Manaaja

Manaaja

euROPE
Sep 10, 2018
1,382
I'm jealous of those animes which go like "I'm a super shy, introverted, antisocial, mute or partially mute, anxious, autistic person. All the people want to be my friends and all the boys/girls want to date me and think I'm the greatest person ever! And everyone treats me so well and is so nice to me and I'm the most popular, talented and skilled and liked person in town!". I have a love/hate relationship with them. At the same time they are so unrealistic they make me grow a tail, but at the same time it's nice to see wish fulfillment and fantasies.
 
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archipelago

Student
Jun 27, 2021
148
Gaslighting and people offering unsolicited religious advice when they were paid for a professional (non-religious) service. I fucking can't stand overbearing religious people who shove their religion down your throat at every fucking chance they get, it's honestly no surprise that most people find them insufferable.

Also the insinuation that I don't work hard, when I busted my ass in school because I wanted nothing more than to be independent and have a good career. But I have a fucking neurological disorder and it really got in the way of that. I'm just really tired of all the gaslighting, the holier-than-thou assholes, the idea that because someone is disabled that it means they're lazy. Fuck people like that with a fucking cactus. And a rusty nail.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,033
I got a match with someone on some app called Coffee Meets Bagel with someone who looks good but I'm pretty sure it's a fake profile and even if it isn't I have no idea what to say since I didn't think I would get this far.
 
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BrokenLine

Experienced
Jul 13, 2019
255
ME, I put on a good face when I'm around people but one I cant i try my best. Today i realized I really don't think they like me, that i mean nothing.
 
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Mythyis001

Member
Feb 20, 2022
6
I got a match with someone on some app called Coffee Meets Bagel with someone who looks good but I'm pretty sure it's a fake profile and even if it isn't I have no idea what to say since I didn't think I would get this far.
For what it is worth I didn't find many fake profiles while on Coffee Meets Bagel. Doesn't mean it isn't fake but you might as well give it a shot. I did loads of online dating a few years ago. I also thought I wouldn't have success. I am a very short guy and not conventionally attractive. It is rough. Ran across quite a few fake profiles, and have been rejected a ton. But even with my ugly face I was still able to find people who were interested.
 
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T90-Alpha

T90-Alpha

Hopeless
Apr 21, 2022
139
48F49C25 46DD 4E54 A0DC 7B8119EF2B54 I had to drive over 460 miles today to meet family. I feel like shit, I had to wake up at 3 am
 
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Circles

Visionary
Sep 3, 2018
2,297
Normal people just don't fucking understand what it's like to be suicidal for half of your goddamn life and just now I want to recover, but somehow I feel like I can't no matter what the fuck I do. I'm just so fucking done trying to improve when I always fail.
 
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Fragile

Fragile

Broken
Jul 7, 2019
1,496
My fucking keyboard broke. Now I have to use the on-screen keyboard and it absolutely sucks. I can't get into garbage internet discussions or help Elon stress test his new "free speech" twitter.

I'll have to wait until next month to buy a new one.
 
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AnnonyBox

AnnonyBox

Specialist
Apr 11, 2018
335
Worried about my friend dying in war, worried about the whole Roe v Wade thing meaning they come for LGBT folks next, worried about the general collapse of civilization, and just general depression and chronic pain. I hate being alive.
 
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Lullaby

Lullaby

🌙
Mar 9, 2022
651
I'm so tired of pretending that I'm okay, and I'm tired of people forcing me to move onto the next thing.

I'm still hurting, I'm still depressed, I'm sad, I'm tired. People tell me I shouldn't be sad about xyz because I have this or that to look forward to, but I'm just not anymore; I'm not looking forward to anything.

I'm not excited, I'm not happy, I'm just really hopeless about everything. I genuinely feel like I'm fooling myself at his point. I try to work, I try to go to school, I try to make friends, I try relationships and they always go wrong in some way. I'm just tired of trying.

I'm tired of being hurt and disappointed constantly, and being told to just accept it.
 
