that I want to send acid bombs to pop stars or hate their sexual partners for their race. I have standards!
 
Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
19,999
I think you misunderstood. I don't think you're full of it. I respect you for discussing that topic. I also hate discussing my preferences with my guy friends. (Don't get me started on the concept of strip clubs.) I meant that guys who try to act like the urge to masturbate was never a problem for them - or that it is shameful to do/talk about - is probably lying.
Ah, yeah my bad. I definitely agree with that too.
 
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DefinitelyReady

DefinitelyReady

Why, do the birds, go on singing??
Mar 14, 2024
674
I think you misunderstood. I don't think you're full of it. I respect you for discussing that topic. I also hate discussing my preferences with my guy friends. (Don't get me started on the concept of strip clubs.) I meant that guys who try to act like the urge to masturbate was never a problem for them - or that it is shameful to do/talk about - is probably lying.
What's this about strip clubs?
 
derpyderpins

derpyderpins

I was wrong
Sep 19, 2023
1,051
What's this about strip clubs?
Ugh...

Look. I like pretty ladies. I like pretty ladies being almost naked and dancing provocatively. I have never, ever, ever understood even one tiny bit the desire men have to go to a strip club.

I've been invited to go. It's always a group of guys. And out of people I've known personally who go to strip clubs, it's always guys going together. So the idea here is ... I go pay a bunch of money to sit next to guys I know and ... Get aroused? While all these guys sit around me? Does not appeal to me.

Now I've heard of couples going to strip clubs as a type of foreplay and I can appreciate that, but for the most part it's a bunch of supposedly straight guys paying to get boners while hanging out with their guy friends and that's just so strange to me.
 
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DefinitelyReady

DefinitelyReady

Why, do the birds, go on singing??
Mar 14, 2024
674
Ugh...

Look. I like pretty ladies. I like pretty ladies being almost naked and dancing provocatively. I have never, ever, ever understood even one tiny bit the desire men have to go to a strip club.

I've been invited to go. It's always a group of guys. And out of people I've known personally who go to strip clubs, it's always guys going together. So the idea here is ... I go pay a bunch of money to sit next to guys I know and ... Get aroused? While all these guys sit around me? Does not appeal to me.

Now I've heard of couples going to strip clubs as a type of foreplay and I can appreciate that, but for the most part it's a bunch of supposedly straight guys paying to get boners while hanging out with their guy friends and that's just so strange to me.
If I were a dude that'd prob be my take too. That's not a bad quality to me. I can see where apex alpha dudes can feel the need to give you crap for it to feel more secure in their masculinity, but that's a perfectly acceptable answer to a gal imo.
 
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Anonstudent

MBBS - Cura te ipsum
May 5, 2021
11
Ugh...

Look. I like pretty ladies. I like pretty ladies being almost naked and dancing provocatively. I have never, ever, ever understood even one tiny bit the desire men have to go to a strip club.

I've been invited to go. It's always a group of guys. And out of people I've known personally who go to strip clubs, it's always guys going together. So the idea here is ... I go pay a bunch of money to sit next to guys I know and ... Get aroused? While all these guys sit around me? Does not appeal to me.

Now I've heard of couples going to strip clubs as a type of foreplay and I can appreciate that, but for the most part it's a bunch of supposedly straight guys paying to get boners while hanging out with their guy friends and that's just so strange to me.
Circlejerks would be the meme answer as to what happens after 1716895656490
 
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DefinitelyReady

DefinitelyReady

Why, do the birds, go on singing??
Mar 14, 2024
674
eatantz

eatantz

I luv dolls
Nov 4, 2023
475
I prefer dub anime over sub. I cant tell the difference between Japanese voices its like painful for my ears lol
 
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derpyderpins

derpyderpins

I was wrong
Sep 19, 2023
1,051
I prefer dub anime over sub. I cant tell the difference between Japanese voices its like painful for my ears lol
This has become a much more acceptable opinion, imo, over the past 10-15 years. Dubs have gotten a lot better than when I first started watching anime. If I'm going to really sit and watch I still prefer sub but I watch a lot of dub for less intense shows.
 
