Whatever i did in past life

[Med Amine]

Yahwei is making sure i suffer for it
Ethnic ugly balding 5'7 from war torn turd world country
Suicide and i feel like im softer and more dramatic than the retards that live around me
Dont suicide then im stuck an ugly short dude with 0 worth

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

 

[inpainnosleep]

I'm deeply into astrology and spiritualism, and apperintly according to many views that right now we are paying for whatever we did in or past life (or even in a life before that.) I have been suffering so much since I was born :( I also started to have terrible intrusive thoughts around the age of 5 to the point that I was terrified of myself and afraid that I would grow up to become a serial killer or something. The person with whom I had my longest and most meaningful/passionate relationship with was pretty much the embodiment of the person who I was afraid of becoming when I was a child. I think the universe brought us together to show me who I used to be. This person also gave me a nervous breakdown and the medication that I took for it triggered the beginning of the neurological problems that I have now. He passed away from a heroin OD a few years ago (he was trying to self medicate a very painful illness) and I often wonder if it was actually a suicide since it was something he talked about a lot. I feel like I'm following in his footsteps but unfortunately I do not the ability to source an OD.

 

[bl33ding_heart]

I somewhat believe in the concept of karmic debt and past lives, and I honestly believe I must have made terrible decisions in a past life to deserve a fate this dreadful. I wish to ctb but I'm terrified of possibly returning back to life in an even worse than before state.