Venting What's next

[ChronicPain23]

I live in the countryside outside of a small town, and most young people flee my area for the big cities. There are days when I leave home and then the loneliness makes my heart hurt, I feel terrible.
I have no one but my immediate family, no friends and no girlfriend.
Anxiety and depression are killing me. In addition, facial skin problems, it is very uncomfortable for me, I feel worse
It would be so easy to fall asleep and not wake up, but without my intervention this will not happen


I bought SN (>99% purity), but I'm afraid I won't be able to drink it because of the disgusting taste, so that's the second option.
Rope is the No. 1 option.
My worst worry is my immediate family, after my death some of them may end up in a very bad mental state, but time will tell what will
happen.

I feel empty, hopeless, powerless. A happy life is not written for everyone :(

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be really tiring having to suffer like that, to me existence certainly is too cruel. But anyway I wish you the best with your plans.

 

[Valky]

I am incredibly sorry that you are feeling this way op.

I hate to be that person but have you consulted medical professionals yet? Psychiatrists/therapists and maybe someone who can help you with your skin problems?

 

[ChronicPain23]

I am incredibly sorry that you are feeling this way op.

I hate to be that person but have you consulted medical professionals yet? Psychiatrists/therapists and maybe someone who can help you with your skin problems?

One psychotherapist, psychiatrists several, but in the end my life is a failure - zero ambitions, goals, plans, interests. I contribute nothing to society, I am a nobody.

As for skin problems, I used to take antibiotics from a dermatologist, they did not work.

 

[Valky]

One psychotherapist, psychiatrists several, but in the end my life is a failure - zero ambitions, goals, plans, interests. I contribute nothing to society, I am a nobody.

As for skin problems, I used to take antibiotics from a dermatologist, they did not work.

I am really sorry to hear that :/

If you do want to give life another chance then I'd recommend you trying out to find a good therapist for you and maybe even medication. Also different things for your skin.

However, I also understand if you are tired of trying, don't get me wrong. I wish you all the best, whatever you decide to do!

 

[Walilamdzii]

Hey man,

I'm sorry that this is how life is for you right now...

I would be concerned about consuming it too, the taste sounds awful. It's never appealed to me.

I feel all of those adjectives too.

 

[Elle]

Hope you find peace, or some goodness in your life, OP.