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Saturn_

Saturn_

I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
Apr 22, 2024
323
Too many to even count. Most of them far too socially unacceptable to share publicly.
 
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dyingslowly

Member
Jul 17, 2023
64
I am a guy and I am literally trying so bad to be a bad person in this world like literally, I am a agreeable, sweet, caring, short [this I also fking hate 5'6"] and non-threatening [which I absolutely hate] individual (to some extent was, if genie gave me three wishes I would ask him to remove these from me along with my ability for sex and craving for love and affection then I will go towards the money or important things part) but I got some lessons and I just try to be distant especially from women and to some degree men too, I don't hate them or anything (there is more probability of them hating me) but it is what it is and online whenever I talk to them I think of some dude behind the account or an Alien trying to study humans and that's how I can get away with talking online lol (the anxiety OMG). Physically I am your standard creepy dude that you can get from almost any mom and pop store, how I know that? since I have been referred to this countless times. Also, I try to act threatening but general things listed above never make me look like that. Also my secret is that I want to take 50 Xanax and then shot myself in the head or put a grenade on my head. I know I am ugly but I am ugly like a rat but I want to be ugly like a hyena or a shark or a corc. What's yours?
 
OrphicEnd

OrphicEnd

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Aug 24, 2023
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It wouldn't be a secret if I was willing to say it so easily now would it?
Why not write down several possibilities and it's up to us to decide which one is the right, with no answers ?
 
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sserafim

sserafim

they say it’s darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
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Why not write down several possibilities and it's up to us to decide which one is the right, with no answers ?
Why don't you guys make some guesses? That's more interesting imo
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
3,393
Why don't you guys make some guesses? That's more interesting imo
That idea should be made into a thread of its own. However, I won't be the one making the thread as I don't want others guessing my secret. I still stick to the idea that me being suicidal is my deepest, darkest secret but of course I have some other secrets which are less deep and dark. Maybe you could be the sacrifice and make that thread so that everybody tries to guess your secrets
 
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derpyderpins

derpyderpins

I was wrong
Sep 19, 2023
1,051
Are you even allowed to post this on here? Wtf?
Luckily we have great mods. Guess that answers my question of whether Xinino(sp)/Havnis was just a bit off or a complete psychopath.

Why don't you guys make some guesses? That's more interesting imo
lol well as long as it entertains you, I guess I'll poke a little. It's not about guessing your deepest, darkest secret; it's about guessing what you think is your deepest, darkest secret.

You openly talk about the guys you are interested in, and you've given some of your fantasies, so it probably isn't sex/love related. (And having bisexual thoughts about kpop stars isn't dark, so I'm not counting that.)

One way I'd be tempted to go is that you have an insecurity you don't admit to on here, where you outwardly show so much confidence (in terms of looks, smarts, etc.), but I doubt you'd want people guessing if that's what you had in mind.

However, with how much you already transparently spill, I do like the angle that your deepest, darkest secret is a lie you've told here, or something that would be hypocritical to the ideals you espouse. Maybe you actually have a full-time job and LARP as a NEET as a way of coping and not admitting you are a normie/sheeple? That would be hilarious.

Or maybe when you said you were a German fed, that was misdirection. You're actually a Chinese spy sent here to convince more Americans to be NEETs so that China can more easily take over the US. (er, wait, maybe I'm confusing that guess with one of my answers to the personal dark fantasies thread.)

Otherwise it would have to be something bad you've done that you feel guilty about.
 
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chaosdrifter

chaosdrifter

Member
Mar 20, 2024
28
i've shaved my hairline on my forehead, but cover it with longer hair on top.
until recently i had to rush to get my passport photo taken, totally exhausted and sweaty, only a handful of people had ever seen it
 
JKFleck

JKFleck

Betrayed by my only friend, nothing left to lose
Oct 1, 2023
174
I got raped by my biological father as a kid
 
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Havnis

Havnis

XXXX'ed out 🌲🌲🌲🌲
May 15, 2024
167
Luckily we have great mods. Guess that answers my question of whether Xinino(sp)/Havnis was just a bit off or a complete psychopath.


lol well as long as it entertains you, I guess I'll poke a little. It's not about guessing your deepest, darkest secret; it's about guessing what you think is your deepest, darkest secret.

