whats keeping you sane for now

[bbye111]

holding on to solo night walks and cigarettes before ctb.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm not entirely sure I am sane! Still- if I'm not, then I've been like this the majority of my life. I guess I have the potential to get worse though.

I think either running out of money or going back into a wage slave job will be enough to push me over the edge into a much deeper depression.

 

[anamikaa94]

Thought that i can die anytimw and can be free from this pain

 

[MentalStefan]

Morphine, antidepressants, burgers and computing. Paradoxically my 'healthy obsession' with computers and programming is keeping me sane.

 

[Huntfish34]

Alcohol and various other substances... Cigarettes included of course, gotta have my nicotine.

 

[bbye111]

Alcohol and various other substances... Cigarettes included of course, gotta have my nicotine.

haha yea, a daily dose of nicotine is a must

 

[don't want it]

nothing

 

[Shu]

Weed but I just ran out.

 

[my_sundown]

Routine: work, dinner sleep, more sleep, and medicine.

* failed attempts at dry January.

 

[FuneralCry]

There could never be anything that brings me any kind of comfort or relief apart from the thought of being permanently gone from this world, but even then death still feels like a distance away and as a result of that I feel so incredibly trapped here in this hellish world.

The reality is that if someone doesn't choose to leave then they basically have no choice but to continue existing, and to exist is a choice that I've never wanted to make and never could do. But sadly I'm still here until the day in which I can finally return to nothingness where by that point this existence will be long forgotten about, it won't even be a distant memory and to me that is perfection.

 

[SamTam33]

I thought my savings would run out in March and that would be the catalyst for ctb, but I forgot about a small amount of money in my retirement account.

I've never contributed to it because I don't expect to be around for retirement age, but my old employer would make contributions sometimes.

Combined with my other accounts, I can maybe last through July or August, but thinking about being around for all those months = instant tears.

I keep filling out job applications and doing interviews, but I never get hired.

I have to participate in that process so that when I ctb, it's fuel to overcome SI.

I need to be able to know that I've tried everything.

Anyway, I wouldn't say I'm sane lol, but I have a bit of breathing room for now.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Hiding from the world

 

[lotus11]

extremely little

 

[outrider567]

Nothing much

 

[MidnightCat]

Thought that i can die anytimw and can be free from this pain

This.

Cannot describe it better, althought I'm not really sure I'm sane.

 

[Wannagonow]

My Dog

 

[throwawayyy]

I thought my savings would run out in March and that would be the catalyst for ctb, but I forgot about a small amount of money in my retirement account.

I've never contributed to it because I don't expect to be around for retirement age, but my old employer would make contributions sometimes.

Combined with my other accounts, I can maybe last through July or August, but thinking about being around for all those months = instant tears.

I keep filling out job applications and doing interviews, but I never get hired.

I have to participate in that process so that when I ctb, it's fuel to overcome SI.

I need to be able to know that I've tried everything.

Anyway, I wouldn't say I'm sane lol, but I have a bit of breathing room for now.

Same here bro. Only diff is I'm not putting any effort into job apps. Already know it's a waste of time. Rn the opportunity to travel and party before CTB is the only thing keeping me sane ig

 

[Sourdough]

Nothing. I don't have any solace. I stare at mindless posts that bring me no joy or resonance until I can sleep again and escape for another 9 hours.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Nothing. I need out.

 

[randy]

delicious coffee every morning is my one and only joy in life currently

 

[Aya&Dazy]

I don't drink, smoke, drugs or party. I have no idea how I come this far. lol
As long as I don't have to go outside so often then I'm fine.

 

[Krieger]

THC and the desire to travel the world mainly.

 

[vultureilse]

wouldnt say im exactly sane rn tbh. mainly sleeping as much as possible, alcohol and trying to distract myself as much as i can with music and youtube videos. these usually kinda work but recently i havent been able to escape my thoughts much

 

[Forest Fire]

Interacting with others as little as possible
Gym when i'm physically healthy, which is rare these days.
Cannabis and song writing/youtube when i'm injured or not sleeping

 

[corpsive]

Honestly? The third game of a series I really like is coming out on the 26th or something of next month. I'm in a really tough spot where there is absolutely nothing that I've been able to do to relieve my constant distraught that's been choking me for the past couple of months- even to where I'm still looking forward to figuring out where to buy SN regardless- but man.. kind of excited for that game honestly. I'll live until then. Maybe.

 

[theboy]

Pills
Pychologist

 

[wombhockey]

Hope and fear

 

[jay308]

SS , Youtube , Netflix , Food

 

[Oogie]

my boyfriend is next to me. gives me reason. i feel like people would invalidate me for having suicidal feelings right now, because i have a partner. i'm lucky to know he loves me. perhaps my feelings are 'irrational' - i find the times where i'm the most suicidal are irrational, and that i'm more a danger to myself when i randomly have an urge and an intent to attempt than when it is planned. in fact, i've always hesitated when it's planned.

 

[Ilayis]

Masturbating to forget about my miserable life for 10-15 minutes.