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western_heart

western_heart

trying to save ourself
May 23, 2021
628
being unproductive at work (it's like i don't care anymore, i don't even try)
not using my lunch break to go on a bike ride
 
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whatevs

whatevs

Mining for copium in the weirdest places.
Jan 15, 2022
2,914
Fat is slowly winning an uphill battle.
 
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BrokenLine

Experienced
Jul 13, 2019
255
Getting ghosted,
 
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Painless_end

Painless_end

Life is too difficult for me
Oct 11, 2019
794
How much of a struggle life is if you can't CTB

"Get busy living or get busy dying"
 
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T90-Alpha

T90-Alpha

Hopeless
Apr 21, 2022
139
procrastinating on schoolwork i have to finish in a week. FUCK
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,033
Sick of people who claim to know me telling me I'm a nice person. An incel can't be a nice person, idiots.
 
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S like suicide

S like suicide

Enlightened
Apr 29, 2021
1,435
I can't sleep even if i'm very tired
 
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ornitier199

Arcanist
Mar 26, 2022
413
My bleeding wrists. the stinging feeling and my ability to kill myself like I wanted today so I'm back here again filling in the nothingness right now until i can get back to it later
 
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jackdaw

Member
May 12, 2022
8
Work. An arrogant boss who cares about only profit and power
 
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WorthlessTrash

WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
2,415
People who make me jealous just by existing :(
 
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Trannydiary

Trannydiary

Member
Dec 11, 2020
64
Can't figure out how to escape this homophobic shithole
 
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PinkSakura

PinkSakura

Rip Flower I'll never forget you </3 我想你花
Feb 8, 2021
137
complicated grief + poverty
 
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BrokenLine

Experienced
Jul 13, 2019
255
A couple of days ago for other reasons i was fasting and not drinking. I was in the ideal mood to CTB, and got the last thing i needed. But stupidly drank and had something to eat, then it all got worse. (how in hell can it get worse) so now posting.
 
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Lullaby

Lullaby

🌙
Mar 9, 2022
651
I'm so tired, I'm SO tired.

It's one thing when you're so anxious about the worst case scenario happening…then when it actually does happen, it just breaks you even more. I'm so goddamn tired of being right.
 
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T90-Alpha

T90-Alpha

Hopeless
Apr 21, 2022
139
just cut myself accidentally shaving again
another inconvenience in my life
im never good at anything
 
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Arrow

Arrow

Rewrite
May 1, 2020
769
the fact that i didn't get that much done today
 
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xo777

are we almost there?
Apr 5, 2022
170
My boyfriend is cheating/replacing me slowly with another girl. He was the only one I could talk to about everything and felt he understood now his patience is gone, he barely talks to me, he lies, everything is about her and she is always his top everything especially messages. I'm happy he's going to still be happy and that he'll always be okay but it still really hurts and I know it's selfish to be sad about this when I already had plans on taking my life i'm just really sad. I know when I leave the world will still go on but watching that happen while I am still here just stings. And I know really soon i'm going to feel so much better and I won't even remember the pain I went through and i'm really excited and ready to rest don't get me wrong it's just a lot. 48 more days and i'll never have to cry again. I think I am just going to keep low contact and let him be happy and with her. I'll feel better soon I hope.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,033
I'm starting to think that maybe there is a God or gods and they're trying to fuck with my suicide plans by bombarding me with things to inconvenience my plans. Firstly, my other grandfather, on my mom's side, just died meaning that if I were to CTB this year it would mean she'd lose both her father and her son in the same year. Now morally I don't particularly care but it still feels like a sick game that some powerful entity is playing on me just to gauge whether or not I'd call their bluff.

Well sorry to say but even that just might not be enough to stop me. If you're watching this then I'll have you know that I am calling your bluff. If you don't want me to die so badly then you know what you have to do. You have to get me a girlfriend but we all know that's not going to happen because no girl that I myself would be attracted to would be insane and stupid enough to even feel a shred of attraction for me beyond a surface level.
 
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