You openly talk about the guys you are interested in, and you've given some of your fantasies, so it probably isn't sex/love related. (And having bisexual thoughts about kpop stars isn't dark, so I'm not counting that.)

One way I'd be tempted to go is that you have an insecurity you don't admit to on here, where you outwardly show so much confidence (in terms of looks, smarts, etc.), but I doubt you'd want people guessing if that's what you had in mind.

However, with how much you already transparently spill, I do like the angle that your deepest, darkest secret is a lie you've told here, or something that would be hypocritical to the ideals you espouse. Maybe you actually have a full-time job and LARP as a NEET as a way of coping and not admitting you are a normie/sheeple? That would be hilarious.

Or maybe when you said you were a German fed, that was misdirection. You're actually a Chinese spy sent here to convince more Americans to be NEETs so that China can more easily take over the US. (er, wait, maybe I'm confusing that guess with one of my answers to the personal dark fantasies thread.)

Otherwise it would have to be something bad you've done that you feel guilty about.
I am not psychopath, sociopath maybe, the photo I just posted, is her deep darkest desire, she approved it.
 
derpyderpins

derpyderpins

I was wrong
Sep 19, 2023
1,051
I am not psychopath, sociopath maybe, the photo I just posted, is her deep darkest desire, she approved it.
I'm going to go out on a limb and assume she did not, in fact, tell you "hey, please publicly post an obviously inappropriate and potentially-triggering picture with no spoiler or nsfw label as an answer to what my 'secret' is."
 
Havnis

Havnis

XXXX'ed out 🌲🌲🌲🌲
May 15, 2024
167
I'm going to go out on a limb and assume she did not, in fact, tell you "hey, please publicly post an obviously inappropriate and potentially-triggering picture with no spoiler or nsfw label as an answer to what my 'secret' is."
She asked people to guess, I answered with photo that she certainly remember as hot.
 
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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
1,739
I am not psychopath, sociopath maybe, the photo I just posted, is her deep darkest desire, she approved it.
Yeah, that's still an inappropriate thing to do, and this is coming from someone who has had (and is embarrassingly still struggling with) similar desires. Don't post images of rape/gore porn on here dude. That's just gross, especially since that may have been an actual person who has been harmed in that photo and when there are people on this site who have sex-based and violence-based trauma. Also, when and how did she approve of you posting something so vile?
She asked people to guess, I answered with photo that she certainly remember as hot.
Gross, fuck off.
 
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Havnis

Havnis

XXXX'ed out 🌲🌲🌲🌲
May 15, 2024
167
Yeah, that's still an inappropriate thing to do, and this is coming from someone who has had (and is embarrassingly still struggling with) similar desires. Don't post images of rape/gore porn on here dude. That's just gross, especially since that may have been an actual person who has been harmed in that photo and when there are people on this site who have sex-based and violence-based trauma. Also, when and how did she approve of you posting something so vile?

Gross, fuck off.
I know what you don't know, since I had convo with her, I am here showing my real skin unlike her. My desire are based on genuine feeling of love, and not strictly objectification.
 
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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
1,739
I know what you don't know, since I had convo with her, I am here showing my real skin unlike her. My desire are based on genuine feeling of love, and not strictly objectification.
Showing your real skin by posting rape/gore porn on a suicide forum where many of the members on here have past sexual trauma?
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
19,999
Why don't you guys make some guesses? That's more interesting imo
Your secret is you don't have one interesting enough and just wanted other people's secrets in an effort to stave off some boredom. 🤔
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
3,393
Xinino(sp)/Havnis
Say what!? This is probably the most shocking secret here for me that I've seen on this thread. If this is true, I'm actually intrigued...
Your secret is you don't have one interesting enough and just wanted other people's secrets in an effort to stave off some boredom. 🤔
She definitely has some interesting secrets
 
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